Venting hospitalised after failed attempt

[No_Body]

I have taken a long hiatus from this website, my mental state was really bad.

I attempted suicide on the 7th of January. I ordered KN from a retailer in Germany and had the methods ready, however it was being held at customs for too long and I panicked thinking they might do a well fare check on me.

So I decided to hang myself, it failed, I woke laying on the floor naked, the rope just loose around my neck, on the floor, I don't know why i'm so stupid!

Everything was black, I struggled to move at all, I managed to crawl and eventually walk away from there, and I think I must've had a psychotic episode or something afterwards, I was suffering from hypothermia and speaking non sense to random people. I lost consciousness around the end I just remember the ambulance, the aluminium blanket.

It's all too bizarre for me, I was hospitalised for 2 months, and now I am on medication and my life just FEELS FUCKING SHIT IDK every time SAME SAME SAME, no fucking clue on what to do with my life, i'm 28

I lost my job because of this stunt, I lost everything and this medication. makes me not want to care about anything!

 

[Passenger4224]

Is this your first attempt?

Hanging always sounded so complicated to me, people make it look easy, but I can't blame anyone for failing it. Looks difficult to execute. Please don't be hard on yourself for failing

 

[Musiclover338]

maybe try another medication first, maybe u have a purpose if u keep going. idk