Discussion How do you get through the day with your issues?

[Sleeper System]

Today is my day off of work and all I can manage to do is lay in bed and be sad.
I spent an entire hour on doordash deciding on what to eat because food fills the hole in my heart and soul.
I don't plan on leaving the house or doing anything but feeling sorry for myself and life circumstances.
Then tomorrow, back to the physical AND mental suffering of working to survive. I hate this fucking life.
Sooner or later someone is going to notice im not performing like I should be and things will get worse.
I just can't muster up the energy to pretend anymore. How do people do this for so long?

What helps you get through your day before you have to sleep then repeat the cycle again the next day? I need to know.

 

[Ash’Girl]

Focussing on each task like I'm a robot and avoiding anything and everything that might trigger me to snap out of disassociative mode and back into emotional overload.

Not particularly helpful, sorry. I generally don't actually engage with anyone anymore unless I have to (bar my sudden phase of posting on this site for the last 24 hours when I've been silent for ages, but here I'm anonymous so it still feels oddly safe in my disassociative bubble ).

When I don't have the focus of my excessive workload checklist then I'm like you and I literally hide in bed all day too. Not sure how I'm going to manage in the new year when circumstances of requirement to train new staff will mean more on site time whereas these days I mostly work from home.

It may be good for me or I may completely unravel.

 

[Sleeper System]

If I had a remote job I think that would help me greatly. I hate being around people but I can play any part I need to play to get the job done. If most of my time was spent at home I could find it easier to deal with work.

 

[Ash’Girl]

It's something that definitely helps me retain better functionality and productivity at least at work, because of my anxiety issues and it also means I get to sleep more since my "commute time" is ten seconds from bed to laptop.

Perhaps you could look for remote work? Although I know when exhausted and depressed finding a new job is massively overwhelming. Good luck

 

[TapeMachine]

I find something to hyperfocus on (like a project around the house, an interesting topic to research, etc) because my mind is basically on autopilot at that point. No time to consider the reality of my life. The productivity is also a plus, as it gives me a surge of dopamine when my project or task has been completed.

I'm beyond miserable on the days I cannot summon enough motivation to keep busy. Those are the days I actively want to die, because all I can do is sit/lie around and think of how incredibly isolated and unhappy I've let myself become.

 

[Yuna is My Waifu]

I spend most of the daydreaming or procrastinating whether at work or at home.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I just ignore my tasks and responsibilities. Instead I just rot in my room all day

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I do nothing but spending most of my time here. It's a bit like "rotting alive at home" but better than additional stress with a job I don't want to do.

 

[gbi2]

I don't do anything except wait for one of many appointments to happen where I'm usually lied to or I find out the person doesn't understand my mental health issue and can't help at all.
I have only been out of the house 4 times since October, to do quick shopping or visit the DWP.
Otherwise I have just slept or sat in the same chair for almost two months now, doing next to nothing.
Yesterday I was at the DWP and asked them if they had corrected their mistake and would be increasing my payments. They said it is all with the case manager and I'll find out when they have dealt with it all. When I said that I'm asking because my therapist said to ask as soon as I got here they suddenly began enquiring.
I asked how much more I'll get, if it is backdated and what does it cover. They gave me wrong information and told me I was getting more than I will be. They can't answer a simple question. They can barely follow a simple routine without screwing up, no wonder CAB say Universal credit isn't fit for purpose.

So that is how I spend my days, finding out just how useless most people in these areas of care and help are.

 

[BlackMoon]

"J'attends que ça passe." I'm living like this since many years now.

 

[Abyssal]

I have no choice. I just wait it out and eventually I get the chance to sleep.

 

[WeDontKnowTheFuture]

I do not have a work or specific activity, so i just distract myself on internet, laying on my bed shutter closed. I will definitely have to work one day and i don't know how i will cope with that.

 

[CouldaHvBeenARock]

I am so emotionally numb to my life and disabled by my symptoms. Being on the internet is a good distraction too

And when I can't deal I just get sicker

 

[Roseate]

I feel nothing lately. I guess I'm just numb to it. I watch a lot of movies or complain. Lately there haven't been anyone to complain to so I just think to myself and music is a great distraction. But knowing this is my last month alive makes it so much easier to get through it. If I can't, at least I tried and I go to sleep.

 

[R_N]

Got used to it but there is no day spent without thinking about death. That ironically gives me strength to ignore everything crumbling down. But things like distracting myself help as well.

And my perspective changed throughout life. I see the world quite differently compared to when I could relate to most of you. I took the meaning out of everything so it doesn't matter to me. And last but not least I often stop emotions in their track and they diminished in general over the years. I even do it in my dreams, it became my second nature to question my human instincts.

 

[Sandy9]

I frequently disassociate just to function. It's gotten to the point where my memory has gotten so patchy because I'm in a constant state of disassociation. I feel like I practically live in my head just to be able to bear living through my current reality. It is not healthy or productive in any way, but I have a time set to ctb soon, so that's what's personally getting me through it all at the moment.

 

[BlazingBob]

I can't function because of physical and mental health issues. I deal with extreme exhaustion, existential dread, debilitating anxiety, and crippling depression. I'm 51 years old and have been battling severe treatment resistant depression for over 3 decades. I mostly sit in my room and just rot. I struggle with basic self care and even eating. Is anyone here as dysfunctional as me? I feel so fucking alone.