Discussion How do you plan to cancel your SI when the time comes?

[Versailles]

I suppose that the intensity of SI is inversely proportional to the age of the person, being a young person, I must find a way to end my SI.

Drugs, alcohol or sex is a good way for me, but since the first two options will make the SN method likely to fail, I will go for the third option.

What about you?

 

[LenkaX]

If you can get sex, why CTB at all????

 

[Eire1992]

Personally, and it's going to sound "new agey" but, mind over matter. I know my mind. I know what's it's going to conjure up and try to use. I have my regimen set out. I plan to follow it to the letter. I know the stuff that's likely to stop me (thoughts of my family), so I'm doing my letter to them now instead of at 11pm tonight, an hour before I go. For me, prepare and approach it intellectually. SN is my method too, I've prepared in every way possible in terms of other meds to use with it and I've added a strong sedative to the regimen to be taken with the antacid 30 mins before. Once the SN is in, calm music, dark hotel room and hopefully just slip away.

 

[Versailles]

Personally, and it's going to sound "new agey" but, mind over matter. I know my mind. I know what's it's going to conjure up and try to use. I have my regimen set out. I plan to follow it to the letter. I know the stuff that's likely to stop me (thoughts of my family), so I'm doing my letter to them now instead of at 11pm tonight, an hour before I go. For me, prepare and approach it intellectually. SN is my method too, I've prepared in every way possible in terms of other meds to use with it and I've added a strong sedative to the regimen to be taken with the antacid 30 mins before. Once the SN is in, calm music, dark hotel room and hopefully just slip away.

just slip away, although I like the word escape better, or exit. Thinking and meditating on those words also helps a lot.

 

[noname223]

I will go when I have severe psychosomatic pain (once again). I think this will do it.

 

[Eire1992]

just slip away, although I like the word escape better, or exit. Thinking and meditating on those words also helps a lot.

It really does. I had a long train ride today to my city of choice for my departure. It left a lot of time to think. My mind is calmer than it's been in years. I know that the SI will rear its head at the end, but I hope that I've done enough to ensure that it will be too late. My only hope is that I lose consciousness before that can happen. I hope so. But if not, I'm ready to face it.

 

[Drimacus]

Maybe just read this post.

 

[FuneralCry]

I just think when you reach a point of desperation you are able to overcome the SI more. You have no more doubts and thoughts of suicide have taken over. You are desperate to escape this life and need a way out.

 

[motel rooms]

I suppose that the intensity of SI is inversely proportional to the age of the person, being a young person, I must find a way to end my SI.
Drugs, alcohol or sex is a good way for me, but since the first two options will make the SN method likely to fail, I will go for the third option.

Sex? How does having sex help you fight your SI? Sex is the reason I keep postponing ctb

 

[WFJ74]

Benzos.

 

[Versailles]

Sex? How does having sex help you fight your SI? Sex is the reason I keep postponing ctb

Don't ask, just enjoy it

 

[Rayzieka]

I chose SN as well. I think when the time comes your SI will leave enough to find the end.
If my SI is still too strong then it's just not my time and I'll keep waiting unless its urgent. (being I find myself out of control to the point of causing harm to someone else in one way or another)

 

[motel rooms]

Don't ask, just enjoy it

 

[Versailles]

That sounds better in my language: No preguntes, solo gózalo