ChronicPain23
Member
- Jun 22, 2023
- 87
Entering adulthood in the current times for someone like me is a fucking curse. First a sick psyche, second being ugly. Fuck, why me?
In such fucked up times of great glamour, wealth, cult of beauty, etc., I have to live and look at those better people than me.
Zero friends, no girlfriend. No chances for a better job than physical labor, the worst shit.
I completely have nothing to live for, fuck.
I wouldn't be able to live the life of normies anyway. I'm a fucked up withdrawn introvert, there's no hope for anything here.
Why was I born such a fucked up freak, always my own ways, looking for alternatives. Fucked up brain.
Nothing awaits me anymore, fuck. I'm terrified of adult life. I lost this fucked up life.
Still lacking the courage to finish it, thus spoiling the CTB.
In 2018 I dropped out of school, I had the worst suicidal thoughts in my whole life, even then I could get the courage to do CTB, but such human trash has no psyche to live and to do CTB.
Fuck, I'm still here and survived the last years like a fucking plant chained to the bed, can't stand it anymore. I don't feel like either sitting in or leaving the house, fuck. I want to fall asleep and not wake up again, I don't fit into this fucked up world, I don't fit in here and I'm getting tired. Let someone visit me and strangle me.
In such fucked up times of great glamour, wealth, cult of beauty, etc., I have to live and look at those better people than me.
Zero friends, no girlfriend. No chances for a better job than physical labor, the worst shit.
I completely have nothing to live for, fuck.
I wouldn't be able to live the life of normies anyway. I'm a fucked up withdrawn introvert, there's no hope for anything here.
Why was I born such a fucked up freak, always my own ways, looking for alternatives. Fucked up brain.
Nothing awaits me anymore, fuck. I'm terrified of adult life. I lost this fucked up life.
Still lacking the courage to finish it, thus spoiling the CTB.
In 2018 I dropped out of school, I had the worst suicidal thoughts in my whole life, even then I could get the courage to do CTB, but such human trash has no psyche to live and to do CTB.
Fuck, I'm still here and survived the last years like a fucking plant chained to the bed, can't stand it anymore. I don't feel like either sitting in or leaving the house, fuck. I want to fall asleep and not wake up again, I don't fit into this fucked up world, I don't fit in here and I'm getting tired. Let someone visit me and strangle me.
