How did you first hear about / find your way to SanctionedSuicide? (2nd poll)

[egoaltru]

I did see Tantacrul's video, but I found the website by searching for methods. It took me a while to realize it was the website from the video because this forum really doesn't seem as bad as it used to be.

 

[raindrops]

I googled and googled for info on suicide & how to do it. I found a website that was for suicide but you couldn't talk about it like we do here, so I went back to Google and here I am. I was so pleased, every one is so understanding and helpful. I don't understand what is bad about this place? Is it because people have left goodbye threads and completed ctb. They could of posted that anywhere, would Facebook be bad if they said goodbye there. This is a safe space. I'm so grateful for this place and I have found the courage to go on at times because of SaSu. I want to die so badly, I want to give up so badly and I'm glad I can say that openly here. No one is forced here.

 

[princessdie]

My best friend ctb in July with SN. She didn't leave a note or warning. Granted, because we always joked about our mental health to cope with it, she used to bring up "a forum" she would "lurk" on to find methods (this was AGES ago). I always looked for it but I never found my way here til I researched SN after she passed.

 

[breatheout]

huge fan of deep dive vids. when I saw tantacrul's it wasn't hard to find the site since he literally name dropped the site creators. i don't think he knows that he's given more light to the site and methods lol.

 

[worstgirl7716]

Although I guess technically it was tantacrul's video, I'd heard it mentioned a few times before actually looking into it

 

[okdroplet]

From Tantacrul's YouTube video, didn't like the way it sounded one sided and didn't like the way he spoke about the website. so I searched for it and found it, now it's a forum i can find peace in.
Oh, and his video was randomly recommended to me.
Also I never thought websites like this existed, I would have joined earlier.

 

[i0nny]

I've found out about this forum via google

 

[PurPurAstie]

that stupid tantacrul's vid got recommended to me, i was enraged about how they think that we shouldn't help together to peacefully pass, and after finding in the comments the name of this site, i obviously joined the community. it's such a joke that he himself led people onto the site, basically a giant recommendation for suicidal people. lmao.

 

[wisp]

A user who was here was also present in another forum. He said he wanted to stop suffering and someone told him about this forum. He then chose CTB. The news spread and I found out about this forum... strange coincidence that we frequented the same forum, he was also from the same city as me, but I didn't know he frequented here too. He was "EndJust", maybe someone remembers him

 

[DeecyTee]

I got recommended Tantacrul's video and after a bit of searching found a link to this place.

Same here

 

[shinitai_sh0jo]

I remember watching tentacrul's video some months ago, but had no idea about searching this site... Until I found it being mentioned in another video that I've watched today, and went for searching about it... It was actually ridiculously easy to find.

It's a bit saddening how the video was meant probably for pushing people away from it, but.. it gets a bit tiring to search for info in a japanese book when you don't know japanese.

 

[Pinkie_Pie]

Bonsoir,
Je suis nouvelle ici donc Bonne Année à vous pour commencer.
Moi je suis ici depuis une vidéo YouTube qui faisait un "classement des pires sites" et mettant des sites comme Lamando ou LHOHQ au même niveau que Sanctioned Suicide, ça m'a fait rire et après avoir fait un peu de recherches je me suis retrouvée dans la philosophie du site.

Et moi voilà :)

Ps : pardon d'avoir écrit en français, chez moi les pages sont traduites mais je ferais un effort pour mes prochains post.
Cci est mon premier.

Merci

 

[trashhologram]

Some time ago a person who used to be a member of this forum made an AMA. That picqued my interest so I started Googling. They mentioned the acronym "CTB" was used on this mysterious site so when I started lurking here I knew this was that forum. I was a lurker for a while and then decided to join the conversation.

 

[AInilam]

A friend of mine (now deceased) mentioned that they were frequenting this site shortly before taking their own life. A few months later, after reaching my lowest point I wanted to ctb myself but didn't know how to go about it so I sought out this forum. Now the rest is history.

 

[CasTheFriendlyGhost]

I googled "suicide forum". sanctioned suicide wasn't in the results, but thankfully news corporation are paying for the privilege of being the top results on google. so there was the first result: a big fat juicy dramatic nyt headline that told me where i wanted to go (right under the suicide prevention hotline ofc)

 

[Midnight-rain]

Found out about it through a different mental health forum some years ago.

 

[silent.desperation]

I saw an article on the BBC by chance and it piqued my interest so here I am...

 

[Kenky77]

I googled ppeh and finally found this forum.

 

[Shetly]

I just found it via google.

 

[Hysteria]

It was a painful search to finally do what I wanted with my body. I aimed to cease my existence and read everything on the Internet about methods. I was upset by Clearnet's articles hiding resources. So, I was searching the deep web until I accidentally found the forum's name on a page. Afterward, I specifically searched for it, found more info on Wikipedia, and joined. One of the best revelations of my life. I'm positive that you, this community, saved me from making a grave mistake with an uneducated attempt. Finally, I believe I know how to succeed with this one thing in my life.

 

[thechemist]

I found this forrum while searching on other forrums and they were mentioning S.S forrum so I searched for s.s forrum and here we are

 

[targz]

Discovered on the r/promortalism Discord server

 

[painpaingoaway]

I was looking for information on methods on some more obscure search engines and this page popped up

 

[Dysgenic Pup]

In May 2020, I came across a thread on Reddit mentioning a forbidden site that is the successor of a subreddit banned years prior.

 

[brood]

Research on method and I wanted to be able to discuss with others.

 

[heavyeyes]

On reddit but I can't remember which sub. Someone had posted the New York Times article

 

[Runa]

I was searching for a right to die forum and the first place I decided to look was /adv/ on 4chan. I went through the archive and I saw that this place was linked by a handful of people. I actually saw Tantacrul's video pop up in my recommended multiple times back in October, but I never clicked on it because the thumbnail and title were such blatant clickbait I didn't even want to give it the time of day. I had no idea this was the website he was referring to until I looked his channel up just now. After an hour of lurking this place, I don't see how it's "toxic" at all.

 

[gasterblaster]

I think I was looking for an updated copy of PPH. Finding this forum was great actually, I learned stuff that saved me from permanent damage due to unreliable methods.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Bojack Horseman is ultimately what led me to this website. Picture this: it's early 2020. I had just finished watching the 6th and final season of the show. The last episode kind of sucked (what he just goes to jail for a year? Kinda lame) but that penultimate episode The View From Halfway Down really stuck with me. In case you didn't know, the title of that episodes refers to a poem being said which basically details why jumping is a horrible method for killing oneself (I'm paraphrasing here). I ended up being so captivated by it that I googled the poem trying to find the transcript and amazingly, one of the top search results had been somebody from this very website who had posted the whole poem.

I can't remember who that user was and I don't even know if Google would yield the same results nowadays but I prefer to thank Netflix for giving me the opportunity to find this place. My grandparents had also died right around that time and I was feeling really guilty and shitty about it so if anything, they're also to blame (sorry grandma and grandpa).

 

[Deadfrogwalking]

Found out about Sa.Su after a lifelong friend CTB,
Going through his phone and tablet before his parent's or daughter did, I came here looking for his threads to get a sense of WHY ?
So glad I deleted it before anyone saw it, I understand, don't think his family would have.
This site gave him a little peace in his last days.
It gives me some comfort now as my final days unfold, just looking for a suitable partner now, I don't want to CTB alone.

Thank you all for your honesty, openness and participation.

How much better could the world be for some, maybe still not all if the subjects discussed here could be openly discussed and not shunned or judged in society ?