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Oxeley
New Member
- Jul 17, 2023
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Let me start by saying that I'm glad I found this community, seeing that there are people in the same position as me gives me courage to go through with it soon knowing it'll be a positive solution, but first I want to rant, if that's okay.
The world is so fucking horrible right now, wars, politics, genocide, racism, sexism... just awful people, people who abuse their kids, people who treat their peers like shit, people who demean others, look down on others, call you names, ignore you, spit in your face and so much more. Life is hell probably because it's so complicated. If I was a mouse in the wild my life would, of course, not be easy or stress free but life would be simple. Eat to survive, reproduce if I can and then die. But with us, the eating part isn't really an issue for most people fortunately and we don't really need to have kids now that there are so many of us. So all that's left is dying. I want to die because I don't feel joy in anything anymore. I am blessed with caring parents and I would hate to see how it'll affect them when I'm gone but I know I'll be blissfully ignorant, so as painful as it is to think about, I know I wouldn't have the burden upon me.
But besides that, I'm a 24 year old NEET who has no prospects, no motivation, no friends, biology against myself and no life ahead of me worth living. I have no skills, and even if I did what would be the point. Work at some shitty job for the next 60 years just so I can earn the right to die? Or just do it now so no-one is forced to worry about me
I'm depressed, fat, lonely and just really want to experience the end. I know my life is meaningless when LITERALLY the only thing I look forward to is future video game releases. It's not worth sticking it out for another year for the hope that I might get to play Silksong, you know? My parents night be sad if I'm gone, and my brother also but they'll get over it. I have no-one else who would care so, why wait. I'm drawn towards drinking PN? I think that's what it was called, I need to do more research and I'd appreciate any assistance you guys can provide.
Long rant aside, if even one person read this it'll make my night. So thank you everyone and I hope we can all go on this journey together.
The world is so fucking horrible right now, wars, politics, genocide, racism, sexism... just awful people, people who abuse their kids, people who treat their peers like shit, people who demean others, look down on others, call you names, ignore you, spit in your face and so much more. Life is hell probably because it's so complicated. If I was a mouse in the wild my life would, of course, not be easy or stress free but life would be simple. Eat to survive, reproduce if I can and then die. But with us, the eating part isn't really an issue for most people fortunately and we don't really need to have kids now that there are so many of us. So all that's left is dying. I want to die because I don't feel joy in anything anymore. I am blessed with caring parents and I would hate to see how it'll affect them when I'm gone but I know I'll be blissfully ignorant, so as painful as it is to think about, I know I wouldn't have the burden upon me.
But besides that, I'm a 24 year old NEET who has no prospects, no motivation, no friends, biology against myself and no life ahead of me worth living. I have no skills, and even if I did what would be the point. Work at some shitty job for the next 60 years just so I can earn the right to die? Or just do it now so no-one is forced to worry about me
I'm depressed, fat, lonely and just really want to experience the end. I know my life is meaningless when LITERALLY the only thing I look forward to is future video game releases. It's not worth sticking it out for another year for the hope that I might get to play Silksong, you know? My parents night be sad if I'm gone, and my brother also but they'll get over it. I have no-one else who would care so, why wait. I'm drawn towards drinking PN? I think that's what it was called, I need to do more research and I'd appreciate any assistance you guys can provide.
Long rant aside, if even one person read this it'll make my night. So thank you everyone and I hope we can all go on this journey together.