Discussion How blank or chatty is your internal monologue?

[BitterlyAlive]

I should admit I came across this on Reddit, but I'm curious to read your experience. Also, if this relates, how do you often feel in your body?

For example, my internal monologue is almost blank at this point. I don't really have much of anything going through my mind. I notice that I often feel numb and cold in my body. The more empty my mind gets, the colder I feel. I literally get goosebumps and chills.

 

[Stavrogin]

Please, make it fucking stop.

 

[donquixote42]

Pretty chatty, especially when I am preoccupied with something, be it work or a personal project. I find that it helps overcome bad thoughts to some degree.
Obviously, when I am at my lowest, I can't help but to lie under a blanket and think about aforementioned stuff...

 

[Tabbyql]

I do literally have to tell my self to shut up sometimes.

 

[SnowWhite]

I've managed to get it under control in recent months, but sometimes it's so noisy in there that I zone out of conversations

 

[VIBRITANNIA]

i don't really have any... conversations, per say. i can't actually hear my thoughts. it's just me ranting to myself about various things and sidetracking constantly. it gets a bit scary at times, but otherwise it's boring.

 

[BPD Barbie]

Please, make it fucking stop.

This. My mind doesn't shut up and it contributes massively to my insomnia. My internal monologue just goes on and on and on and on, as soon as I wake up it's off again.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Mine is extremely chatty. I'm literally always insulting myself whether it's because I'm awful or sometimes I'm insulting myself for insulting myself for being awful.

 

[searchingfreedom]

It never stfu!

 

[Arrow]

Comes and goes, but i can stop or start it when i want, sorta.

 

[Deleted member 18655]

It's constant. I told someone that if I ever spoke like it to a child in real life (like the kids I used to teach) I'd get thrown in jail for verbal assault. It gets intense but it only hurts the one it's supposed to - me.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

My mind stays silent and only does what I tell it to. I can shut it on or off like a light switch. It took years of mental meditation to gain so much control over it though.

 

[Deleted member 18655]

My mind stays silent and only does what I tell it to. I can shut it on or off like a light switch. It took years of mental meditation to gain so much control over it though.

[Where dit that emoji for jealous go to...?"]. I have no discipline over any aspect of myself, especially my emotions. That's a wonderful practice to have.

 

[almost_dead]

as blank as my bank account . JK its chatty as hell and i wanna silence it forever

 

[pennylanefinaltake]

extremely. but that's coz of my anxiety. I overthink things and overwork my brain.

 

[draw a circle]

My internal monologue talks either like a youtuber or a manga character depends on what I'm watching. Fucking noisy in there

 

[catsarecool]

A lot of the time when I'm just walking around or doing nothing I start conversations in my head or just inner monologue to the point where I forget what I'm doing or don't realize whats happening around me. A lot of the time I imagine having arguments inside my head with the people I care about and get heated and angry about them lol. Also when I'm really anxious or panicking i start repeating certain words or sentences in my head.

 

[Stavrogin]

My internal monologue talks either like a youtuber or a manga character depends on what I'm watching. Fucking noisy in there

Jesus Christ, that sounds like a lower degree of hell than the one I'm in.

 

[dieornottodie]

very chatty, never they stop talking and thinking out loud

 

[alexit]

My internal monologue becomes talking in my sleep at night. And I apparently talk so loud while sleeping that I woke up to Alexa responding to something I had just said with, "Uh huh."

 

[freefrommybody]

Pretty chatty. I've divided the types of monologue into some different voices.

The Regular Me: Provides commentary for everything. Performs casual thinking. An ever-present buddy. Though, its thoughts are often petty, exacerbating my anxiety, distracting me, and being cruel and disgusting regarding others.

The Ape: Irrational. Indulgent. Short-sighted. Procrastinator. Impulsive. Violently hateful. Assumes the worst. Can't take it anymore. Demands to take over with laziness or anger.

The Voice of Reason: Fights The Ape. Gives orders. Calm. Finds solutions for problems. Warns of risks. Focuses on the greater goal, the ideal, and the future. The reliable friend that supports me. The deep thinker. The decency in me.

Many bad things that have happened to me could have been avoided had I listened to The Voice of Reason.

 

[listeningpost1379]

blank, i have many thoughts but they mostly arent in words

 

[XYZ]

My internal monologue is a broken record that keeps turning the same phrases again and again. "I hate myself", " I am a failure", "I want to die". The past few days it's been playing this line from a Nirvana song, almost obsessively:

"Nothing on the top
But a bucket and a mopp
And an illustrated book about BUUUUURDZZZ"

 

[Sarahlynn]

Anxiety and ADD. Yay! Sometimes I go "blank", like with heavy anxiety, but I still have it all going somewhere in the background, Just can't get access to coherent thoughts.

 

[agentgeez]

I don't really notice its volume even if I do have a lot of thoughts racing through my head; since it's me I'm not really bothered by it, since it is myself, for lack of a better way to explain it. It might be to do with dissociation, since I don't really experience that at all except for rare moments, so I never really 'feel' myself as a different person.

 

[Deleted member 20852]

Mine is endless and very loud makes it very hard to concentrate on anything at all. Sleeping is my only relief from it unless I'm plagued by bad dreams again.

 

[I_love_to_bake]

Very chatty. Its like two opposing viewpoints arguing with eachother all day long. It leads me to be unable to make clear decisions, quite a nuisance.

 

[ryla2090]

Actually very chatty. I want to make the most of it before I CTB, so it's mostly positive dialogue.

 

[Caspers]

I rarely let myself talk to myself as it's usually not good. I distract myself by listening to music, reading and watching things. I usually have lyrics in my head

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Extremely chatty but also very repetitive. Sometimes feels like a broken record.