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GentlyFading

GentlyFading

seasoned lurker (*ノωノ)ᵉᵉᵏ
Dec 28, 2021
50
**Please be conscious of admin's no-method-talk rule! I'll refrain from sharing details on what method will facilitate my passing and instead focus on other aspects of planning.**

Hello everyone! I've decided to ctb at home. The main concern I have is how my housemates will find my body.

Some things I have planned:
Where I'll leave my body.
  • I've decided on dying in my closet. It's a bit cramped, but I can still fit inside it. The bonus is that It has a door that I can close or leave cracked open.
  • Another bonus for the closet door is that, if I want, I could put a sign to not open it and call emergency services (just to spare my roomies from seeing my body, There wont be any safety risks with opening the door). I haven't decided on how to phrase it so if y'all have any ideas please let me know!
Dealing with the excrement. The closet floor is untreated wood and would be hell to scrub shit and piss out of. Not to mention that my landlord is a lazy fuck and will probably leave cleanup to my housemates.
  • I have a waterproof liner that I'll lay on the floor and secure with painter's tape. I'll place some old towels on top to make it comfortable.
  • I'm going to take a laxative before bed three days before my departure date. Then I'll stick to a clear liquid diet before hand. Its overkill but I'd rather be safe than sorry. This isn't too much of an issue for me because I struggle with anorexia and don't eat much to begin with.
  • I will either 1) layer clothing and hope, or 2) miraculously build the courage to leave the house and buy diapers. It'll probably be the former.
That's all I have for now other than keeping my room tidy. Feel free to share your plans! I'm especially curious about what other things folks take into consideration.
 
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Chaestergram

Chaestergram

Free spirit
Nov 24, 2021
90
To be honest this is the last thing I thought of when I tried, like I'm just thinking that it ain't my damn problem, other people can deal with it I really don't care about their feelings, thoughts, impact or whatever
 
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badluckkid

New Member
Dec 20, 2021
3
I don't want to be found. I want to be forgotten. I am a ghost. I don't use social media platforms and I don't contact anyone. This is a pattern I started years ago to help others forget me. Soon I will disappear, never to be heard from again.
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
1,628
I think putting a sign on the closet door is a good idea. Even if they ignore the instructions, it will allow your housemates to go into it "prepared", for lack of a better word, if they do decide to open the door.
 
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TheEndTimes

TheEndTimes

A gay 👨‍❤️‍💋‍👨
Aug 23, 2021
68
I live alone in doorman building. I have not shared my key with anyone else, but the maintenance staff can enter my apartment. There is is no reason for them to do so unless I request service. I suppose the concierges might notice that I'm not around, but I think it will be my neighbors reporting the smell of my decomposing body that will lead to my discovery. I plan on quitting my job before I ctb so that there's no meddling from my coworkers when I don't report for work.

I plan on putting a sign on my bedroom door. Adult diapers are a great idea.
 
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WilNord

Student
Dec 17, 2021
133
You could go to the bathroom, lock the door and sit on the toilet.
This way you wont have to deal with someone barging in while you attempt it or the waste you'll be releasing as a dead man/woman
 
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bigfishlittlefish

Student
Dec 21, 2021
148
**Please be conscious of admin's no-method-talk rule! I'll refrain from sharing details on what method will facilitate my passing and instead focus on other aspects of planning.**

Hello everyone! I've decided to ctb at home. The main concern I have is how my housemates will find my body.

Some things I have planned:
Where I'll leave my body.
  • I've decided on dying in my closet. It's a bit cramped, but I can still fit inside it. The bonus is that It has a door that I can close or leave cracked open.
  • Another bonus for the closet door is that, if I want, I could put a sign to not open it and call emergency services (just to spare my roomies from seeing my body, There wont be any safety risks with opening the door). I haven't decided on how to phrase it so if y'all have any ideas please let me know!
Dealing with the excrement. The closet floor is untreated wood and would be hell to scrub shit and piss out of. Not to mention that my landlord is a lazy fuck and will probably leave cleanup to my housemates.
  • I have a waterproof liner that I'll lay on the floor and secure with painter's tape. I'll place some old towels on top to make it comfortable.
  • I'm going to take a laxative before bed three days before my departure date. Then I'll stick to a clear liquid diet before hand. Its overkill but I'd rather be safe than sorry. This isn't too much of an issue for me because I struggle with anorexia and don't eat much to begin with.
  • I will either 1) layer clothing and hope, or 2) miraculously build the courage to leave the house and buy diapers. It'll probably be the former.
That's all I have for now other than keeping my room tidy. Feel free to share your plans! I'm especially curious about what other things folks take into consideration.
Until now, this has been the only reason I haven't gone all the way.

I live alone. No one nearby has keys. The only other person who has keys is my Mum and boy would I not want her to have to see that - especially given that at the point where someone realised something might be up could be easily at least a week after it might have happened. I could give a friend a key but honestly it seemed like a shitty thing to purposefully do to someone.

The only idea I had for doing it at home would be to set my method in motion, then send an email to a former therapist of mine. By the time they saw it I'd likely be gone, so little chance of intervention bringing me back, but they would obviously have to alert services to investigate so then at least the proper authorities would find me, people who are trained for dealing with that sort of thing.

Thankfully now, I hopefully won't have to worry about any of that as I'm talking to an exit organisation so it will all be out "in the open" as it were.
 
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Noctis

Noctis

I wish I'd done it years ago
Dec 15, 2021
308
I like the idea of adult diapers; I hadn't thought of that.

I plan on sending some delayed emails to the local police telling them how to find my body and the risks to them because of the method I use. A couple of hours after I've passed, they'll get detailed instructions on where I am, how to get there, and what precautions to take. I don't want anyone I know to have to find my body; that wouldn't be fair to them.
 
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subj

Student
Dec 16, 2021
107
I live alone in doorman building. I have not shared my key with anyone else, but the maintenance staff can enter my apartment. There is is no reason for them to do so unless I request service. I suppose the concierges might notice that I'm not around, but I think it will be my neighbors reporting the smell of my decomposing body that will lead to my discovery. I plan on quitting my job before I ctb so that there's no meddling from my coworkers when I don't report for work.

I plan on putting a sign on my bedroom door. Adult diapers are a great idea.
if it takes days or weeks to be foun in a warn apartment it coul mean a haz mat crew needs to do the cleanup. in some cases the fluids seep into carpets and wood then that stuff gets torn up
 
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Dot

Info abt typng styl on prfle.
Sep 26, 2021
3,252
**Please be conscious of admin's no-method-talk rule! I'll refrain from sharing details on what method will facilitate my passing and instead focus on other aspects of planning.**

Hello everyone! I've decided to ctb at home. The main concern I have is how my housemates will find my body.

Some things I have planned:
Where I'll leave my body.
  • I've decided on dying in my closet. It's a bit cramped, but I can still fit inside it. The bonus is that It has a door that I can close or leave cracked open.
  • Another bonus for the closet door is that, if I want, I could put a sign to not open it and call emergency services (just to spare my roomies from seeing my body, There wont be any safety risks with opening the door). I haven't decided on how to phrase it so if y'all have any ideas please let me know!
Dealing with the excrement. The closet floor is untreated wood and would be hell to scrub shit and piss out of. Not to mention that my landlord is a lazy fuck and will probably leave cleanup to my housemates.
  • I have a waterproof liner that I'll lay on the floor and secure with painter's tape. I'll place some old towels on top to make it comfortable.
  • I'm going to take a laxative before bed three days before my departure date. Then I'll stick to a clear liquid diet before hand. Its overkill but I'd rather be safe than sorry. This isn't too much of an issue for me because I struggle with anorexia and don't eat much to begin with.
  • I will either 1) layer clothing and hope, or 2) miraculously build the courage to leave the house and buy diapers. It'll probably be the former.
That's all I have for now other than keeping my room tidy. Feel free to share your plans! I'm especially curious about what other things folks take into consideration.
Am crious if adlt dper wll alwys b needd. E.g. if ctb ws happnng in bed or whlst sttng in a chr..
 
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wannaseepenguins

Member
Dec 12, 2021
10
I've considered checking into a hotel for a couple days and putting up the do not disturb. I'd still feel bad for whoever found me but at least it wouldn't be someone who knew me.
 
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LookieLou

Member
Dec 21, 2021
41
Until now, this has been the only reason I haven't gone all the way.

I live alone. No one nearby has keys. The only other person who has keys is my Mum and boy would I not want her to have to see that - especially given that at the point where someone realised something might be up could be easily at least a week after it might have happened. I could give a friend a key but honestly it seemed like a shitty thing to purposefully do to someone.

The only idea I had for doing it at home would be to set my method in motion, then send an email to a former therapist of mine. By the time they saw it I'd likely be gone, so little chance of intervention bringing me back, but they would obviously have to alert services to investigate so then at least the proper authorities would find me, people who are trained for dealing with that sort of thing.

Thankfully now, I hopefully won't have to worry about any of that as I'm talking to an exit organisation so it will all be out "in the open" as it were.
I tried a hotel room. They have a gadget that opens doors with the metal v-shaped security lock.
 
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Bleak

Student
Nov 10, 2021
178
Not currently planning to kill myself but ideally I wanted to do it out in the wilderness. I figured outdoors would leave no mess or bad associations for anyone's house/workplace. When I was gonna drink N though I just was on couch at home and I guess I didn't care that my father would be the one to find me.
 
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LookieLou

Member
Dec 21, 2021
41
**Please be conscious of admin's no-method-talk rule! I'll refrain from sharing details on what method will facilitate my passing and instead focus on other aspects of planning.**

Hello everyone! I've decided to ctb at home. The main concern I have is how my housemates will find my body.

Some things I have planned:
Where I'll leave my body.
  • I've decided on dying in my closet. It's a bit cramped, but I can still fit inside it. The bonus is that It has a door that I can close or leave cracked open.
  • Another bonus for the closet door is that, if I want, I could put a sign to not open it and call emergency services (just to spare my roomies from seeing my body, There wont be any safety risks with opening the door). I haven't decided on how to phrase it so if y'all have any ideas please let me know!
Dealing with the excrement. The closet floor is untreated wood and would be hell to scrub shit and piss out of. Not to mention that my landlord is a lazy fuck and will probably leave cleanup to my housemates.
  • I have a waterproof liner that I'll lay on the floor and secure with painter's tape. I'll place some old towels on top to make it comfortable.
  • I'm going to take a laxative before bed three days before my departure date. Then I'll stick to a clear liquid diet before hand. Its overkill but I'd rather be safe than sorry. This isn't too much of an issue for me because I struggle with anorexia and don't eat much to begin with.
  • I will either 1) layer clothing and hope, or 2) miraculously build the courage to leave the house and buy diapers. It'll probably be the former.
That's all I have for now other than keeping my room tidy. Feel free to share your plans! I'm especially curious about what other things folks take into consideration.
The movie "Three Billboards.." had a terminally ill character who put a dark bag/hood over his head with a note pinned to it that told his wife no to look under the hood.
 
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empty

Member
Jan 5, 2021
50
I plan to be in an isolated area like the woods, so I won't be found immediately. I'd schedule an email to someone explaining what happened so they can call emergency services. That way, my family won't find my body. I had planned on scheduling the email to local police, but I can't find their email online.
 
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LingeringUnreal

LingeringUnreal

dumb of ass
Dec 14, 2021
118
My hope is dying in bed so the body is very easy to just wrap up and toss in a bag. My family's very morbid so I don't think finding me dead would traumatize them, but I'd rather be in my bed than like, sprawled in the middle of the floor or something. Too lazy to go into the woods, wanna be able to listen to my playlist or play some Harvest Moon beforehand lol.
 
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4eyebiped

4eyebiped

Mage
Dec 28, 2019
567
I have a far older good friend who I will send an email to the evening I will exit. He is aware of this and the email will be worded in a way that will read as if he was not. He will then call the authorities early the following morning.

My friends are good friends. They are very open minded individuals. I wish everyone was as lucky as me on that front.
 
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eternalmelancholy

eternalmelancholy

waiting for the bus
Mar 24, 2021
1,169
I've considered checking into a hotel for a couple days and putting up the do not disturb. I'd still feel bad for whoever found me but at least it wouldn't be someone who knew me.

A hotel room is far from ideal but probably the best option for most people. You have plenty of time alone, no one you know will discover your body and the large hotel chains have protocols in place to deal with suicides.
 
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Hirokami

Hirokami

Out of order
Feb 21, 2021
607
A part of me doesn't want my body found if I decide to go through with this, though that wouldn't be fair to my mother and the few people I assume still care about me. At the very least, I'd want them to have closure on my whereabouts. For how I'd want others to find me, it would look like I'm sleeping in bed. And, in a sense, I would be.
 
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sadeyesWA

sadeyesWA

See ya later, alligator.
Dec 15, 2021
32
When I attempted, I did it in the shower. A nice little cubicle to wash away my final earthly gifts.

Method didn't work, if you're curious.
 
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eternalmelancholy

waiting for the bus
Mar 24, 2021
1,169
When I attempted, I did it in the shower. A nice little cubicle to wash away my final earthly gifts.

Method didn't work, if you're curious.

If you don't mind me asking what was your method? I thought about doing it naked in the tub so the clean up would be easier. But I don't want the person who finds my body to take pictures and upload it to the internet. I plan on doing it in a hotel room so you never know how strangers will react.
 
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Brokenwithbpd

Mage
Jun 15, 2020
503
I would put a note on the door to
Not come in and to call 911
 
YMN

YMN

even a procrastinator in suicide
Nov 14, 2021
60
I would put a note on the door to
Not come in and to call 911
Same. I plan on ctbing in a hotel room, so I've thought of dying in the bathroom and leaving a note on the door that's like: DEAD BODY INSIDE, CALL THE POLICE. DO NOT ENTER. Hopefully whatever hotel staff comes into my room will just call the cops and won't get traumatized.
 
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Julgran

Enlightened
Dec 15, 2021
1,427
I would put a note on the door to
Not come in and to call 911
Same. I plan on ctbing in a hotel room, so I've thought of dying in the bathroom and leaving a note on the door that's like: DEAD BODY INSIDE, CALL THE POLICE. DO NOT ENTER. Hopefully whatever hotel staff comes into my room will just call the cops and won't get traumatized.

Be careful with that sign - someone might see it too early, burst through the door and prevent you from going through with your attempl.
 
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YMN

even a procrastinator in suicide
Nov 14, 2021
60
Be careful with that sign - someone might see it too early, burst through the door and prevent you from going through with your attempl.
Oh by leaving a sign on the door I meant the bathroom door, not the front door. No one would see the message unless they actually entered my room. Which would be the hotel staff and I'd likely be long gone by then.
 
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Brokenwithbpd

Mage
Jun 15, 2020
503
Be careful with that sign - someone might see it too early, burst through the door and prevent you from going through with your attempl.
Hmm good point didn't think of that
 
fox_wannabe

fox_wannabe

Enlightened
Jul 7, 2021
1,112
I was planning go into the forest and die.

I mean It is I think classic one.
 
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sadeyesWA

sadeyesWA

See ya later, alligator.
Dec 15, 2021
32
I was planning go into the forest and die.

I mean It is I think classic one.
That's not a bad idea. This place is lousy with scenery. We've got a freaking rain forest. That could be an awesome place to go. Hike deep enough in and nobody will find you for years.
 
_Seeking

_Seeking

I'm only here for this moment
Dec 16, 2021
205
I am planning on putting down those puppy pads for potty training, that should take care of any possible vomit as well. Also, Dulcolax suppositories will clean you out in an hour and no need to wait on an oral laxative. It all sounds pretty gross and morbid, but I guess better that than worrying about leaving a mess behind. I expect about 48 hours to go by until people realize that I've gone ahead and done it, and police will likely be called.

I've thought about a forest preserve, and if I am still mobile enough that is a possibility. The problem I see is that it would cause a whole search party to come out looking, when it may be better to give people a quicker closure. Close family members will know I've killed myself, and it might piss them off that I've caused things to drag out with my body. I would have to give them a map of where to find me or something like that.
 
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