Discussion How are you?

[The Disqualified]

How are you feeling right now?
I feel tired, anxious and without energy to do anything.

 

[darksouls]

anxious, tense and stressed because of the downtime

 

[yotaka]

How are you feeling right now?
I feel tired, anxious and without energy to do anything.

I feel tired, a temporary lull in the internal turbulence of the past couple days.

Is your name a reference to the Dazai Osamu novel?

 

[kitkatt]

Anxious, restless, tired but also can't sleep when it's time to. I'm hoping this next month is better my doctor made some medication adjustments so hopefully I'll stop feeling shit

 

[spiders.in.my.head]

surprisingly fine? content, even kinda happy. i felt pretty fine almost the whole day, but i know it will pass. having better days every once in a while makes the inevitable spiral back down hurt so much worse.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm always terrible as no matter what it'll always be so terrible and dreadful to suffer in this painful, torturous existence, to me existence will always be the most cruel, torturous abomination that just causes all this terrible, dreadful harm and suffering torturing existing beings, existence is just the most terrible mistake and there's just so much evil in existing with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

All I want is to erase this existence, I just hope for peace from the pain, suffering and torture of existing and I always suffer so unbearably from being trapped in this existence so cruelly denied the option to never suffer again, denying painless death is such a terrible crime to me and I always suffer so unbearably from existing in this horrific anti-suicide world where the suffering and torture of existing is seen as to force and prolong no matter what even know it all just leads to decay and death anyway, no matter what this existence should never be imposed, to me existence truly is the problem that only ever causes all this harm and suffering, for me non-existence is just all that's positive.

 

[Bitch With An Apple]

I'm in a state of too little too late. If I had realized what I'm realizing now earlier, I might have done better, but I doubt it. I want to get out from under the thumb of my university. This is the wrong place for me. I can't die a failure, though. Weirdly feeling motivated and provisionally non-suicidal if only because I'm sick of always taking the higher probability outcome. I want to realize a future where I'm something other than just dead. I'm like this though, my mind reconfigures and accepts random shit as truth on a whim, then later the polar opposite (BPDshittery), so I don't trust myself.

 

[MrsT-800]

I am not too well. My bones hurt fiercely. I'm cold and tired. I just want to take a rest and wake up in my dream world. Or just 1995. I hope you can get in a good nap that leaves you feeling refreshed and have a good dream, too.

 

[LonelyPrince]

How are you feeling right now?
I feel tired, anxious and without energy to do anything.

I feel strangely okay. The day hasn't been that bad...

 

[BoredomSeeker]

I was feeling depressed, so I had a couple drinks. Now I'm just depressed with less inhibition. Great success!!

 

[kuroshimi]

Last couple of days I feel pretty much tired and depressed. Also I sleep very poorly for my entire life probably.

 

[aesthetic]

i constantly cry because i'm so sad and i can't stop until i fall asleep from exhaustion.

 

[The Disqualified]

I feel tired, a temporary lull in the internal turbulence of the past couple days.

Is your name a reference to the Dazai Osamu novel?

I hope you feel better.

Yes, my name is a reference to Dazai's novel. That novel was very profound to me. I relate to Yozo deeply in terms of social alienation. I am not an addict like him fortunately. I am surprised someone noticed the reference. You sound japanese, I imagine the book may be more popular there.

 

[aufrechtm7]

Restlessness and depression, but I don't really care about that. I need to get some more levothyroxine for my dog so she can stay healthy.

 

[The Disqualified]

Last couple of days I feel pretty much tired and depressed. Also I sleep very poorly for my entire life probably.

I hope you improve soon. I can relate to poor sleep. I have been trying to improve it. Waking up late is horrible and you feel your life slipping away, but at the same time after many years of bad sleep it becomes a habit. Everytime I wake up early in the morning I feel much better.

 

[okiedokiloki]

im chronically fatigued.

 

[yotaka]

I hope you feel better.

Yes, my name is a reference to Dazai's novel. That novel was very profound to me. I relate to Yozo deeply in terms of social alienation. I am not an addict like him fortunately. I am surprised someone noticed the reference. You sound japanese, I imagine the book may be more popular there.

Thank you, friend. I hope the same for you

Unfortunately not Japanese, but have studied literature and (some) Japanese language. I'm surprised at how many references I've come across here to literature and other works that I didn't think many people knew about, let alone related to. For quite a while now I've been wondering where my community is. Dead or trying, turns out.

 

[mayachcos]

its 1am where I'm at and I feel terribly tired, anxious, and paranoid about everything. I can't bring myself to close my eyes and fall asleep though. Just going to the next day brings me immense fear nowadays.

Yes, my name is a reference to Dazai's novel. That novel was very profound to me. I relate to Yozo deeply in terms of social alienation. I am not an addict like him fortunately.

That said, I finished No Longer Human a few weeks ago, and I feel the same way about always having to put on a face of whimsy despite feeling terrible. Honestly glad to see that theres people who actually resonate more with the book other than just feel pity/sadness for Yozo!

 

[kk13]

i feel numb and out of breath

 

[meddle]

sad and tired. and so lonely. god, even here no one talks to me. no one even reacts to my posts

 

[yotaka]

sad and tired. and so lonely. god, even here no one talks to me. no one even reacts to my posts

Hugs to you. Sorry you're struggling, friend

 

[jakelonely]

Down, sad, feel like I'm going nowhere in life

 

[meddle]

Hugs to you. Sorry you're struggling, friend

thanks, buddy

 

[The Disqualified]

its 1am where I'm at and I feel terribly tired, anxious, and paranoid about everything. I can't bring myself to close my eyes and fall asleep though. Just going to the next day brings me immense fear nowadays.


That said, I finished No Longer Human a few weeks ago, and I feel the same way about always having to put on a face of whimsy despite feeling terrible. Honestly glad to see that theres people who actually resonate more with the book other than just feel pity/sadness for Yozo!

I hope you feel better soon. Among the people I live with it is very difficult to talk about anything deep or existential like No Longer Human does. Everyone is expected to be all smiles and care-free. But I am glad other people here resonate, it makes me believe there are others out there in the same frequency. Wish you well.

 

[Gomomon]

Manic and productive, a rarity for me. Probably cause im running on an all nighter