how do i get out of my rut

[smirks00ts]

its almost the end of the year and i cant feel anything. I wanted to do so much this year but due to everything I lost drive to do it all. I want to gain it back somehow.

the idea of suicide has been leaving my mind. and im numb to it, still want to CTB but its sadly on the backburner for now due to circumstances.

so, what do I do to get out of my harmful routine and also like. do things again. like drawing or making things. ive been in it for a while so yeah.

 

[moriix]

as cliche as it may sound, small steps. like, very small. just say to urself "okay I will pick up the pencil and draw for a minute right now" thats all. you may continue for longer once you get into it but make sure ur brain doesnt feel threatened by too much perceived effort. once you start the good things can "snowball", it gets much easier. i got stuck in a similar rut of doing nothing lately, its really hard to get out of also if you have any access to meds/therapy that could be a huge help. i hope you'll be able to get out of this anhedonia sucks ass

 

[smirks00ts]

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as cliche as it may sound, small steps. like, very small. just say to urself "okay I will pick up the pencil and draw for a minute right now" thats all. you may continue for longer once you get into it but make sure ur brain doesnt feel threatened by too much perceived effort. once you start the good things can "snowball", it gets much easier. i got stuck in a similar rut of doing nothing lately, its really hard to get out of also if you have any access to meds/therapy that could be a huge help. i hope you'll be able to get out of this anhedonia sucks ass

Never knew that was a sign of anhedonia. not i know of it in general. but it fits me i think. ill research.


the issue is that most thinfs I did were like mostly for other people
if I drew it was mostly for like fan art or things fro friends. I barely did it for myself. and stuff like that. now that im barelt alone and have like a small few people I talk to I barely have the drive ro do anything.

I do game a little more now. after a while of not touching them for a while. its fun but you get it.

thank you for the kind words. it means a lot.

 

[CC123]

A little walking can do wonders.
Even doing steps inside.
Get some endorphins in your system.

 

[moriix]

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Never knew that was a sign of anhedonia. not i know of it in general. but it fits me i think. ill research.


the issue is that most thinfs I did were like mostly for other people
if I drew it was mostly for like fan art or things fro friends. I barely did it for myself. and stuff like that. now that im barelt alone and have like a small few people I talk to I barely have the drive ro do anything.

I do game a little more now. after a while of not touching them for a while. its fun but you get it.

thank you for the kind words. it means a lot.

i kind of get that, i used to draw a lot too and I even had like a small business thing going for me so I got used to only drawing stuff for money or for other people. rediscovering drawing just for myself had been wonderful though. if you game, maybe you could try drawing a character you like from that game? or from something else that you find enjoyable

yes, what u are experiencing sounds like anhedonia to me (loss of interest in things). it could be caused by burnout or depression and a bunch of other stuff, not sure since I dont know ur situation fully. but it is possible to get out of! usually for anhedonia motivation follows action. unfortunately motivation will rarely come first :^( thats why u gotta take the smallest steps possible and then hype urself up like crazy when you manage to do what u wanted. it really does work, gotta be ur own hypeman

 

[smirks00ts]

A little walking can do wonders.
Even doing steps inside.
Get some endorphins in your system.

thank you for the advice. ill try to do that.

i kind of get that, i used to draw a lot too and I even had like a small business thing going for me so I got used to only drawing stuff for money or for other people. rediscovering drawing just for myself had been wonderful though. if you game, maybe you could try drawing a character you like from that game? or from something else that you find enjoyable

yes, what u are experiencing sounds like anhedonia to me (loss of interest in things). it could be caused by burnout or depression and a bunch of other stuff, not sure since I dont know ur situation fully. but it is possible to get out of! usually for anhedonia motivation follows action. unfortunately motivation will rarely come first :^( thats why u gotta take the smallest steps possible and then hype urself up like crazy when you manage to do what u wanted. it really does work, gotta be ur own hypeman

thank u so much. I just read a little and yeah it feels like me. esp that it happened to me after separation and what not. also apathy too since I dont do stuff much unless im told to ( like chores or whatever. but some I do on my own bevause I feel obligated to. idk )

ill try to draw at some point. my mind has been blank since stuff happened to me since the beginning of the year (feb) and kind of kept harming myself mentally bevause of it then until maybe may when I started to plateau and then near attempted in june. so most things just make me feel flat. it sucks, but I hope I can bring myself to do things again.