Discussion How do you pick your date once you’ve decided to CTB?

[xLosthopex]

So I'm 100% sure about my decision to ctb, I have my chosen method all planned and ready to go, I was going to ctb this week but each time my date comes I'm just like "ok maybe just one more day"- But like every day is misery, it's not like I'm actually enjoying anything, so why do I keep procrastinating and putting it off? If I don't ctb soon my anorexia will kill me anyway at the rate it's at right now, and I'd much rather die from my chosen method than a heart attack from my eating disorder. The main thing I will miss when I go is my dogs, I think each day I just keep thinking "I want just one last day to spend with them" -but I keep saying this every day and not end up doing it! Maybe because I have everything ready to go with my method I just feel more secure and that I can just go when I want anyway, but I don't really want to keep putting it off either because life is a living hell, so why won't I just do it?? Maybe it's also to do with SI idk or the fear of failing
Anyone else in the same position?

 

[Symbiote]

Whenever I feel like it. I have nothing to stop me except my own self. Sometimes when you have family that is ignorant of mental illness, it can be just as good as a family who cares about mental illness but is ignorant towards you.

 

[SmellyRat]

Same here only thing im living for is my doggo.

All i can say is you'll know when the time is right.

Let life guide you.

 

[Kat!]

I feel like the best time to do it is when I'm really happy, and content with my life. Rather than being extremely upset.

 

[Cakes]

I sadly don't have a method yet, but I couldn't go and leave my little dog :( I don't think anyone would look after her well enough as she requires a lot of attention etc

 

[Life_and_Death]

Basically what the others said. When the time is right you'll know. I've had that feeling a few times but still don't have my method in hand. I might change it to something I already have but I'd rather not. I guess that can be a back up. Sorry started thinking and didn't stop typing lol.

 

[Cakes]

Basically what the others said. When the time is right you'll know. I've had that feeling a few times but still don't have my method in hand. I might change it to something I already have but I'd rather not. I guess that can be a back up. Sorry started thinking and didn't stop typing lol.

May I ask your method?

 

[GoneGoneGone]

Maybe because now you have all the details set, the proverbial weight has been lifted off your shoulders, and you don't feel that urge so strongly?

 

[Marauder]

My original plan was to ctb on nameday. But I missed it

 

[Life_and_Death]

May I ask your method?

sn but im scared to order it plus even if i wasnt im kind of between places right now so i have no safe drop location. however i do have some rope for an art project im doing that might work. but the rope is only going to be used if ive really really had enough.

 

[Cakes]

sn but im scared to order it plus even if i wasnt im kind of between places right now so i have no safe drop location. however i do have some rope for an art project im doing that might work. but the rope is only going to be used if ive really really had enough.

Ah I see, I'm scared to order SN as well.. and I'm feeling the same, feeling in between etc!

 

[stoned-cold]

For me, my date just depends on finding the right place at the right time. I thought about it a lot and I have my method ready. Some days are more tempting than others but I know it has to be done with care. I'm just waiting at this point

 

[xLosthopex]

Ah I see, I'm scared to order SN as well.. and I'm feeling the same, feeling in between etc!

I received SN no problem and I think we're in the same country

 

[lonelymountaingirl]

Date is tricky for me because of being aware of statistics concerning proximity to holidays or other big event days (parent passing anniversary, birthday, etc) and am trying to stay an outlier of the stats.

I don't have a perfect one yet—but I usually get tremendously depressed after New Year's.

So maybe then; in the fresh of the year, in the dead of winter.

 

[Lilacmoon]

once the sn comes im free.
just gotta... cope and hang on long enough...

 

[Cakes]

I received SN no problem and I think we're in the same country

Oh yeah so

I received SN no problem and I think we're in the same country

Yesss I'm N. Ireland! Hmmmm

 

[okdoomer]

As some people have said above, when you know, you know. I think it's best to be calm the day of, but regardless of how you feel, if you're well prepared, the outcome will be the same and it will be final. Really I think the key to reducing SI is realizing that there is no "one more day" because every single day is a repeat of the last miserable one, and it's unfathomable to keep prolonging the inevitable. As for me, I'm still deciding on a date, because I don't have meto for SN yet.

 

[TripleA]

It wil be saturday night if SN arives

 

[Dizzy_Dreams]

once the sn comes im free.
just gotta... cope and hang on long enough...

Do you think there's an afterlife?

 

[bloodyApathy]

right now the only thing i've really put in place so far date wise is that i want it to be before may 2, 2021 (it's a sentimental date so i figured it would be a good starting point)

 

[Lilacmoon]

Do you think there's an afterlife?

i don't know.

 

[bloodyApathy]

i don't know.

it would be really interesting to find out yk. like the afterlife and everything is such a strange concept that it's almost like, alluring and stuff. do u know what i mean??

 

[Lilacmoon]

it would be really interesting to find out yk. like the afterlife and everything is such a strange concept that it's almost like, alluring and stuff. do u know what i mean??

It would be, it's definitely alluring. But in the end no matter what we might think worry or stress about the afterlife won't change what it actually is. I prefer not to worry about it and let it be whatever it will be. I don't want fears about the afterlife making it harder to commit once it's time, right?

 

[bloodyApathy]

It would be, it's definitely alluring. But in the end no matter what we might think worry or stress about the afterlife won't change what it actually is. I prefer not to worry about it and let it be whatever it will be. I don't want fears about the afterlife making it harder to commit once it's time, right?

for sure, i definitely get what you're saying. there's not too much of a need to stress a lot about it because it can hinder your ability to actually think once your time comes and everything.

 

[Viceroy]

I feel like the best time to do it is when I'm really happy, and content with my life. Rather than being extremely upset.

Def the best time. Get that one last day or joy

 

[BeautifulMosaics]

May I ask how things are now? I can see you're still here so something must've kept you here :) Feel free to ignore if you don't want to answer I won't take it personally.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

WTF????? This post is fucking old.

I commented and deleted after looking at the date.

Hope dogs are/will be okay.

 

[xLosthopex]

May I ask how things are now? I can see you're still here so something must've kept you here :) Feel free to ignore if you don't want to answer I won't take it personally.

Things literally could not be worse, I'm still here because I messed up my N attempt a few weeks ago, planning to purchase more this week
Yes, of course, I would not leave them alone. I live with my parents anyway, we all equally look after, care for and love our dogs

 

[gayscal3xo]

I don't think I'd pick a date per se, I'm more of a do-it-now or never-person and I'd probably forget (with my memory issues) that I even chose a day, to begin with, and picking a date makes it feel more daunting and like I'm running out of time if that makes sense.

 

[BeautifulMosaics]

Things literally could not be worse, I'm still here because I messed up my N attempt a few weeks ago, planning to purchase more this week

I'm sorry to hear that.. Easily done though, it's a big decision .

I see you're from around the UK, I'm curious, is your N source in the PPH?