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CentreMid

CentreMid

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Natural Self-Love?
Sounds so Narcissistic
Fuck GOD
I Hate Religion
Haha I feel, and the whole part about being part of a community, it's complete bull haha. If we were truly "part of a community" we wouldn't be here trying to find ways to off ourselves
 
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windingdown

windingdown

Specialist
Sep 10, 2018
367
I guess you try and trick it, or set yourself up so by the time it kicks in, it's too late. You really have to be at peice with death for your survival instinct to not kick it.

Drugs would certainly help, but even then, your survival instinct will start to tickle your mind as you begin to take them.

Only mental preparation and true acceptance of no other options can affect the survival instinct.

I had to back myself into a corner to fully commit to a attempt
I agree about being at peace with death. I am making peace with death more every day, through active thought (and observation of life). It's helping me tremendously. I'm moving a lot closer, and it's all feeling easier. I feel that much (or all, for some) of the battle is psychological.
 
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Fucking loving it

Fucking loving it

Specialist
Sep 3, 2018
378
My method. Full suspension. There. It's over cuz I have all day alone.
 
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windingdown

windingdown

Specialist
Sep 10, 2018
367
I have that too to some degree, but it's more about things I do becoming "contaminated" by my intrusive thoughts.
Just a suggestion, and take it with a grain of salt, but have you considered whether there might be an element of psychosis going on? The idea of things becoming contaminated by your thoughts is a delusion, which is basically what psychosis is - delusion, detachment from reality. This is coming from someone with diagnosed psychotic episodes, where I have believed all sorts of delusional things like that - that is how I recognize it.

There is probably more psychosis going on in the world than anyone knows. It can be mild and have gradual onset (insidious), so you don't realize it's developing. With me, it was just biochemical - it went away with appropriate medication (often during hospitalization). On that logic, anti-psychotics may help - if you're interested in exploring new avenues of treatment at this stage.
 
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Fucking loving it

Fucking loving it

Specialist
Sep 3, 2018
378
I figure full suspension. Trusses of the garage. 8 hours to just hang around. ......
 
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whatmattersmost

whatmattersmost

Gone to HANG.
Sep 10, 2018
224
Just a suggestion, and take it with a grain of salt, but have you considered whether there might be an element of psychosis going on? The idea of things becoming contaminated by your thoughts is a delusion, which is basically what psychosis is - delusion, detachment from reality. This is coming from someone with diagnosed psychotic episodes, where I have believed all sorts of delusional things like that - that is how I recognize it.

There is probably more psychosis going on in the world than anyone knows. It can be mild and have gradual onset (insidious), so you don't realize it's developing. With me, it was just biochemical - it went away with appropriate medication (often during hospitalization). On that logic, anti-psychotics may help - if you're interested in exploring new avenues of treatment at this stage.
What do you mean by more psychosis going on in the World?
 
windingdown

windingdown

Specialist
Sep 10, 2018
367
What do you mean by more psychosis going on in the World?
I mean that I think it's likely that lots more people experience varying levels of psychosis, than anyone realizes. Probably a lot of poor decisions are made due to mild psychosis. Mine began more than a year before it became really bad, and it started as basically normal but slightly magical thinking. Belief in 'the universe', signs and symbols, that sort of thing. I made a lot of poor decisions that year, due to the psychosis. But from the outside it would have been impossible for anyone to tell it was developing, it was so mild, and my thoughts and behaviors appeared basically normal. It was a very gradual detachment from reality, from specific actions having specific consequences.

(It did eventually turn full-blown - psychotic breaks, the whole lot.)
 
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whatmattersmost

whatmattersmost

Gone to HANG.
Sep 10, 2018
224
I mean that I think it's likely that lots more people experience varying levels of psychosis, than anyone realizes. Probably a lot of poor decisions are made due to mild psychosis. Mine began more than a year before it became really bad, and it started as basically normal but slightly magical thinking. Belief in 'the universe', signs and symbols, that sort of thing. I made a lot of poor decisions that year, due to the psychosis. But from the outside it would have been impossible for anyone to tell it was developing, it was so mild, and my thoughts and behaviors appeared basically normal. It was a very gradual detachment from reality, from specific actions having specific consequences.

(It did eventually turn full-blown - psychotic breaks, the whole lot.)
I had a Manic Episode almost a Year ago, it lasted for about 2-3months, I've been had the worst Depression of My entire life since that episode.
I don't know if that's a form of psychosis
 
Fucking loving it

Fucking loving it

Specialist
Sep 3, 2018
378
I had a Manic Episode almost a Year ago, it lasted for about 2-3months, I've been had the worst Depression of My entire life since that episode.
I don't know if that's a form of psychosis
Almost a replica of my life
 
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Nights

Nights

Student
Apr 27, 2023
163
Will power, if you have the enough will power to overcome all of your survival instincts and what you've been made for (to survive for as long as possible) you will not only be cable of killing yourself
 
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inmyhead

Student
May 21, 2023
168
Tell yourself it's just practice is one way to do it.
 
DEATH IS FREEDOM

DEATH IS FREEDOM

Death is the solution to unsolvable problems.
Sep 13, 2023
606
The survival instinct is very strong - the process of an organism to preventing itself from being harmed and killed. There would be no life without the survival instinct. Our desire for life is very strong. Suicide is possible when the pain of living is stronger than the survival instinct. But human behavior is complicated. Other factors are important in this context such as courage and fear.
 

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