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Roseate

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Mar 24, 2021
486
I am going to take a bottle or two of pills mixed with some liquor and hopefully this is it. If I survive then I'll have to try again. I'll at least get the break I need. I just can't pretend like everything is fine and I can't wake up one more fucking day because life hurts more than anything. And I just want to sleep forever. I'm not leaving a note. I might throw up but hopefully it gives me the break I need. I don't care if I sleep for days or end up in a coma I just don't want to be awake and alive anymore. I can't wait to come up with something better. Anyways wish me luck. I really really hope this is it. I need this to be it.
 
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restless.dreams

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It might work, or it might just make you sick and get you sent to the psych ward (that's what happened to me). I'm so sorry for what you are going through, and I hope you find the break you are looking for <3
 
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MidnightCat

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Jan 1, 2023
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I'm not sure what will happen...

However, whatever it happens... I hope it gives you peace and ease your suffering. I'm sorry you're going thru this.
 
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locked*n*loaded

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You didn't mention what kind of pills you'd be taking. Most often, OD's don't work. Not trying to talk you out of anything, or scare you, just stating a fact. Depending on what you take, if it doesn't kill you, it could potentially leave you completely messed up, possibly like a vegetable. If that's a risk you're willing to take, I wish you good luck. You certainly sound like you know what you want, and I fully support your right to try any way you want. If you go through with it, I hope it works out the way you desire. I hope you get to that peace you seek and deserve.
 
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Roseate

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You didn't mention what kind of pills you'd be taking. Most often, OD's don't work. Not trying to talk you out of anything, or scare you, just stating a fact. Depending on what you take, if it doesn't kill you, it could potentially leave you completely messed up, possibly like a vegetable. If that's a risk you're willing to take, I wish you good luck. You certainly sound like you know what you want, and I fully support your right to try any way you want. If you go through with it, I hope it works out the way you desire. I hope you get to that peace you seek and deserve.
It doesn't matter if it works. I'll feel nothing and the side effects is me sleeping for the next week or so and if I'm sleeping then I can't deal with the pain cuz it's one thing to be in pain and it's another to go through the pain alone.
It might work, or it might just make you sick and get you sent to the psych ward (that's what happened to me). I'm so sorry for what you are going through, and I hope you find the break you are looking for <3
I won't but thank you. And I don't have a problem with the psych ward. I need the break anyways. Also I won't get caught. Especially if I get sick I'll tell my mom that it's stomach pain and she will assume it's something I ate and convince me to go the hospital and I won't
 
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Guy Smiley

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FuneralCry

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I hope that you find peace from your suffering, best wishes.
 

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