How are you feeling? Any advice you would give to a fellow member here?

[Konnsz]

As for me, I feel hollow, there was something inside of me, I can feel the silhouette, the figure of it.

I don't know what happened but I can notice a clear change from before, nothing is the same anymore.

Nothing will be the same and I'm starting to familiarize with the feeling of hopelessness.
I'm just repeating I want to cease to exist like a mantra.

As for the advice....

you lose more by not trying than by trying.

 

[figure8]

Feeling: Tired, kind of numbed down. Haven't felt anything more intense than mild or moderate somatic symptoms for a while. I thought I'd either faint, throw up, or both after waking up today (apologies for TMI), but I guess it's just the glucose levels in my blood being too low. I'm better now, but head still hurts (saying this like it ever stops aching...). I'd say it's because I stayed up too late, but I know that's not the case. Mornings are like this pretty much every day.
Advice: Nothing is permanent, so don't let temporary things affect your better judgement.

 

[Daxter_87]

Hi there. I relate to the feelings of all-encompassing hopelessness and emptiness, as well as the wish to leave such an unrewarding and ugly existence.

Now, regarding advice, I don't really have much to say, since I am pretty ignorant and unwise myself; I keep going through whatever tribulations life throws at me like a fool. All I can say is that, given the situation, reproducing would be the worst idea ever, as it would only ensure that another generation – and possibly many more – repeats the same cycle.

 

[OnceThougtTwiceDone]

Feeling : Nothingness
Advice : Don't ONLY use this website for help, also do your own research. Also DO NOT tell ANYONE that you are going to kill yourself, I learned this the hard way, twice.

 

[FuneralCry]

I just feel tired of being trapped in this dreadful existence, existing is such a terrible and unnecessary burden, there is nothing desirable about having the ability to suffer endlessly, I'm just waiting until death eventually erases everything for me which will happen someday whether on my own terms or not.

But sadly death feels like a distance away and instead I'm only left with dread for what lies ahead. I'm also always wishing to cease existing as I see non-existence as being true peace, it's freedom from this hellish reality.

 

[NoLoveNoHope]

I don't feel much anymore.

As for advice I'd say to pretend you're getting better even if you plan to CTB. Creating a narrative gets easier as you get more used to it. I do dislike lying but I think it's valid if it's due to concerns about intervention or involuntary admission. Dodging the topic should be enough for most people not to look further into it.

If you understand the stigma for suicide and what most people think it is you can pretty easily play off their ignorance to what it actually is. Going outside, laughing and smiling will all do wonders for the narrative. As unfortunate as it is to have to pretend to be okay I think it's well worth it in the end.

 

[Whyami]

Feeling : Nothingness
Advice : Don't ONLY use this website for help, also do your own research. Also DO NOT tell ANYONE that you are going to kill yourself, I learned this the hard way, twice.

What happened when you told to someone that you are going to ctb? You mean irl or on the forum?

 

[Aisley]

Grief I can't see my way out of, atm.

Don't leave anything unresolved. Say/do now what you're gonna wish you had later. This will both help you sleep at night and keep a suicide note short or even unnecessary.

 

[alonely]

Feeling: frustrated, hopeless, lonely

Advice: figure out your real mbti by learning about cognitive functions. a lot of what people see as character flaws in themselves is really just a valid part of your personality and there are reasons for being the way you are based in psychology.

 

[FormerlyFe(IV)]

Feeling
I'm feeling kinda okay. Planned to work today but ended up spending a lot of time on unnecessary stuff. I'm going to start the job hunt tomorrow, with the help of my sister. I hope I can get a job soon. I have to. Double the application force is hopefully going to do the trick.

Advice:
I'm honestly probably less suicidal than many people here, even at my worst, so my advice isn't so good.

Medication helped me a lot. I was super scared of the side effects of SSRIs, I needed to try multiple meds, but I'm at least better now. I am at least managing my friendships better, which also helps me.

Or, try to become somewhat literate in pharmacology/drugs. I read a lot of posts here where users aren't familiar at all with the drugs they are experimenting with, and are scared or uninformed of what is going on. In my particular case, I already had an interest in recreational drugs so reading articles about BDO/SN and reading experiences and advices given here had a lot more context. Knowledge is power.

 

[Wyldfyre4948]

Feeling: Empty. I just don't want to be here anymore. This past month I've lost everything despite my best efforts and I've got nothing left.

Advice: Try not to hope too much or fight too hard, because if all fails then you've spent everything for nothing. Keep a little bit for yourself even if it feels selfish.

 

[OnceThougtTwiceDone]

What happened when you told to someone that you are going to ctb? You mean irl or on the forum?

Irl

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I currently feel basicically hopeless and I know that CTB is the only option for me but the regular stuff that keeps most of us not doing CTB is also making me hesitate. So that's what I#m currently feeling. wanting CTB so much but kept back from typical personal stuff,

 

[Forever Sleep]

Just feel intensely fed up and resentful really. I have work I need to be getting on with today but I don't want to do it. Life just seems like a neverending sequence of things I don't want to do. I'm not convinced I even care enough to have 'fun' now either. I reckon I'd just end up crying if I went somewhere beautiful, or had some deep connection with someone. I feel present but I don't want to be.

As for advice. Hmmm, it's tricky. If you feel like you've lost yourself and want to get back in touch- maybe do things for the nostalgia value. Are there films or music or places you associate with feeling happy- or- safe at the least? Maybe try to reconnect with them. Kind of obvious I suppose though...

Mantra: from the late great David Bowie: 'Life wasn't worth the balance.'

 

[FindingHome]

I am feeling suicidal like at any minute I'm going to do something suddenly. I feel an attempt coming soon. Feel like stabbing or strangling myself rn.