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SiriusMan

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Jun 4, 2026
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I went to the therapist for the very first time, and all he did was agree with me and directed the questions. He didn't try to provide solutions. everything he said I already knew. All this did for me was remind me of how lonely I am in life, how in each point in life and in every new place I go to I feel like an alien.
I also ate a lot of junk food today, I feel sick and I feel like I'm going to throw up. While I try to eat healthy, eating junk food is the only way I can relieve the pain. Even if it's just for a few minutes, a reduction of the pain makes my body feel better, but my mind worse.
 
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Nwaru

unhappy egirl
May 29, 2026
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I'm really sorry that your day turned out so badly.

Even though your appointment was painful, the fact that you tried to see a professional—even if they ultimately weren't the right fit for you—was still a huge step forward. That takes courage, and you should give yourself some credit for that.

I don't know you personally, but I genuinely understand that feeling of being like an alien no matter where you are or who you're with. Feeling disconnected from everyone around you can be incredibly lonely.

As for the junk food, it's okay to slip up sometimes. It happens, and it doesn't make you a failure. Sometimes we're just trying to cope with pain in whatever way we can at the moment.

I just hope you're doing okay, and that you won't end up feeling sick or needing to throw up afterward. Please be gentle with yourself today—you've already been through enough.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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FYI, therapy takes several sessions to get going. Your therapist needs to get to know you and where your head is at before they can start working with you to find solutions.

With you on the emotional eating. Sorry you he a bad day. đź«‚
 
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i_am_done

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Mar 11, 2026
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I find therapy disappointing too.
 
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unluckysadness

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Jul 9, 2025
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I also love junk food.
Me too. I guess it's not worse than alcohol and cigarettes. Everyone must be addict to something. The brain was designed like this, so it's not our fault.
Of course, in a perfect world with perfect people, junk food should be avoided, but if it helps to cope in this unfair world...
 
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lifeisadream

One of life’s failures
Oct 3, 2022
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Starting therapy can be very daunting & scary especially when divulging highly personal information about yourself with someone you are trusting to help you. But by going to today's session you were incredibly brave. It takes a lot of courage to do what you did today. I'm sorry that it's now made you feel upset. Try & do a little something you like eg put on your favourite song or tv show. You've been so strong today. Sending you hugs.
 
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