Still better than anything else at the moment. No matter what I do, I'm always the cause of stress or something similar. I don't want all that anymore, I want to be the one who is accepted by everyone without any problems and without having to justify myself all the time. It's so complicated and I can try my best for everyone but what comes back? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. I start cutting my arms open in the hope that people will start to worry about me, I know typical attention seeking move, yet I was hoping that at least then people would think about it. But no, instead they just talked about how I don't matter. I can't take any more and I don't want any more. And every other comment about why my thoughts are "pointless" only makes it worse to the point where I really want to actively reach the bus.
You know, I wanted help.I tried, but only got info:"HIere is a new appointment for in 4 weeks because there was a system problem with your referral".