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Ariel1

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May 15, 2025
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I feel completely and utterly hopeless. There's no way things will improve in my health and thats the only way I can go on. I dont even want to get out of bed. I just want to drug myself and sleep until I can ctb. Hopefully 4.5grams of Amitriptyline, 50mg of clonazepam, and dramamine will be enough. I'll stay in a hotel for 2 days with the do not disturb sign. Ill tell my family im going on a silent retreat and wont be able to use my phone for a few days.
 
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Douggy82

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Nov 4, 2024
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OD'ing on prescription drugs is usually a bad idea. It's unlikely to do what you want and might cause permanent damage. I'm sorry you're feeling so bad, but you might want to reconsider that plan.
 
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Ariel1

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May 15, 2025
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Its in the Peaceful Pill book and there was also a german book that outlined the method with amitriptyline. You cant just use any prescription medication. But enough amitriptyline will work as long as you dont throw it up or get found before you die. It takes lots of time.
 
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flightless bird

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Aug 18, 2022
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Hopefully 4.5grams of Amitriptyline, 50mg of clonazepam, and dramamine will be enough.

they won't. this will only leave you in horrible pain. i'm begging you, don't do it. i'm so sorry for what you're going through, but please, please don't make it worse. rule #1: if you don't know what you're doing, DON'T do it. period.

take a benzo for now, lie down, and let yourself relax. decide the rest when your mind is calm and clear.
 
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jadeturtle

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Apr 23, 2025
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im so sorry ariel i know you are feeling deep pain. i pray and hope it goes away and you get some peace and deep breathing you so much deserve
 
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Ariel1

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May 15, 2025
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they won't. this will only leave you in horrible pain. i'm begging you, don't do it. i'm so sorry for what you're going through, but please, please don't make it worse. rule #1: if you don't know what you're doing, DON'T do it. period.

take a benzo for now, lie down, and let yourself relax. decide the rest when your mind is calm and clear.
And you know this how? There is much research on 6-10grams being letal and peaceful when taken with benzos. Everyone is different, you cant know that it wont work for me. Also cant see how it would be painful.
 
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Lone1y_Lamp
Apr 12, 2025
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I feel completely and utterly hopeless. There's no way things will improve in my health and thats the only way I can go on. I dont even want to get out of bed. I just want to drug myself and sleep until I can ctb. Hopefully 4.5grams of Amitriptyline, 50mg of clonazepam, and dramamine will be enough. I'll stay in a hotel for 2 days with the do not disturb sign. Ill tell my family im going on a silent retreat and wont be able to use my phone for a few days.
The world is cruel , i understand you
 
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dust-in-the-wind

Animal Lover
Aug 24, 2024
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I am just as depressed as you with a couple of health issues that are only going to get worse. I'm bedridden most days because of my mental health and just want to die. I'm older, 55, so I'm just done but I am currently too afraid to do anything about it. You are not alone. Wishing you peace
 
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Ariel1

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May 15, 2025
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I am just as depressed as you with a couple of health issues that are only going to get worse. I'm bedridden most days because of my mental health and just want to die. I'm older, 55, so I'm just done but I am currently too afraid to do anything about it. You are not alone. Wishing you peace
Wishing you peace as well. Im a little afraid also but I just cant go on anymore. I have little choice.
Upon reflection, I've revised my method to ensure success. Ill try to get at least 6g of Amitriptyline and 100mg clonazepam plus an anti nausea med. Ill get a hotel room with a jacuzzi tub - rent it for 2 days to be safe and put the do not disturb sign and lock on the door. Ill take the anti nausea pills an hour before. Then ill crush all the other pills and dissolve in warm water. Ill get in the tub and drink the concoction. Most people pass out quickly and enter comatose states soon after. The cardiac side effects take time, but I would most likely drown before that. Either way, I'm covered.
 
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Just wanting some peace
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It's just so cruel and dreadful to me how there's all this suffering in existing, it really sounds like you've suffered a lot, I hope that you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.
 
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