Discussion How do you cope?

[nightmare_moon]

I'm curious how people here soothe their bad feels. I normally sleep, get stoned, or draw. How about you?

 

[imastain]

i dont even know tbh? im not able to cope unless i use drugs and nod off of them. otherwise sleep. but so long as im conscious and not under the influence theres no way to escape for me.

 

[Ashe]

Most of the time I don't but self harming or writing my bad poetry sometimes distracts me enough to almost forget that I'm a deeply flawed person.

 

[Scattered-Soul]

Sleeping, thinking about how suicide is always an option and making preparations for it, using coloring books, spending an unhealthy amount of time on social media simply just scrolling, watching videos, listening to music, reading and just trying my best to distract myself and get to the next day.

 

[meltdown]

Making songs or numbing my mind. Hurting myself or fantasizing/reliving times I did so. I have been trying to write about my feelings more but it feels as if there is some mental block at times.

spending an unhealthy amount of time on social media

It works but also messes with my head so much. After a really long social media binge I just feel so much worse in my experience.

 

[DeadHead]

By putting myself under huge, ridiculous pressure with work, projects, etc with tight deadlines. So I literally have to work like a maniac without time to think.

Although that's getting harder and my condition deteriorates and my symptoms get worse.

 

[Endoflifecomestoall]

I'm curious how people here soothe their bad feels. I normally sleep, get stoned, or draw. How about you?

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

I come here to talk about dying.

 

[nightmare_moon]

I come here to talk about dying.

I think all of us do.

 

[BlazingBob]

Ativan helps take the edge off but most of my time is spent in total despair and exhaustion due to chronic physical and mental health issues. Thinking about finally not existing helps but sometimes it scares the shit out of me.

 

[Jessi76]

When I'm having a really low point, sometimes it helps me to sing a few of my favorite songs with YouTube lyrics videos, paint - I paint stones and then donate them to
Auctions that are for a good cause. Or I go to exhibitions that distract me so much that I completely forget about time there. Every now and then, about every 2 months, I treat myself to a bag of popcorn with THC (I can't smoke weed because of my asthma) or watch a nice movie. But unfortunately this doesn't last long and the CTB thoughts and my death wish come back after 1-2 days. And unfortunately I can't distract myself like that every day because of my working hours

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I don't.

 

[ImsooDone1N]

Heroin

 

[R_N]

Distracting myself. I did this since forever and when I am interacting with others I rarely show how overwhelmed I am deep down. But I also do this when not interacting with anyone because I am not gonna focus on discomfort too much.

When I am honest no one takes me seriously. They show more care when I have a flu since they relate to that better than when I talk about my personal health issues or anything else about me. But this was the case since I was a kid. Not saying no one really cares if I am alive or dead but they don't know me. They don't know how much I have to endure that I gave up my emotions for it since I don't want two hells combined. Feeling human is not a luxury I can afford but It disgusts me now anyway.

 

[Ash’Girl]

Overworking myself to point if exhaustion, then sleeping. Lather, rinse, repeat.

When I'm not working/sleeping, I'm escaping: binge watching, video games, mindless internet scrolling. It's all really avoidance and escapism tactics.

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case there is no choice but to suffer as long as I exist, human existence will always be very burdensome and undesirable to me and it isn't like we can just easily choose to cease existing in peace. I hate how there isn't the option to just fall into an dreamless and eternal sleep.
But in my case at least I'm usually able to sleep temporarily for some of my time here which is the closest to not existing after all, I see sleeping as the best way to pass the time.

 

[Somethingiswaddling]

Video games and daydreaming while listening to music.

 

[f1f7y8yoL053r]

Take my meds, alcohol, aroma therapy. Different incense really helps. Music. Sleep. Thinking about death. Eating. Not eating. daydreaming

 

[princejohnny]

I take edibles, listen to music and excessively daydream to escape my reality.

 

[Mateira]

It depends on the level of pain and despair, most of the time it is easier to write goodbye notes and review the details of the suicide plan. But when I wake up less sore and don't feel so overwhelmed, I try to read, write, draw, embroider, do crosswords, cook, meditate, walk or stretch...

 

[reiII]

i try to sleep it off or binge eat. or just blast music super loud in my ears. hanging with friends helps sometimes too, but usually i isolate when im feeling bad.
btw nightmare moon was my favourite in mlp :D so cool

 

[letmebee1]

I have severe anxiety and depression. I guess I have tried to feel emotions for sometime but I wish I could love someone or closer to at least how much I love my family. But, I have realized I can't love someone else, i can smile and laugh with them but deep down i have no attachment. somedays i feel so alone and i miss being with someone that I could touch and hug, cuddle with a girl all night but i have no one. I have tried ctb few times before but no luck. I sometimes, travel all alone with tickets to destinations i dont know, or to train stops I don't know, just to get away this feeling. I have visited few escorts before just to receive love, and they have been a gem, not sure if they have felt the same but when i explained my numb feelings they just hugged me thoroughly and kissed me. There was a time i was a regular seeing this girl, and i got her flowers and chocolates and a small cake as it was birthday, and said that i have no one i could celebrate here with and she is the only person i knew well enough. She almost cried and I didn't feel that too. I would happily die if that means I will no longer have to put on a mask and get on with life.

 

[jussaloser]

im just drinking till i pass out.
hangovers dont bother me anymore.

 

[Alltheywanted]

Whenever i feel down I just plan my suicide. Simple as that.

 

[hermestrimegistus]

How do I cope? I don't. haha. I just drink too much until I have to go to sleep. Have no one to trust and confide in. Just eventually bust out and tell strangers every once in a while. Not exactly healthy way of living

 

[tarococo]

Maladaptive daydreaming
I'm usually very busy, but I spend the majority of my free time stuck in my daydreams. On some days it's so bad it actually distracts me from whatever I'm doing or conversations I'm having and I can't focus on anything really

 

[_Broken_alice]

* Permanently high (mostly for physical pain).
* Almost always dissociating even when grocery shopping.
* Recently alcohol later at night (Or today at like 5pm.) when things start to get much worse and overbearing.
* Occasionally other substances to take the edge off reality for a bit although just had a bad experience with too high of a dose of LSD. Would have been more useful if dose wasn't like double what we think we needed. Oops. now we know. Previously we would frequently consume DMT to work through things. That helped us get through some really bad but manageable times.
* Frequent self harm. We always have healing cuts at this point.
* Always consuming some form of media to distract from all that is wrong whether it be YT, a movie/series, or music. Even if it is just background noise and stimulation to distract a little bit from the thoughts and demands.
* Planning our suicide and thinking about how to minimize trauma to others even though we don't really want to take that option but will if things don't get somewhat better soon. (That one is certainly not productive, but we are a perfectionist in some regards and want to minimize trauma to others, so it stops spontaneous attempts. Side effect whether good or bad is we will almost certainly succeed with our next attempt as a result as we will not leave margin for another failure.)
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None of them really work well anymore but without is so much worse. Literally would not survive being sober or without internet access for a week at this point.