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Angst Filled Fuck Up

Angst Filled Fuck Up

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I simply can't function lately. I'm running on pure cortisol these days. From early morning til late at night I'm in a state of abject panic and stress. I usually have at least one cry per day now.

What do you do for things like this? It's so exhausting and my system is overburdened as hell. I just can't relax. The only relief is being asleep or when I've tired myself out to the point of not caring.
 
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lastappleonearth

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I simply can't function lately. I'm running on pure cortisol these days. From early morning til late at night I'm in a state of abject panic and stress. I usually have at least one cry per day now.

What do you do for things like this? It's so exhausting and my system is overburdened as hell. I just can't relax. The only relief is being asleep or when I've tired myself out to the point of not caring.
I feel you, I simply cannot relax, I always feel extremely tense and that in consequence leads to exhaustion. I honestly haven't figured out how to deal with this, I'm trying to get therapy though. In the meantime I sometimes take Xanax to calm down, but I can't take them all the time obviously.
I hope you get to feel better
 
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Right now, the medication seems to be doing most of the heavy lifting, and apart from that, I'm just trying to keep myself occupied, mentally, physically, or both.

If you're able to sleep, though, I honestly think it's okay to give in to that for a while. Sleep won't solve everything, of course, but your system is already overburdened, like you said. And sometimes rest is exactly what your body and mind need most.

You don't have to figure everything out right now. Let yourself rest, recover a little, and take some of the pressure off. Once you feel a bit more rested and the anxiety has eased somewhat, things may feel a little less heavy, and you'll probably be in a better place to think about what comes next.

For now, just be gentle with yourself. Rest is enough.
 
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I focus on achieving my goals, even if just a small baby-step at a time. I'm always trying to preoccupy myself with improving in some way, such as studying for a profession I want.
 
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Angst Filled Fuck Up

Angst Filled Fuck Up

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Thanks for the responses. Unfortunately I've had to call the crisis team just now. No idea what's going to happen, but I can't white-knuckle it any longer.
 
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Angst Filled Fuck Up

Angst Filled Fuck Up

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Well, I got hooked up with a psychiatrist, counselor, as well as some weekly aftercare via Zoom. But I can't be seen until October. I hope this helps me, I feel like I am suffocating daily.
 

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