Discussion How do you cope with life until "the day" finally comes?

[WornOutLife]

So, right now, I'm drinking some awesome vodka and got happy and kinda drunk already but I was thinking....

"Okay. Alcohol is the only thing that is making me cope with life. Otherwise, I would be already dead"

Thus, I wonder, How do you cope with life until "the day" finally comes????

Alcohol, Drugs, Movies? What is it?

I bet your answers will be really interesting and I might get some alternatives because I know how bad alcohol is for my health but who cares!? I'll be gone by the 21st of January if I get my sn and my plan works.

Hugs and Love,

Matt

 

[Ghost2211]

Well, what I would do is keep busy to pass time. Look into new tv shows or movies, play a new video game (I can give you a good list), think about small things you would like to experience again like foods or walking locations.

 

[WornOutLife]

Well, what I would do is keep busy to pass time. Look into new tv shows or movies, play a new video game (I can give you a good list), think about small things you would like to experience again like goods or walking locations.

I love tv shows and videogames so you gotta tell me that list! Sounds great!

 

[ansiedad]

"If I'm gonna die
If I'm gonna kill myself, I should take some drugs, you know?"
-Kurt Cobain

 

[WornOutLife]

"If I'm gonna die
If I'm gonna kill myself, I should take some drugs, you know?"
-Kurt Cobain

Oh my gosh! Kurt was really a genius!

 

[LastFlowers]

Distractions..like you mentioned, but mostly I do not cope well at all, I have a mental breakdown nearly every day and I really wonder how I haven't just keeled over from the years of constant stress, lack of sleep, sobbing and screaming alone into the ether. It is a 24/7 torture session on repeat. Unfortunately even distractions remind me that I cannot enjoy anything, eventually they set me off in one way or another, they are not without reminders of my situation.

 

[Ghost2211]

I love tv shows and videogames so you gotta tell me that list! Sounds great!

Terraria and Stardew valley are cool, and they are both IPad and PC. For PC the Elder Scrolls and Fallout series. Also city skylines is good. Pokemon sword and shield for switch. Undertale is legit, and is on PC or switch. Animal crossing new horizon.

Sorry love, I'll end up keeping you going thousands of hours with these.

 

[ansiedad]

Oh my gosh! Kurt was really a genius!

Yes, he was. I do the same likes kurt, get high in your time of dying.
It's sounds really good.

 

[BitterlyAlive_]

Uh, I guess I've always tried to cope with escapism. Video games, music...and I used to be able to just drive and drive.

 

[WornOutLife]

Terraria and Stardew valley are cool, and they are both IPad and PC. For PC the Elder Scrolls and Fallout series. Also city skylines is good. Pokemon sword and shield for switch. Undertale is legit, and is on PC or switch. Animal crossing new horizon.

Sorry love, I'll end up keeping you going thousands of hours with these.

I used to play like A LOT Elder Scrolls and fallout 4!! Thanks a bunch for the list. I'll check the rest. I actually need some gaming. Gotta take advantage of my gaming pc lol!
You're da best Rosey!

 

[Weary Soul]

I try to keep my mind as busy as possible this is typically by spending way to much time on the internet) and I also mentally play ostrich (aka stick my head in the sand).

I am scared, and yet at the same time can't wait. But SI, sighs.....

So in the mean time, I try to ignore the mean as best I can. I know that when the day comes it is going to have to be done quickly and without thought, because otherwise, I do not think I will be able to overcome SI.

Hugs and love right back atcha Mat,
You are a beautiful person.

 

[LastFlowers]

Terraria and Stardew valley are cool, and they are both IPad and PC. For PC the Elder Scrolls and Fallout series. Also city skylines is good. Pokemon sword and shield for switch. Undertale is legit, and is on PC or switch. Animal crossing new horizon.

Sorry love, I'll end up keeping you going thousands of hours with these.

I just got ACNH, I wish I could fully enjoy it. It was specifically supposed to be for a distraction while I prepare things, along with the whole console but it's not working as I hoped. I think a lot of people do like that game as a form of self soothing though, so good recommendation.

 

[ansiedad]

Terraria and Stardew valley are cool, and they are both IPad and PC. For PC the Elder Scrolls and Fallout series. Also city skylines is good. Pokemon sword and shield for switch. Undertale is legit, and is on PC or switch. Animal crossing new horizon.

Sorry love, I'll end up keeping you going thousands of hours with these.

Fallout

Terraria and Stardew valley are cool, and they are both IPad and PC. For PC the Elder Scrolls and Fallout series. Also city skylines is good. Pokemon sword and shield for switch. Undertale is legit, and is on PC or switch. Animal crossing new horizon.

Sorry love, I'll end up keeping you going thousands of hours with these.

Fallout New Vegas

Uh, I guess I've always tried to cope with escapism. Video games, music...and I used to be able to just drive and drive.

Drive and drive are my distraction some nights. But I can't do this in the night because covid.

 

[Ghost2211]

I just got ACNH, I wish I could fully enjoy it. It was specifically supposed to be for a distraction while I prepare things, along with the whole console but it's not working as I hoped. I think a lot of people do like that game as a form of self soothing though, so good recommendation.

How far in have you gotten?

 

[BitterlyAlive_]

Drive and drive are my distraction some nights. But I can't do this in the night because covid.

Oh, I assume your area has a curfew? That stinks, night driving is so chill...

 

[WornOutLife]

I try to keep my mind as busy as possible this is typically by spending way to much time on the internet) and I also mentally play ostrich (aka stick my head in the sand).

I am scared, and yet at the same time can't wait. But SI, sighs.....

So in the mean time, I try to ignore the mean as best I can. I know that when the day comes it is going to have to be done quickly and without thought, because otherwise, I do not think I will be able to overcome SI.

Hugs and love right back atcha Mat,
You are a beautiful person.

I really understand what you mean, my dear Weary Soul, the more we have our mind busy, the better. I'll try to do that too!
(I was learning japanese until some weeks ago but got fed up with it. It's amazing how much it was helping me. I felt like a boss haha. So I might go back to it too.)

Thanks a lot for your comments! love u!

 

[Deleted member 24434]

Alcohol and cigarettes help with my immediate feelings of hating life. Music, books and documentaries about the ocean really calm me, especially the ocean. It's so beautiful and the life within it is like nothing else I've ever loved. I wish I was a fish lol. Just swimming effortlessly in turquoise waters. No sadness, no fear, just getting on with life.

 

[WornOutLife]

Alcohol and cigarettes help with my immediate feelings of hating life. Music, books and documentaries about the ocean really calm me, especially the ocean. It's so beautiful and the life within it is like nothing else I've ever loved. I wish I was a fish lol. Just swimming effortlessly in turquoise waters. No sadness, no fear, just getting on with life.

You made me feel like watching ocean stuff now! I'll definitely do it tomorrow, during my hangover! Thank you! LOL

 

[hellodarkness]

My kids, running, and Clonazepam.

 

[Pookie]

Distractions..like you mentioned, but mostly I do not cope well at all, I have a mental breakdown nearly every day and I really wonder how I haven't just keeled over from the years of constant stress, lack of sleep, sobbing and screaming alone into the ether. It is a 24/7 torture session on repeat. Unfortunately even distractions remind me that I cannot enjoy anything, eventually they set me off in one way or another, they are not without reminders of my situation.

I can relate.

 

[yive]

music... and sleep. also games, dreams, arts and philosophy

 

[WornOutLife]

My kids, running, and Clonazepam.

I'm glad your kids are helping so much! Also, clonazepam is a great "friend" ! I miss him but I fell in love with lorazepam 4mg lol

 

[Weary Soul]

...(I was learning japanese until some weeks ago but got fed up with it. It's amazing how much it was helping me. I felt like a boss haha. So I might go back to it too.)...

Thanks a lot for your comments! love u!

I was trying to learn Dutch via Duolingo, and Korean and Chinese, because I love movie series from Korea and China (which I can totally get lost in - ha!). Sighs... I can pick up words here and there, but am not so good at different languages. (I really wish I had learned at least one different language during the time the brain is most able to learn a second language).

You are totally like a boss

Japanese would be another language I would have liked to have learned - thinking movies again - ha!

By the way, I am so sorry about your mother. My aunt was paranoid schizophrenic and her children went through hell. I did not see her all that much so I did not impact me in the same way, but I understand what you are living with - it is so difficult.

<3

 

[WornOutLife]

I was trying to learn Dutch via Duolingo, and Korean and Chinese, because I love movie series from Korea and China (which I can totally get lost in - ha!). Sighs... I can pick up words here and there, but am not so good at different languages. (I really wish I had learned at least one different language during the time the brain is most able to learn a second language).

You are totally like a boss

Japanese would be another language I would have liked to have learned - thinking movies again - ha!

By the way, I am so sorry about your mother. My aunt was paranoid schizophrenic and her children went through hell. I did not see her all that much so I did not impact me in the same way, but I understand what you are living with - it is so difficult.

<3

The fact you've mentioned my mother makes me realize you read my comments for real. Thank you so much for that!
Yes, having a person, especially your mom, with schizophrenia in the family, makes everything absolutely worse! We just can't handle her anymore but now, my grandpa is possibly about to die (he's in a critical condition and doctors say he doesn't have much time left), so my dad and me are focused on that. The next step will be my mother. We really wanna help her but she sees us as "enemies" so it's sooooo hard!!!!

I wish I could solve this issues before leaving!

Anyway, sorry for posting an extent reply.

Wish you the best and you know, I really like you =)

 

[Life sucks]

Gaming, anime, food and beverages, music and more. And now I'm trying to draw, make music or write something. It looks like I have a lot but actually all of them are meaningless when I get anhedonic.

 

[confused-gemini]

Terraria and Stardew valley are cool, and they are both IPad and PC. For PC the Elder Scrolls and Fallout series. Also city skylines is good. Pokemon sword and shield for switch. Undertale is legit, and is on PC or switch. Animal crossing new horizon.

Sorry love, I'll end up keeping you going thousands of hours with these.

Elder scrolls & fallout are the best!!

 

[Weary Soul]

Hey no need to apologize. I appreciate your responses.

My uncle was extremely wealthy (course he did not spread that to me....), but he was able to have a ton of help at home for her, including her own personal driver, get top notch physicians and treatments, and was able to mitigate some of the damage she did.

My aunt, because of her severe paranoia, also saw those who cared for her as enemies. She even chased my cousin around the house with a butcher knife, or so I was told. That depth of paranoia is extremely difficult to live with let alone to try and get someone help for - this disease is truly horrific.

I am so sorry you are facing even more difficulties right now with your grandfather.

Sometimes I wonder if there isn't some kind of joker up there who gets some kind of sick thrill at throwing tragedies at me (or those of us here), and just for fun cause s/he is bored, says, ok what next, what else can I do to try and break them.

O.O

I am so sorry you have suffered so much - you have been so kind to so many here despite what you have been through, be well Matt, as best as you can be under these circumstances.

<3

 

[WornOutLife]

Hey no need to apologize. I appreciate your responses.

My uncle was extremely wealthy (course he did not spread that to me....), but he was able to have a ton of help at home for her, including her own personal driver, get top notch physicians and treatments, and was able to mitigate some of the damage she did.

My aunt, because of her severe paranoia, also saw those who cared for her as enemies. She even chased my cousin around the house with a butcher knife, or so I was told. That depth of paranoia is extremely difficult to live with let alone to try and get someone help for - this disease is truly horrific.

I am so sorry you are facing even more difficulties right now with your grandfather.

Sometimes I wonder if there isn't some kind of joker up there who gets some kind of sick thrill at throwing tragedies at me (or those of us here), and just for fun cause s/he is bored, says, ok what next, what else can I do to try and break them.

O.O

I am so sorry you have suffered so much - you have been so kind to so many here despite what you have been through, be well Matt, as best as you can be under these circumstances.

<3

If I happen to find that joker, don't worry, I'll personally kick his ass lol

 

[MindFrog]

Ugh I wish I had a better PC, there's a huge backlog of games I want to play before I ctb, but alas, It's not like I can play it freely in this household without getting yelled at.

Cleaning stuff kind of helps me. I frequently check our basement for junk that I can reuse (like a bookcase etc.) and I'll make it my project. It's really satisfying when you restore those into something useful. I got a working oven toaster from that pile.

There's also cooking, and gardening. It can take your mind off the void for a while if you dig it.

 

[Wraith]

I mostly use alcohol, anime, video games, and daydreaming. I've been learning German for a bit, but I'm not as dedicated as I was when I had first started. Memorization of the vocabulary is simple, but it's the damn grammar that befuddles me.