How do you cope keep living?

[Lifeisatrap]

As of now it's the thought that it will all be over soon.

 

[Shinji is a failure]

Distractions help a lot of the time, at least in the short term. I've yet to find a long term answer to that though.

 

[dyingtodie]

Music. Online Chess. Fantasizing about/researching ctb. Observing squirrels/birds from my window. Reading. Sleep. Pot. youtube, podcasts (the mental illness happy hour podcast - is a great one!) The knowledge I can exit whenever, peacefully. Honestly, I deeply believe in reincarnation, so that's keeping me in this body cause maybe I can still figure out a way through, so I don't have to return... Plus...I came here to be of service to others, with a mission of sorts...though it seems people aren't / won't be receptive to what I have to offer...I feel it's just not quite yet the time to go...also...John Frusciante's music, has helped me through and I'd miss his music tremendously. I do hope to leave ASAP tho!! I have analysis paralysis as to the method also, just can't decide!! Each has pros/cons.

The distractions are running out though...it's ridiculous to have to 'work' each day towards sustaining life when I have like a 1% hope of recovering from suicidality.

It's like when a relationship ends, it ends internally (at least for me) before it plays itself out. My life feels like it officially ended a year ago, and I've been denying and bargaining to get it back, but, it's not returning...it did for a few months, the actual will to live...only for me to be thoroughly and completely devastated when the realization of my impending end relentlessly bombarded my brain with signals to die.

I don't post, ever, but my time to do so is running out, so I'm stuffing my perfectionism and embarassment and posting.

 

[Sigurd Bonehill]

Music, friends, and knowing that I can end it whenever I want

 

[b4sun]

Staring at emptiness , watching youtube videos , imaginary friends
recently my mind , body is too fatigue , don't have the energy to summon imaginary friends
as the end is getting close..

 

[TiredHorse]

Netflix interspersed with visits to ss and meltdowns.

All I'm good for is NCIS --ye gods, what a horrible show. I'd give almost anything to have the focus to read more than a paragraph at a time.

Watch an episode, check ss, watch an episode, collapse sobbing, watch an episode... Rinse, repeat, until it's time to go lie in bed and have nightmares.

 

[b4sun]

Netflix interspersed with visits to ss and meltdowns.

All I'm good for is NCIS --ye gods, what a horrible show. I'd give almost anything to have the focus to read more than a paragraph at a time.

Watch an episode, check ss, watch an episode, collapse sobbing, watch an episode... Rinse, repeat, until it's time to go lie in bed and have nightmares.

i used to watch NCIS LA , after a while i can't watch it anymore , currently i have a very short of focus or attentions
can't watch anything that are too long.

 

[TiredHorse]

i used to watch NCIS LA , after a while i can't watch it anymore , currently i have a very short of focus or attentions
can't watch anything that are too long.

I have collapsed from real movies to drek like NCIS. I suspect the worst is yet to come.

 

[bigj75]

it helps but doesn't fix it.

I cope with sex, alcohol, money, and
caffeine.

 

[EndofMyRope]

Netflix interspersed with visits to ss and meltdowns.

All I'm good for is NCIS --ye gods, what a horrible show. I'd give almost anything to have the focus to read more than a paragraph at a time.

Watch an episode, check ss, watch an episode, collapse sobbing, watch an episode... Rinse, repeat, until it's time to go lie in bed and have nightmares.

I think I've seen every NCIS episode out there. Lol

 

[Smashingairwaves]

I don't cope, that's why I'm here

 

[Kingkelly]

Netflix interspersed with visits to ss and meltdowns.

All I'm good for is NCIS --ye gods, what a horrible show. I'd give almost anything to have the focus to read more than a paragraph at a time.

Watch an episode, check ss, watch an episode, collapse sobbing, watch an episode... Rinse, repeat, until it's time to go lie in bed and have nightmares.

Your literally living my life :/ ugh hugs

 

[Kingkelly]

Netflix interspersed with visits to ss and meltdowns.

All I'm good for is NCIS --ye gods, what a horrible show. I'd give almost anything to have the focus to read more than a paragraph at a time.

Watch an episode, check ss, watch an episode, collapse sobbing, watch an episode... Rinse, repeat, until it's time to go lie in bed and have nightmares.

I just finished criminal minds binge.

 

[stargazer]

I don't. I've been really feeling 'it' lately.

 

[Help_Me]

Distracting myself (and others) with job and illusional life goals I am not going to complete anyway.

 

[furax53]

moi je joue à beaucoup de jeux vidéo et j'essaie de sortir de chez moi pour essayer de faire du sport parce que j'aime la piscine et j'essaye de consacrer ah ma reconversion professionnelle mais la force de defois n'est pas si difficile et je pense ah ah ctb

 

[Jiva]

Meanwhile the life is easiest, than overcome the survival instinct. Although i don't want live.

 

[furax53]

[QUOTE = "Jiva, post: 149972, member: 4043"] En attendant, la vie est plus facile que vaincre l'instinct de survie. Bien que je ne veuille pas vivre. [/ QUOTE]


I'm in the same situation as you

 

[checking out]

I just try to make it to the end of the day when I can finally go to sleep. It's the only break some people get. I feel sorry for those with insomnia! :/

Mate I hear you! I do the same - it's such a relief when the end of the day comes and I can go to sleep. Although I have sad dreams nearly every night, they are marginally less painful than my waking life so it's still a little break

 

[Sisterfister]

Tell me please.

Drugs work wife. But ready to kms at moments notice

 

[Trashcan]

I just do things I have to do and try to find little things I also enjoy doing.

 

[Teas]

My hobbies keep me sane. Sadly, I barely have time to focus on the stuff I enjoy because I come home tired and worn out due to work, school, and the constant thoughts about the dreaded future.

 

[Tyuiop]

I take an SSRI, listen to music constantly, especially when working, and try to not care about my future. Also I smoke like chimney, anyone else does this? I find it calms me down, and keeps the thoughts and urges away.

 

[bigj75]

I take an SSRI, listen to music constantly, especially when working, and try to not care about my future. Also I smoke like chimney, anyone else does this? I find it calms me down, and keeps the thoughts and urges away.

what kind of smoke?

 

[Tyuiop]

what kind of smoke?

Tobacco

 

[Mljonzy]

Video games and working out but i don't cope. Last week i played spyro reignited so i'm a 29 year old man collecting gems with a purple dragon in my spare time lol how pathetic is that.

 

[bigj75]

Tobacco

I've considered smoking cigs. What brand do you smoke?

 

[Tyuiop]

I've considered smoking cigs. What brand do you smoke?

I smoke rolling tobacco, choice brand. Dont really like normal cigs.

 

[BlackDragonof1989]

*giggles* Dxm, overeating, occasionally a cigarette, chicken strips, occasional orgasm, spiritual research, mental power games, all the push pull, having a good bowel movement, but that's about it, oh and nice drives with old songs <3 Trying not to pee on myself. Going to ask about mental hospitals without intending to go to one xD Having diarrhea <3

 

[okyeah]

Reality is so boring. I have been addicted to video games most of my life but they no longer do anything for me. Reality is shit because I feel like I cannot be myself anywhere. It feels like I wear a mask every day which is very draining. None of us have any real power or control. Just illusion of control. So when you realize that life becomes even worse lol.