ADHD, MDD, GAD, and am apparently Bipolar 1 because of SSRI induced manic episodes (though some providers disagree that I have it), and traits that resemble ASD, schizotypal, and CPTSD.
I live alone because my mom who I was living with was sent to a long term facility. I'm considering CTB because I'm unable to function on my own and live independently after repeated stressors. I have no support system or family that can help. The one thing that was keeping me going was being on Vyvanse, but they took away my script because of mood issues and psychotic symptoms. Tried to ctb with a firearm but was too scared to do it and was committed. After I got out I lost my job and was dropped from my classes. The depression and hopelessness is bad, but what's worse is the anxiety. I dread sleeping because of nightmares and I wake up with the worst feeling of panic and dread. If I'm not flagged in the system I'm probably going to try again.
I live alone because my mom who I was living with was sent to a long term facility. I'm considering CTB because I'm unable to function on my own and live independently after repeated stressors. I have no support system or family that can help. The one thing that was keeping me going was being on Vyvanse, but they took away my script because of mood issues and psychotic symptoms. Tried to ctb with a firearm but was too scared to do it and was committed. After I got out I lost my job and was dropped from my classes. The depression and hopelessness is bad, but what's worse is the anxiety. I dread sleeping because of nightmares and I wake up with the worst feeling of panic and dread. If I'm not flagged in the system I'm probably going to try again.
