Discussion How do you feel about dying young?

[Deadlyroses]

I'm in my 20's and I've come to terms with the fact that I will die young. I can't say exactly where and how, but I know for a fact that I will not see old age. I'm at peace with dying young.

I'm just a little sad about the utter lack of enjoyment in my life due to my mental illnesses. Missed experiences. Still, better to die young than to go on suffering like this for years and years on end.

 

[lonerclown666]

im not sad imagine living more years in this nightmare

 

[suicide4me]

Let me tell you, I WISH I had followed through and died young. I've been suicidal since i was about 12 and I wish I had saved myself all these years of bullshit, not to mention, it's so much more complicated as you get older.

 

[lonerclown666]

When you feel only pain and you know that the future will be more pain why be here?

 

[GarageKarate07]

I think in this world we do not take care of each other at any age. We really do not take care of our older people. I think it makes much more sense to die young at this time in our world until things somehow get better. I am 40 now and I see no future for me but this is also personal circumstance. I can tell you that from 20 to now my life had many great experiences and adventures that made me very happy that I did not kill myself sooner. I have always been sad because of depression like you and it does make things so very very hard.

 

[Celerity]

I guess it's sad. I know I'm sad whenever I hear about any other young people killing themselves. It sure beats getting old and decrepit though.

 

[Aloken]

Well, I don't find it necessarily a shame ("they died so young, such a shame") or necessarily tragic. It is what it is, death at a young age. If "you" choose to die and "you"'re young, the tragic and sad part for me is that "you" felt such a pain to decide to end it in the first place, not that "you" were young. I'm in my 20s too. It is what it is, I certainly didn't think when I was 5 or 10 or 15 or even 20 that I would die so young (and by my own hand), but shitty things happened in my life that caused me immense, traumatic pain, from which I have get away somehow

 

[xLosthopex]

Good. I've always had a massive fear of getting older so I want to ctb while I'm still young(currently in my early 20s), so that I'll always be remembered/perceived that way

 

[lonerclown666]

Sucks dying young when you archived nothing like me you can die young but still archive something

 

[LastLoveLetter]

Relieved. I am in my late twenties and due to a myriad of physical and psychological illnesses, I am in pain every single day. My body and brain are both utterly battered and broken.

If I am like this now, what would my health be like if I live to old age? I cannot bear to even contemplate it. I would much prefer to die now, while I am still somewhat alert and mobile enough to take my life, than wait until I deteriorate further.

I am not sad about it, because there is no future for me. It will only continue to get worse from here. My only concern is being able to acquire one of my preferred methods. Once I have what I need, I will feel only relief.

 

[ExhaustedExistence]

I wish I will die young. It's one of my biggest dreams. I really can't take my 20s. I can't even imagine myself in my 30s. And the fact that I'm going to be an old grey woman really scares me. I hope I won't survive so long.

My previous deadline was my 18th and then 20th birthday. Now I set up new final deadline which is my 30th birthday. But I hope it will be much sooner. I wish I will get some lethal illness like cancer or the guts to do it by myself.

 

[Gaybonez]

I'm in my 20's and I've come to terms with the fact that I will die young. I can't say exactly where and how, but I know for a fact that I will not see old age. I'm at peace with dying young.

I'm just a little sad about the utter lack of enjoyment in my life due to my mental illnesses. Missed experiences. Still, better to die young than to go on suffering like this for years and years on end.

Your worries are rooted in ageism

 

[StringPuppet]

Good, the material world is evil and the shorter my time here the better

 

[wanttodie]

im 55 so i won't me dieing young when I end my life

 

[Wayfaerer]

I'm very upset about it. It's not the death at age 29 that I have the biggest issue with, it's how I had lived until that point. It was such a waste, such a terrible awful waste. Since I was 18 I no had peace of mind. My mood was consistently always shitty (anxious and tense) and I spent all that time in between then and now just being so miserable! If I had lived better but died young, well then that would've been much better.

I got through it by saying "at least that's another year I'll never have to repeat" and that when I die it won't matter how well I lived because everything will be wiped in the end. The tragic thing is that may not even be true! So much time spent suffering, so little things that I had gotten to experience that most people have got to. I think back to a point in my life that was my darkest until now and I can only scoff. I'd say back then there was a distant and faint light even just barely but now everything is pitch black! I had spent the past 3 years in a nightmarish dysphoria worse than ever before. I thought I would at least be able to make it to 50 in life but no, it's going to end at the beginning of 29!

 

[FuneralCry]

For me I like the thought of dying young is comforting. I am 20 and I have already have chronic health problems. This is bound to get worse as I get older and I will not be able to withstand the suffering. I don't know why society places so much value on growing old as I could not think of anything worse than the physical and mental decay that brings as we slowly start to disintregate.
Also to me life is just pointless, we only exist just to die and become nothing. I desire the peace that death brings, I was never mentally suited to this life in the first place.

 

[HowNowBrownCow]

sad I didn't do it sooner but happy I'll avoid years of BS

 

[MrBlue]

I don't even know if I still consider myself young really. I haven't lived at all in the 22 years I've been here, so on one hand I feel very young even compared to people my own age (or sometimes people younger) because I'm simply less of an actual human being than they are. But on the other I've wanted to die since I was 16, so I feel like I'm 6 years too late for my own funeral and bloody ancient. I'm on borrowed time but not achieving anything.

 

[Sprite_Geist]

I feel okay about dying at a young age. Though my own chance to die young has passed.

 

[killedbypsychiatry]

sad my life got destroyed so early... :( like it wasn't even me who fucked up or something as an adult, I was damaged too much in my early life that I became suicidal at 17 (I'm 18 now)

 

[lonerclown666]

Sucks when you never had nothing

 

[adam]

I am also okay, although it depends on the reason. I have been closed in myself since adolescence, and the first suicidal thoughts began at the age of 14 when I had problems with my studies. I am a pussy, too vulnerable person and I have too many failures and circumstances beyond my control that force me to die, otherwise, my psychological torment will only increase. So why endure and torture yourself knowing that you can never accept yourself?

 

[almamuerta]

I regret not CTBing successfully when I was 16. I'm 39 next month and every year it's harder, more so now that my physical health is a lot worse. I'm leaning on ctb after my 40th. Have a nice party, toast some friends and then jump off this fucking mortal coil for good.

 

[Jinnberg]

I don't necessarily mind, I mean yeah, it sucks that I'm going to lose the opportunity to have a fulfilling life and I'm not going to finish my comic. But it certainly beats having to deal with people telling me I don't want to recover or that I'm not trying everytime therapy or medications don't work on me. In addition to that, getting old simply doesn't appeal to me.

I've been depressed since I was 8, it's been a decade and I still feel the same way. I'm not going to gamble on the chances of things getting better. Recovery is something I've tried again and again and yet I still feel the same.

 

[BandAddict]

In a way, I feel like it would be good that I didn't spend more years of my life doing jack shit. I'm a waste of life, so it might be right for me to pull the plug early... I feel like I did some things when I could, and that's fine. I don't have the will to do them now.

 

[WornOutLife]

I'm 33 so, no more dying "young" for me but, I've been suicidal since I was 12.

I would really like to die before my 40s. Getting older sucks so much!

 

[GarageKarate07]

In a way even 50 is still very very young. Its just hard for any of us to "deal" with so much bullshit at any age. Especially when you have been beat to shit while young before you even had a chance to discover life fully. A quick search shows children as young as 6yo commit suicide. That's a baby. Where the fuck was society for those young children?

 

[Green Destiny]

I think people deciding to die young is a testament to how bad and fucked up this world really is. For me personally I don't like the thought of getting old (plus I have high odds of being diagnosed with dementia or Alzheimer's) so why should I subject myself to such terrible things? Better to just get the dying over with.

 

[JustAMatterOfTime]

Enthusiastic

 

[kerokeroka]

When i am dead i will not care if i had died young, infact i will not be capable of having any regrets. It wouldn't have mattered if i had died as a young person or as an old person. Having regrets is for the living in other words and because of that I don't care if there are things i will miss out on once i die.