How are you able to research and act when feeling suicidal ?

[Letmego. Please]

In some odd way i find the researching easy, i have a brain that loves absorbing odd to other people information, though i was crap at school so go figure, i guess it has to interest me & random subjects like drugs, prescribed or otherwise & there myriad effects when mixed with xy or z, the nature of the universe, methods to end ones life, random parts of history etc weren't taught at school.

The bloody depression does make it harder though, what was easy to remember becomes a nightmare, trying to think & plan with a thought pattern thats like wading through porridge, the lack of motivation, i could go on but everyone here who lives with our black doggie friend will know what i mean sadly.

 

[JadedGray]

I have no idea yet

Well you're in the right place. There's plenty of information here. I would suggest checking out the resources thread and doing your research. Good luck. https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/list-of-resources.3/

 

[PsychoPyro]

In some odd way i find the researching easy, i have a brain that loves absorbing odd to other people information, though i was crap at school so go figure, i guess it has to interest me & random subjects like drugs, prescribed or otherwise & there myriad effects when mixed with xy or z, the nature of the universe, methods to end ones life, random parts of history etc weren't taught at school.

The bloody depression does make it harder though, what was easy to remember becomes a nightmare, trying to think & plan with a thought pattern thats like wading through porridge, the lack of motivation, i could go on but everyone here who lives with our black doggie friend will know what i mean sadly.

I love researching pharmacology. PsychonautWiki.org, Erowid, and TripSit are wonderful resources.

 

[discokicks]

I love researching. Had things turned out differently in life I'd be a journalist. But here I am. I'm not exactly at peace with the decision but I know how much I want the pain to end.

 

[Letmego. Please]

I love researching pharmacology. PsychonautWiki.org, Erowid, and TripSit are wonderful resources.

Many an hour passed away reading that kind of stuff, plus have an interest unsurprisingly perhaps in toxicology

I love the internet lol

 

[Painpleasure]

Amphetamines. Amphetamines or cocaine, 100%. Probably amphetamines, as they tend to make you more confident, rational, and dedicated.

However, I've heard loads of stories of people trying to commit suicide after a cocaine binge, but that's more of desperation, and incentivizes committing suicide no matter how probable survival is.

Don't use any caffeine/nicotine: they'll make you anxious and fearful by nicotinic acetylcholine agonism. As for phenidates like Methylphenidate (Ritalin), I don't know. Probably an okay choice, but worse than amphetamines.

MDMA is a definite no for obvious reasons, although it's an amphetamine and the most emotional stimulant.

Thanks for this info. I'll incorporate it into my CTB plan

 

[PsychoPyro]

Thanks for this info. I'll incorporate it into my CTB plan

No problem, I hope it works out.