Discussion How do people feel when a member actually CTBs?

[PaxAmerica]

After a few members actually appear to have CTB'd I have a strange feeling about how real this website is. Not sure how to describe it. How do others feel after someone actually acts on their plan?

 

[C_F]

Empathetic but ultimately sad.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

Happy for them. Pessimistic they are not just in a hospital or just avoiding posting. Of course I think it's a good thing if they wanted it. It's sad sure.

 

[PaxAmerica]

Yes I think thats the thing I am struggling with. Both sides at same time. Good to escape the torment and yet sad it came to this.

 

[PaxAmerica]

Yes i get that. For a month i was at the end and practicing partial hanging repeatedly. Last 2 days improved a bit. Its just the stark realisation how serious SS is I guess.

 

[Anonymous_A]

Felt odd the first time I came on here, knowing that somebody on the other side of a screen actually ctb. But nowadays it's different.

Hopefully this doesn't sound disrespectful but I just read/post this site like any other site.
The internet is the internet, I don't personally know anyone or try to. Therefore it doesn't really phase/affect me as much.

I assume erryone on here are bots lol

 

[OnlyTheWind]

It's kind of depressing when I see a user who I remember posting with their name crossed out. Also works as a motivator for my own eventual suicide.

 

[nobodyspecial]

After a few members actually appear to have CTB'd I have a strange feeling about how real this website is. Not sure how to describe it. How do others feel after someone actually acts on their plan?

I hurt for them. I'm glad they're at peace, I just wish they had a better life experience to where they didn't feel the need to go this route.

 

[motel rooms]

I respect their courage. It hurts when someone you interacted with & liked dies, but life is meaningless bullshit & death is freedom. They deserve to be free.

 

[HelloAllYouPeople]

Happiness for them, theyre finally at peace. And of course jealousy lol

 

[Sisyphus]

I am sad anybody has to do it, but I imagine that the alternative in their case, continuing to live, would have been worse. Life can get bad enough that killing yourself becomes the slightly less terrible of two terrors, as DFW said.

 

[Bullit]

I assume erryone on here are bots lol

That is ridiculous! I am fully human fully human fully human zip work plunk xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx fully human g2454343676865463$$%#@-&%$45&%*=#2@!!!!!!!!!.

 

[Anonymous_A]

That is ridiculous! I am fully human fully human fully human zip work plunk xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx fully human g2454343676865463$$%#@-&%$45&%*=#2@!!!!!!!!!.

Imagine if they started captchas

 

[İnilerim]

Envious.

 

[9BBN]

I feel sad, but I think that's a testament to the sense of community here. It reminds me of the value of human connection.

 

[nerve]

Kind of empty. A little proud too. Like they stood up for themselves and what they wanted, even though it might have been scary or lonely.

When I'm reading goodbye threads, I get this distinct sense that my time to leave will come too. It's a little calming to look at it that way.

 

[logan]

It's just as bad as when it happens in your own neighborhood ...

With some here had a very close and friendly relationship.

Especially close to me are the loss of @goat and @darksoul931 gone.

 

[Mr2005]

Sad? I personally think "I'm so happy for them" is just weird , possibly even unnerving

 

[http-410]

No matter how many times I read Goodbye threads, I won't dull from it. It's tragic in its own way every time.

I feel bad and it pains me that they had to / wanted to go that route. I wonder if it was actually what they wanted or if they regret their decision in the last seconds. I wonder if people didn't make it and ended up as vegetables and therefore don't have the opportunity to post here anymore. Even when people unsuccessfully try to kill themselves multiple times and announce it here, it's tragic because it shows how desperate they are.

Sometimes I think about their pets, too. They are often the only remaining beings with a special bond and they probably do not understand what (or for what reason) is happening. It saddens me to think of them searching in vain for their owners.

Nevertheless, I'm sometimes skeptical, because I never know if there are also trolls or people who pretend to kill themselves. But even then, these people have a serious issue.

 

[Pure]

Very sad that it came to that point for them, or for any of us. Doesn't matter to me that they were just a screen name on a rando website, they were a person with their own dreams that never came to be, for whatever reason. Contrary to popular belief by normies, I don't think most of us like seeing people not recover and be happy. It's very sad actually. And unfortunate. End result of an ultracapitalist shithole we live in. I hope wherever they are, they're at peace. If this life is truly all we have then I am glad they are no longer suffering.

 

[Snake of Eden]

Really sad. Honourable mentions @Death in Sweden @Freakazette @hahabye

 

[Sprite_Geist]

Mixed feelings. Content that they are no longer suffering at the hands of whatever demon was tormenting them, but also disappointed because it reminds me of my own (and current) inability to go through with suicide despite wishing to do so for many years.

 

[whitefeather]

I miss the friends here who have ctb.
Friend or not - each and every one who shares their last moments / carefully planned ctb here --This helps us all get there.
This website is " the peoples pegasos ' .

 

[chocolatebar]

I feel sad and broken, I won't deny it. Some would say that I'm a hypocrite for being so sad for other people ctb, because I plan to ctb myself, but I think it's just our nature and empathy that makes us do so. I don't think any good person can read about someone ctb and not be touched by it.

It's just as bad as when it happens in your own neighborhood ...

With some here had a very close and friendly relationship.

Especially close to me are the loss of @goat and @darksoul931 gone.

I feel you. Used to hold many users at my heart and it struck me so hard when I saw their names crossed.

 

[Symbiote]

Mixed feelings. More melancholy like I'm happy they were able to find peace and I respect them for it, but I feel sad that I won't get to talk to them anymore. Some deaths don't really seem fair especially if they were on a path to recovery, but life decides to fuck them double time for their effort. Feels like the more you try to recover or make a journey towards it, life and bad luck will always be around to mess things up or make it even harder. Sometimes you just don't want to play the game anymore and want to unplug. The moment they tell themselves, "yeah I quit, this is all meaningless..."

 

[FuneralCry]

To me the people who ctb are free from the pain that this life has given them, they are at peace but at the same time it makes me feel sad that they were driven to that point.

 

[UKscotty]

Happy for them that they are at peace.
Have to admit I get jealous too as I don't have the balls to ctb no matter how much I wish I could. Still gives me hope everytime I see a goodbye post that soon it can be my turn.

 

[Fthis]

I always feel a kind of "ahhhh.... Alright then..." Type feeling with a little bit of jealousy, and I'm kinda happy for them

 

[Roger]

No matter how many times I read Goodbye threads, I won't dull from it. It's tragic in its own way every time.

I feel bad and it pains me that they had to / wanted to go that route. I wonder if it was actually what they wanted or if they regret their decision in the last seconds. I wonder if people didn't make it and ended up as vegetables and therefore don't have the opportunity to post here anymore. Even when people unsuccessfully try to kill themselves multiple times and announce it here, it's tragic because it shows how desperate they are.

Sometimes I think about their pets, too. They are often the only remaining beings with a special bond and they probably do not understand what (or for what reason) is happening. It saddens me to think of them searching in vain for their owners.

Nevertheless, I'm sometimes skeptical, because I never know if there are also trolls or people who pretend to kill themselves. But even then, these people have a serious issue.

I am certain that my dogs have kept me alive for more than two years now. What would happen to them if I were not here?