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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,351
This is just another pointless post, writing these posts does not help me in any way but it is just a way to pass the time. I do not understand how people can actually want to live in a world where so much pain exists. Even if things are going well for people now, they can easily get much worse and of course there is no limit as to how bad things can get. All that humans have to look forward to is growing older and losing everything as they physically and mentally decay. It is a cruel world we live in where the society tries to force us to live. Our right to die should be respected, and I deserve to exit peacefully.

I do not understand how other people see life as being positive, they must be delusional to want to exist in a world filled with suffering. Life does not interest me at all, as well, it is all so tiring and repetitive. Humans are under so much stress and they struggle so much and it is all for nothing. It is all so meaningless. Everything we do is just a distraction from death. Things that others seem to enjoy just makes me feel empty. I see no point to my life, I really wish I was never born.

I know I deserve better than this life, I deserve eternal nothingness, it is where I belong and it is the only thing that feels right. Maybe a lot of people are still alive because ctb is so difficult. I think if it was easier to leave this world maybe people would realise how pointless life is. I have never wanted to be alive and I never will. My life will only be suffering and misery until I die.
 
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Nolan96

Nolan96

Mage
Feb 12, 2022
506
I see good in you and I'm sorry you're so unhappy. I'm glad if the people on this site including myself can help you pass the time in a way that's not as miserable as other options.
 
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Mistake of Nature

Mistake of Nature

A shadow suspended on dust
Mar 30, 2020
159
While I'm sorry you say that your posts don't help you, they have certainly helped me and probably others feel less alone. I don't know if that means much, but wanted to put it out there and say thank you for sharing your insightful thoughts with us.

I totally agree with you. This world and reality is so ugly, cruel, and above all else, completely pointless. How anyone could be "happy" to be alive, how anyone could bring more life into this world, etc. is beyond me.

People need to delude and lie to themselves to make it through life. It's the only way. I guess some of us either don't have that skill or can't bring ourselves to pull the wool over our eyes. Regardless, I hope all of our suffering can be ended in whatever way we believe is best for each of us.
 
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Desi

Student
Aug 16, 2019
118
This world is truly ugly and getting worse every day, yes.
this place is special, though, i'm glad it exists.
 
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ClownMe

ClownMe

Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
Apr 7, 2021
20,561
This world sucks.
 
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whatevs

whatevs

Mining for copium in the weirdest places.
Jan 15, 2022
2,913
Normies think you are the delusional one. I think both you and them are seeing facets of reality.

I don't understand how you don't understand that people enjoy life, or like it though. It's literally why they were born, they are an embodiment of a will to exist. People like us are the odd ones that are hard to understand or explain, not them.

Despite all the indubitable misery that biology entails, most people find life valuable and enjoyable. This is not "delusional", they just have a different sensivity than you have. It would more apt to say that they are "partially blind" than delusional, since their pleasures and objectives are quite tangible, they just are oblivious to things we can grasp and they gloss over.
 
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orange

Experienced
Nov 19, 2021
243
fellow antinatalist i see :)
 
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CommitSudoku

never interfere with a lifespan reaping
Feb 12, 2022
524
What brings you to decide to write a post yourself instead of commenting/doing another activity? Just curious. I appreciate your engagement on this site, seems like you try to make sure no topic ends alone.
 
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TheBroken

TheBroken

What Really Matters Anymore?
Feb 13, 2022
242
Agree with this post. Realize that life has always been hard for humans, but modern times are just a whole new level of hatred, suffering, and brutality.
 
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Ravel

Ravel

tired
Dec 13, 2021
144
I know how it is. Life is so absurd. I hope one day we find peace
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,351
What brings you to decide to write a post yourself instead of commenting/doing another activity? Just curious. I appreciate your engagement on this site, seems like you try to make sure no topic ends alone.
I do not even know why I decided to write a post, I guess it was just a way to pass time. Sometimes it feels pointless writing about my suffering. I wish I could just forget about this life and sleep forever.
 
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Rational man

Rational man

Enlightened
Oct 19, 2021
1,485
This is just another pointless post, writing these posts does not help me in any way but it is just a way to pass the time. I do not understand how people can actually want to live in a world where so much pain exists. Even if things are going well for people now, they can easily get much worse and of course there is no limit as to how bad things can get. All that humans have to look forward to is growing older and losing everything as they physically and mentally decay. It is a cruel world we live in where the society tries to force us to live. Our right to die should be respected, and I deserve to exit peacefully.

I do not understand how other people see life as being positive, they must be delusional to want to exist in a world filled with suffering. Life does not interest me at all, as well, it is all so tiring and repetitive. Humans are under so much stress and they struggle so much and it is all for nothing. It is all so meaningless. Everything we do is just a distraction from death. Things that others seem to enjoy just makes me feel empty. I see no point to my life, I really wish I was never born.

I know I deserve better than this life, I deserve eternal nothingness, it is where I belong and it is the only thing that feels right. Maybe a lot of people are still alive because ctb is so difficult. I think if it was easier to leave this world maybe people would realise how pointless life is. I have never wanted to be alive and I never will. My life will only be suffering and misery until I die.
however much suffering anyone is experiencing, eventually it ends. Suffering is impermanen t as is life. W e leave,rhe world with norhing.
 
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Death is beautiful

Death is beautiful

Warlock
May 20, 2021
792
however much suffering anyone is experiencing, eventually it ends. Suffering is impermanen t as is life. W e leave,rhe world with norhing.
I sincerely want to believe in it if there is some kind of afterlife, then it's fucked up
 
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Squalo

A Fatal Mistake
Jan 14, 2021
657
everyone keeps saying to me "look at the beautiful things in life" but what would these beautiful things be? maybe there are, but they are few and fewer and fewer, buried by tons of fear, suffering, hunger and war.

there is nothing to save on this planet, we are ruled by war leaders who care about power and money, they don't care about the 8 billion cockroaches that populate this planet and who work hard to get the crumbs at the end of the month.

it is not worth living on this planet, there is too much effort and suffering that is repaid with too little satisfaction, we are nothing but slaves, and I am tired of looking for the positive side of life in this sea of shit.

I just want to leave this horrible and cruel world forever.
 
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DetachedDreamer97

DetachedDreamer97

Enlightened
Mar 17, 2018
1,402
I'd say it's not all doom and gloom, but neither is it all beautiful. It's all subjective.

Some people are born lucky, raised by a good family, with an abundance of friends, free from abuse and most suffering, and they have loved one's to make their loves worth living. As for others, their lives could be full of suffering and abuse, where they grew up without a loving or supportive family, facing constant neglect or abuse. Where I fall in is the grey area (albeit towards the darker side).

I didn't have a good childhood, and for the most part, I struggle to overcome my past. It affects me to this day, where whenever I'd look back on the past there's always those memories of feeling powerless and weak. But…
Despite all that, there was some good in my life; there always have been, even if it's not much, it makes somewhat of a difference. Whether that's enough is debatable and will be one day decided by the flip of a coin. Point is, life is "tragically beautiful" as someone once put it.

If I kill myself, I'll be free from suffering, and I won't ever have to worry about being hurt again. At at the same time, even though it shouldn't matter when I'm dead, I'll miss out on the things I enjoy, and hurt some of the people I truly care about.
 
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Rational man

Rational man

Enlightened
Oct 19, 2021
1,485
I sincerely want to believe in it if there is some kind of afterlife, then it's fucked up

I sincerely want to believe in it if there is some kind of afterlife, then it's fucked up
We project.today's.thoughts into tomorrow.but.no-one.knows what tomorrow will bring. It is or it isn't. Yesterday , the sanctity of life.appeared,so important. Now.,the meglamaniacs are talking ' nuclear ' threats. The world.is becoming very.fucked.up.quickly im.afraid. i still find beauty in nature, in the woods, by the river where water flows back to its source. I too will rejoin with nature, back to where i was truly happy.
 
AnestheticVoid

AnestheticVoid

❤️ Dissociatives ❤️
Feb 17, 2022
273
I can see why people would want to be alive.
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
I can see why people enjoy it because they are rich! What I mean by rich is they like themselves internally and externally. They have a social life, romance and something they enjoy doing and didn't have any abuse neglect growing up it truly sucks to be on the other end of the spectrum suffering in torture
 
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freedompass

freedompass

Warlock
Jan 27, 2021
768
This is just another pointless post, writing these posts does not help me in any way but it is just a way to pass the time. I do not understand how people can actually want to live in a world where so much pain exists. Even if things are going well for people now, they can easily get much worse and of course there is no limit as to how bad things can get. All that humans have to look forward to is growing older and losing everything as they physically and mentally decay. It is a cruel world we live in where the society tries to force us to live. Our right to die should be respected, and I deserve to exit peacefully.

I do not understand how other people see life as being positive, they must be delusional to want to exist in a world filled with suffering. Life does not interest me at all, as well, it is all so tiring and repetitive. Humans are under so much stress and they struggle so much and it is all for nothing. It is all so meaningless. Everything we do is just a distraction from death. Things that others seem to enjoy just makes me feel empty. I see no point to my life, I really wish I was never born.

I know I deserve better than this life, I deserve eternal nothingness, it is where I belong and it is the only thing that feels right. Maybe a lot of people are still alive because ctb is so difficult. I think if it was easier to leave this world maybe people would realise how pointless life is. I have never wanted to be alive and I never will. My life will only be suffering and misery until I die.
While I'm sorry you say that your posts don't help you, they have certainly helped me and probably others feel less alone. I don't know if that means much, but wanted to put it out there and say thank you for sharing your insightful thoughts with us.

I totally agree with you. This world and reality is so ugly, cruel, and above all else, completely pointless. How anyone could be "happy" to be alive, how anyone could bring more life into this world, etc. is beyond me.

People need to delude and lie to themselves to make it through life. It's the only way. I guess some of us either don't have that skill or can't bring ourselves to pull the wool over our eyes. Regardless, I hope all of our suffering can be ended in whatever way we believe is best for each of us.
Hmmm well agreed this is a piece of shit world and existence. You say you deserve better and that, for you, is eternal nothingness. I agree with the first point, I feel like no one deserves this shit heap. I hate it with a passion bordering on 'efilism' if anyone has heard of that. It's a kinda niche philosophy that sort of takes antinatalism a stage further. That said. While eternal nothingness can't hurt in anyway as there is no longer a 'you' to suffer, I have had many dreams, visions and amazing experiences while in the manic phase of my bipolar cycle that have me wondering about alternate worlds, dimensions and realities. I would definitely be up for taking on a real life version of my fantasy self! I would love to be basically a god, living in a beautiful world surrounded by other gods and angels and able to manifest anything I want! Failing that? Well if all that remains for us at death is eternal nothingness, that really does render this a pointless waste of time at best. At worst a malicious joke since we all are suffering for no reason at all.

It's funny. 'New age' spiritual types like to say we all came into this world under some kind of contract. To be 'spiritual beings having a human experience' (hollow laugh). I find this hard to believe and likely just a way to rationalise and confirm the optimism bias. If true? Well I for one obviously failed to read the 'small print' haha.
 
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Jacquelyn

hellworld_kickflip888
Feb 23, 2019
107
Working 40 hours a week until I'm 60? Slaving away for a system that gives special privileges to those who are already privileged? To live in a country ran by people who only care about themselves, their money, and power? All while surrounded by people who have deluded themselves into believing the system actually works?

I think CTB makes far more sense (for me at least) than whatever the average person does with their life. I think most people kinda just live to support their families or partners. Most people seem to have some sort of sacred bond with family members. I don't know how that works, I wouldn't tell my family even 10% of the stuff I'd tell my friends.
 
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