Help how do you have the will to continue on your meds and/or therapy?

[alwayspissedoff]

I know 2 months is not a lot of time to have been on meds, but it just makes me feel hopeless to every day take in those 2 pills that are supposed to be helping me, to not feel major improvements, and to also be at the risk of suffering the bad side effects (which i have not even felt that much fortunately).

what really worries me is that they are actually expensive, and I feel bad that my family pays for them hoping that I'll be well, just for me being pretty much the same.
I feel bad that i have to play along with them that I'm noticing some minimal improvements.

also therapy does not cut it for me. I'm sure my therapist is a great person, but having someone telling me things I already know that I have to do to be better that don't really work for me and I have to (yet again) play along that are kind of working for me, and not being able to tell me solutions for my specific problems because, well, they're specific and she obviously doesn't know about every niche... it just doesn't cut it for me.
i even skipped this week's appointment because I really didn't want to go, and I'm thinking about stop going, but it feels kinda bad to be leaving when, looking back, feel no progress.

I'm sorry this ended up being way longer than it should have been, but if you read it, thank you.

 

[Rynalia]

Neither meds nor therapy has worked for me. I've shopped around, been referred, been forced, all at a net loss across the board.

The only things I've gotten out of therapy was the amazing opportunity to watch money go to waste, having people dismiss and try to gaslight me on any experiences that I have the fortune of still remembering, and being taught several ways to drop contact with someone/let someone go without outright ghosting them.

Oh, but if anything, it makes people in my life feel better when I go to therapy. A mixture of "wow now they'll recover and I don't need to care anymore" and "wow look how supportive and helpful I am, good job me".

The moment I get into therapy, have medications, or get hospitalized, no one gives a damn about me anymore, as if my problems magically disappeared and that there's no possible way I could ever have problems ever again.

If they're so eager to wash their hands of me, then I'll happily oblige.

 

[alwayspissedoff]

Neither meds nor therapy has worked for me. I've shopped around, been referred, been forced, all at a net loss across the board.

The only things I've gotten out of therapy was the amazing opportunity to watch money go to waste, having people dismiss and try to gaslight me on any experiences that I have the fortune of still remembering, and being taught several ways to drop contact with someone/let someone go without outright ghosting them.

Oh, but if anything, it makes people in my life feel better when I go to therapy. A mixture of "wow now they'll recover and I don't need to care anymore" and "wow look how supportive and helpful I am, good job me".

The moment I get into therapy, have medications, or get hospitalized, no one gives a damn about me anymore, as if my problems magically disappeared and that there's no possible way I could ever have problems ever again.

If they're so eager to wash their hands of me, then I'll happily oblige.

seems like your family is not truly supportive, so sorry for that (really).
truly fucking sucks how a lot of effort (money, time, etc.) is invested hoping that one's gonna be better, just to, well, nope.
with me, well, much of my close family luckily really does care about me, so it really sucks that I can't return all that they spend on me, with just being genuinely better, and that i have to act like i'm doing better for them not to become as hopeless as me.

 

[ArteriesBindEveryon]

I know 2 months is not a lot of time to have been on meds, but it just makes me feel hopeless to every day take in those 2 pills that are supposed to be helping me, to not feel major improvements, and to also be at the risk of suffering the bad side effects (which i have not even felt that much fortunately).

what really worries me is that they are actually expensive, and I feel bad that my family pays for them hoping that I'll be well, just for me being pretty much the same.
I feel bad that i have to play along with them that I'm noticing some minimal improvements.

also therapy does not cut it for me. I'm sure my therapist is a great person, but having someone telling me things I already know that I have to do to be better that don't really work for me and I have to (yet again) play along that are kind of working for me, and not being able to tell me solutions for my specific problems because, well, they're specific and she obviously doesn't know about every niche... it just doesn't cut it for me.
i even skipped this week's appointment because I really didn't want to go, and I'm thinking about stop going, but it feels kinda bad to be leaving when, looking back, feel no progress.

I'm sorry this ended up being way longer than it should have been, but if you read it, thank you.

I started meds as a teenager and am still on them. I'm unsure if they actually helped me or if it was just be becoming older and more mature. But I'm pretty sure that they at least stop me from getting worse.

 

[Emillss]

I go to therapy because I feel obligated to, even though I mostly just say whatever nonsense I think sounds halfway believable. I only take my meds because the withdrawals are brutal, and I know I'd end up in prison or a ward if I didn't. Therapy is literally just a grift and should be abolished

 

[22yearsbroken]

My meds are.
8 in the morning
2 afternoon
6 at night
Then about 8 pain meds during the day..
Its just habit for me ive been taking them so long...
My meds are practically now a food group for me ..as for therapy ive done plenty from 1 to 1 to the whole group thing many times mainly just to keep my partner happy ..but i cant stand it ..dont get me wrong it has helped .e in the past but sometimes no amount of therapy or medication can get rid if the hurt and pain i feel every day..

 

[fedup1982]

I always take my meds and go to an therapy because you never know what might help. They have in the past when I least expectes it, so yeh. I'm just lucky the NHS pays for it all. Thank god for the NHS!

Keep it up, please! It's worth it!