My abusive ex has spun a story to the police about how I "assaulted" him despite him being the one who assaulted me. The police arrested me, didn't follow standard procedure, didn't get the details of one of the witnesses, didn't photograph my injuries. I've just come back from an interview where they've tried to twist my words and ask me why did I "stay so long" if he was so awful.
I'm losing hope, women like me who've gone through months of abuse are ignored or victim blamed. I've been thinking about ctb for so long now I think it might be time.
Been there. Gee, because he threatened me and everyone around me, stole my phone, money, stalked me, persisted and would not leave me alone, accused me of flirting, cheating, and being an all around pest that wouldn't stop when he was told to stop. I felt like I had nowhere to go and no options and that the people around me would be in danger because of him. Family manipulated the situation and said "just get through college and you'll have enough money to get away from him" - truthfully speaking I think they collaborated together to continue the financial, emotional, physical, and sexual abuse.
I had low self esteem. He gaslighted me. He kept trying to force /forcing unwanted sexual intercourse or an unwanted pregnancy. He would stare at me when I was doing literally nothing, just to be a pest. Continuous harassment.
I needed domestic violence services, not a psychiatrist. I saw one by mistake and they prescribed a bunch of pills, as if pill popping would change his behavior from being a violent psychotic sex offender into Prince Charming, I swallowed a ton of them hoping I'd die or it would make the pain disappear. The system is so flawed. So it was my fault I didn't want to be with him and I was trapped?
all those crazy psych drugs made me hallucinate. He continued to brutalize me and isolate me from friends or any outside interaction, classmates, etc for two years. I couldn't get away from him.
then more family violence, more bs, more abuse, more stupid little "games" - we care so much that we don't care at all, don't listen, just sit there and lie and send a pest to follow you around like a shadow, when you tell the broad to get lost they won't, and it's for the stupidest shit. The stupidest shit, the worst fucking family, the worst abusers and oppressors, people who steal and lie and steal and lie and steal and lie and steal and lie, then when you show up at your idiot mothers house and begin hellraising and breaking everything they pretend to be innocent or like driving to Walmart helped or all the stolen money helped. It helped nothing. Oh we got your stuff! Congrats stupid, it was all supposed to be donated and you wasted money and time, burned me from work, housing, school, and progress in life to just play a stupid little game.
Water under the bridge now
