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astaeste2021

Member
Jan 31, 2021
25
How are you guys today?
 
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meetapple

meetapple

Mage
Jun 3, 2021
585
I am feeling a little too well but I am not fooled.
 
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LionsTigersAndBears

Archangel
Oct 14, 2020
10,657
Today was pretty good I saw my therapist and left feeling semi-human for the first time in months
 
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sick.faery

sick.faery

Mar 18, 2021
290
pretty bleh
 
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Jumping_realms

Jumping_realms

★☆★ ☠️★☆★
Jul 4, 2021
483
Terrible as always.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,298
Not very well. Of course as usual, I am tired of existing and all I want is to be free from this life. I am tired of the same thoughts. There is no point to continuing this life. I have been feeling ill this week, I am struggling with eating. All foods make me feel worse. I have just sat in the same room all day. It is so depressing.
 
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Lauralyn

Member
Sep 16, 2021
38
Bored with sitting around scrolling through my phone looking at the same stuff. Nothing is interesting.
 
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AntHydra

AntHydra

I wish you serenity.
Sep 26, 2021
244
It's a bit of an empty day, but not a bad one. The underlying creeping feelings of dread were present, but I had a nice conversation with my younger brother, I played a bit of Genshin Impact and ate some rice... one person even told me they were happy to get a message from me. Yes, not a bad day.
 
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ihatemyselfsomuch

ihatemyselfsomuch

Member
Jul 3, 2021
53
Not good.
Just started uni and I hate it. I feel so out of place and weird. If it doesn't improve in the next week then I'm just going to focus on trying to get my hands on SN. Today they told us to come to them if we're having suicidal thoughts lmao. It's a fucking joke. They don't care at all.
 
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arie

arie

yeah idk anymore
May 21, 2021
71
Feeling like crying today, but can only do that when I'm drunk for some reason
 
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Snake of Eden

Snake of Eden

“Ye shall be as gods..🍎 🐍”
Jun 22, 2021
2,473
Not as bad as yesterday which is good I guess but that usually means tomorrow will be rougher than today. Lets wait and see
 
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Darkmoon Queen

Darkmoon Queen

Specialist
Apr 1, 2020
396
I'm okay. My current situation is starting to drive me a bit insane and I think I'm on the verge of doing something drastic (not suicide). I find small joys in looking at the birds and the squirrels in the garden.
 
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ClownMe

ClownMe

Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
Apr 7, 2021
20,561
So far, awful. Couldn't get to work because the trains werent running this morning due to industrial action :l
 
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eryu

eryu

Member
Sep 25, 2021
90
It was easier than other recent days but I'm far more tired and I feel like the last of my brains are pouring out of the back my head. I want my ability to describe things with specificity back.
Anxious about seeing someone say you should be using VPN here (after registration). I don't think I can figure that out right now...
 
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Hurt

Paragon
Nov 13, 2020
905
Not good. I can' stop thinking in ctb. I want to leave this life.
 
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Ghostgirl

Ghostgirl

Member
Sep 25, 2021
36
I had wine now I'm even more depressed
 
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cooldude420

Student
Aug 8, 2021
110
most of the day, great. lot self care. right now it different
 
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EndlessDolphin

EndlessDolphin

Member
May 2, 2021
16
Been randomly searching for ways to OD on some medication I have…so there's that.
 
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clown_17

clown_17

Almost gone, it almost worked
Oct 24, 2020
288
Complete and utterly anhedonic.
 
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Pisceslilith

Pisceslilith

Student
Aug 19, 2019
159
Angry and miserable. Angry because I hate that I was forced to be here against my will and forced to live. Miserable because I don't I want to be here, Constantly questioning why I'm even here I don't bring any value by living. It wouldn't matter if I was dead or alive. I'm desperately searching for a job so I can finally end it (so far not much luck).
 
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A_miStake_of_NATURE

A_miStake_of_NATURE

I wish no one had to CTB..........
Aug 14, 2020
703
I'm feeling incredibly depressed, anxious, sad, heartbroken and in so much pain. Its only morning in my country, and it feels unimaginable to get through this day.
I know I'm a horrible person, but I don't know how to change, and ain't sure I'm able to be a better person.
 
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Marktheghost

Marktheghost

Paragon
Feb 20, 2020
911
Suicidal, ill and lonely
 
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Deleted member 8975

Guest
Wanting to die. Wanting any reason to live. Wanting to make my mom happy. Wishing I could give to everyone. Wishing I could help everyone. Wishing I could go back. Wishing I could go forward. Wishing I could stay present. Wishing I could stay focused. Wishing I could be better.

Wishing I was better.
 
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fox_wannabe

fox_wannabe

Enlightened
Jul 7, 2021
1,112
terrible
I want to die
 
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iamthewalrus

iamthewalrus

certified idiot
Aug 27, 2021
31
like usual, feel very anxious. i noticed ive been feeling anxious so much lately than i usually before. i just think about things a lot and i cannot stop worrying over stuffs and sometimes over nothing at all, no matter how absurd it is. guess im just prone to worrying. i wish i could make it stop already
 
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B18

B18

Member
Sep 1, 2021
9
Depresed, anxious, any louder noise makes me jump...i feel the weight of the world on my shoulders...i am alone at home now, since my family left for work, and it makes me feel scared. Im chainsmoking and sun is shining, supposed to make me feel warm, but i feel cold from inside of me...i feel like living dead person frankly
 
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Maaizr

Maaizr

LIGHTSTEALER
Aug 2, 2021
148
just waking up, feel like shit as usual but im saving up for a firearm so theres something to look forward to
 
Ch92921

Ch92921

The call of the void
Dec 29, 2018
909
Depressed, nervous high tension
 
burglarlydante

burglarlydante

Member
Apr 30, 2020
98
suicidal in several ways, i had a terrible crisis yesterday and i feel like ctb'n soon
 
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Ghostly

Ghostly

Student
Nov 21, 2020
148
Terrible I told my friend that I was on the verge of suicide and all they said was "lol can't help right now" :/
 
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