Help How do highly anxious people kill themselves?

[cowbain]

I can't even order the supplies without freaking the fuck out. But I also don't want to keep living & constantly be triggered back into a situation like this.

 

[Halo13]

I'm a pretty anxious person at times but the thought of ctb gives me comfort.

 

[Soulless_Angel]

I'm a pretty anxious person at times but the thought of ctb gives me comfort.

Im with this dude!!! I have a situation my brain and memory takes me to, at this point I feel so calm its crazy! its to do with CTBing, so I know when I can get back to that place my anxiety will be of no issue

 

[catpissmartini]

Alcohol takes away the inhibitions and helps me think straight.

 

[Ghost2211]

Sedatives.

 

[xBrialesana]

I'm a pretty anxious person at times but the thought of ctb gives me comfort.

Literally it's the only thing that can help remind me "It's gonna be okay". I know it will be over.

And in some miracle life turnaround all of the sudden I look like a fucking model, then there's that!

Until then I distract myself with unhealthy substances. Woops

 

[Brick In The Wall]

CTB to me is the calm in the storm. It's the one thing we can always fall back on. But the last card in our hands. So lets all try to shed our anxiety and squeeze ever last drop of happiness before hand!

 

[Lastsauce]

I will be doing it anxiously, that's for sure.

 

[Soulless_Angel]

Alcohol takes away the inhibitions and helps me think straight.

shhh im with you on this 110% but ain't admitting shit!

 

[toodeep]

I can't even order the supplies without freaking the fuck out. But I also don't want to keep living & constantly be triggered back into a situation like this.

I've found that klonopin eases my anxiety and my depression flourishes in that state . To each their own . Anxiety is like the little meth head in us begging to drive the car , clawing to get out . Shit is powerful stuff

 

[Brick In The Wall]

So @Briannacondaaa is a sinkster now. Come hang out with us!

I've found that klonopin eases my anxiety and my depression flourishes in that state . To each their own . Anxiety is like the little meth head in us begging to drive the car , clawing to get out . Shit is powerful stuff

Welcome to the sink too!

 

[catpissmartini]

shhh im with you on this 110% but ain't admitting shit!

LOL Not saying you're an alcoholic but this unsustainable way of life gets us by until it won't anymore.

 

[bpdandme]

I have the same issue, I want to die so I don't have this crippling anxiety but can't die because of my anxiety!! Hope you're okay!!

 

[Soulless_Angel]

LOL Not saying you're an alcoholic but this unsustainable way of life gets us by until it won't anymore.

I can go days without , but then I can go days with, it makes no sense, if it was removed tomorrow and never given back, It wouldn't bother me, its weird!

 

[nirvana133]

I have had bad anxiety throughout my life, but the desire to go is much more stronger. I'm probably not the best example, because i drink a lot and that lowers your inhibitions, but still after 10 years of dealing with this shit, I'm just done.

 

[Tamazi 123]

I'm the same, my anxiety makes me want to kill myself but it has to be high enough anxiety (not nerves) to go through with it otherwise I am too anxious to do anything about it. . I bottled a prepped attempt lastnight cos I wasn't anxious enough and got too scared

 

[TAW122]

It could be getting to a state of mind of pure apathy and nonchalance, literally not caring about ANYTHING (this includes money, people, family, etc.). Sometimes people use drugs and alcohol to help combat their survival instinct, or even a combination of both (alcohol and drugs in tandem with meditation and reaching that super calm, fearless state of mind, kind of like a trance).

 

[Mywill]

No matter how anxious you're if you aren't taking the first step, you'll go nowhere except to suffer longer.

 

[LMLN]

Benzos?

 

[Throwmyselfaway]

I actually calmed down a lot when I ordered my sn. Valium also helps a lot too.

 

[mesohappy]

With trembling hands,sweaty palms,rapid heartbeat and racing thoughts.

 

[AlreadyGone]

Due to the fear and terror of needing to live another day.

 

[notjustyetagain]

being trapped by anxiety into not being able to live and not being able to die is horrible and, whatever's necessary, i hope you can reach a state of mind that allows you to go through with the former, or the latter as a last resort. personally i'm only existing due to anxiolytic narcotics.

there's no guaranteed, foolproof, and benign solution to address SI-related anxiety AFAIK, but echoing others' replies, anything that lowers your inhibitions may help. almost a third of suicide victims in the US have alcohol in their system at the time of autopsy. opiates, benzodiazepines, and other sedatives/hypnotics can also provide artificial courage or at least tame your anxiety to the point you can do what you need to do.

however, there is a risk of a paradoxical reaction (esp. if you're as "fond" of these substances as i am). for me, after taking a big dose of opiates and/or benzos, life doesn't feel that bad anymore: i have the willpower to get out of bed, the courage to check the letterbox -- i'm practically bulletproof. but yeah, be wary of the potential for these substances to miraculously dissolve your pain, traumas/flashbacks, voices, anxiety, fears, depression, stress, etc. and so temporarily reduce the perceived necessity of your attempt. there are less risky methods, like challenging your anxiety at every turn, focusing on the possibility of eternal peace, CBT/DBT, etc. but they take effort and cash and other things that are hard to come by.

anyway, you might need a few well-timed doses to go through distinct steps? i would recommend benzos if your psych/GP is willing to prescribe them, alcohol if not (opiates are harder to come by). maybe: an initial, sufficient dose to overcome your anxiety in ordering what you need for your method, another dose for preparing and finalising your plans, and a last, hefty dose just prior to your attempt. (though there's a delicate balance between readying oneself for one's force/will and forcing/willing oneself to be ready, if that makes sense? excuse my english.)