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Blackrose23

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How do you prepare so you don't feel fear, or anxiety or SI?
 
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Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
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The million-dollar question...
 
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Jun 5, 2020
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i was ready, then my method didn't work and the police rocked up at my door
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I believe in my case, things will get worse and I will get desperate. Only then do I believe I will be able to overcome the SI. I think it is a feeling I will have, that I know it is time to exit.
 
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PeacefulTonic

Enlightened
Aug 10, 2021
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"Fuck it and just gulp it down, everyone dies in the end anyway". That's what I think I'll say to myself when the time comes. It's gonna be way easier said than done that's for sure
 
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Reprehensible
Nov 19, 2021
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How do you prepare so you don't feel fear, or anxiety or SI?
In terms of drugs you could take idk but otherwise there isn't one.

You've just got to want to die more than you want to live.
 
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Blackrose23

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Jul 10, 2021
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I believe in my case, things will get worse and I will get desperate. Only then do I believe I will be able to overcome the SI. I think it is a feeling I will have, that I know it is time to exit.
Things always get worse before I get desperate enough to actually overcome SI but I can't deal with the pain anymore.
 
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LetMeGoPlease

Student
Dec 5, 2020
122
One thing a dietitian once told me is that if I quit sugar I will never really stop craving it, the key is to make the decision in your mind to not eat it. I feel like suicide is sort of similar, once you decide you're going to do it and accept the pain and struggle you will do it, you will also gravitate towards options where your SI can't prevent you from doing it and gravitate away from those that are risky to follow through. Sadly I don't have a gun and it's to risky to search for one where I live.
 
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Jan 5, 2020
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I wish I knew the answer. If I did though, I would probably feel conflicted about sharing it with others. :-(
 
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Oct 1, 2020
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The question is interesting, I suppose that a part of me is prepared and feels the CTB as something inevitable, and sometimes it makes me feel death as an exciting experience in which I will be embraced by non-existence, that idea makes me feel good and prepare myself. for CTB
 
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eternalmelancholy

waiting for the bus
Mar 24, 2021
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Your desire to die has to be greater than your will to live. How you get there, well I guess you have to die to find out.
 
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disabledsuicidegirl

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Mar 3, 2021
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"To die would be an awfully big adventure." - Peter Pan

I'm hopefully getting a gun or a knife soon.
 
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Endoflifecomestoall

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Oct 31, 2021
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By convincing myself that others will be better off without me
 
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DoodleBug

Just a guy passing by
Dec 9, 2019
134
The fear will always be there, no matter how deliberate the intent might be. I guess its all about piercing through SI with one Swift motion as in just downing that SN or finally kicking down the chair, so to speak.

Crossing the line will never get easy, but there are those who just dont care and meeting the void is the only thing they care about. On one hand, I envy that, on the other hand, I have some understanding about being in the process of ctb, almost entirely sure that theres no going back. Its both freeing and downright horrifying, so its best to have everything carefully settled.

I guess my ctb is only a matter of time, Im certain that one day I will erase myself. A swift transition is what I need, because I dont fear death - I fear the fear itself.
 
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Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
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-It's very scary because you have to mentally prepare yourself to beat the fear of never breathing again.
-You have to beat biological survival instincts
-You have to beat the fear of the physical pain you will endure (as it won't be natural death)
-you have to accept that you're embracing the unknown
- you have to be at a point of sheer desperation
 
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markimobzzdeasui

Life is a cruel joke
Oct 24, 2021
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This year I really thought that I may not have to prepare for suicide as enough traumas have already happened and it is strangely not even an option for me anymore. It's a necessity! But damn those survival instincts! Now I try to tell myself that death is actually the opposite of life. So for me to want it, I have to let go of life. Fortunately I feel I am already on that path and it is thus becoming somewhat easier for me.
 

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