Homicidal thoughts?

[Shinobu]

Does anyone experience such bad Homicidal thoughts about the people who treated them wrongly. Struggling with it right now, Id probably CTB before I acted on any of them but the thoughts are still there and they're very strong.

 

[itsgone2]

Yes. Two people.

 

[Liebestod]

I had homicidal and violent thoughts in general, not about specific people who did me wrong. I don't have them as much anymore though.

 

[progressingdeath]

I absolutely have them. Between BPD and finding it easier to commit a crime and die from something heinous I've done, however, I'd rather do it myself. I've never had the act to do those actions. I guess that's the only thing that differentiates me

I absolutely have them. Between BPD and finding it easier to commit a crime and die from something heinous I've done, however, I'd rather do it myself. I've never had the act to do those actions. I guess that's the only thing that differentiates me

I absolutely couldn't do it anyways. No means, no drive due to depression and laziness, a sense of happiness and love. It's the edginess in us all. I've definitely been close but never got to it. Particularly when I was young and being abused and tried to kill my step father for abusing me

 

[Shinobu]

Yes. Two people.

same here, i dont really know what to do about them, not like I could act out on them even if I want to since I do not have the means to do so

 

[itsgone2]

same here, i dont really know what to do about them, not like I could act out on them even if I want to since I do not have the means to do so

In the past, over 10 years ago now, I went through a situation where I was admitted to a facility because I was so suicidal. Family took me because of how much I talked about it, and I was making attempts.
Then, until recently, I recovered enough that I didn't think about it. At times during that period I thought of getting a gun, protection I guess, it I've never been into guns and I didn't want the temptation.
Now, I wish I had bought one. But what would I do? I currently have the means and plan for fsh yet I haven't done it. I test it out, but then just stand there. So would I use the gun on enemies or myself? Probably not. Still, wish I had the option. I have so little energy now I can't envision getting one.

 

[Shinobu]

In the past, over 10 years ago now, I went through a situation where I was admitted to a facility because I was so suicidal. Family took me because of how much I talked about it, and I was making attempts.
Then, until recently, I recovered enough that I didn't think about it. At times during that period I thought of getting a gun, protection I guess, it I've never been into guns and I didn't want the temptation.
Now, I wish I had bought one. But what would I do? I currently have the means and plan for fsh yet I haven't done it. I test it out, but then just stand there. So would I use the gun on enemies or myself? Probably not. Still, wish I had the option. I have so little energy now I can't envision getting one.

Exactly I feel the same way like I wish I had a gun just for the option of using it on someone else or myself but now I don't even have the option just gotta sit here with myself with all these thoughts building up inside with no way to release them.

 

[Jisatsu]

I usually keep my homicidal thoughts to myself... but I have them often and I have actually done bad things to people because of them.

Bpd fucking sucks

 

[Shinobu]

I absolutely have them. Between BPD and finding it easier to commit a crime and die from something heinous I've done, however, I'd rather do it myself. I've never had the act to do those actions. I guess that's the only thing that differentiates me

I absolutely couldn't do it anyways. No means, no drive due to depression and laziness, a sense of happiness and love. It's the edginess in us all. I've definitely been close but never got to it. Particularly when I was young and being abused and tried to kill my step father for abusing me

thats valid I also when I was young tried to kill my stepmom because of her constant verbal abuse. alot of the times I fantasize about doing something bad like killing others (specifically ones I feel like have wronged me) and then CTB

I usually keep my homicidal thoughts to myself... but I have them often and I have actually done bad things to people because of them.

Bpd fucking sucks

yea im thinking/suspecting I have some serious case of BPD or im just insane I show many BPD symptoms just never been able to get a diagnosis due to well america health care fucking sucks and no time

 

[RestlessTaiga]

Sometimes, I know I can't act on them, and a really don't want too, but sometimes, I really wish I could.

 

[liquid jen]

Not really for anybody in particular, but yeah they get overwhelming sometimes. I know full well i could never act though, and would sooner take myself out. Still upsetting to deal with them though, there's ZERO way to bring them up with normal people.

 

[Michelstaedter]

I always did, in fact if I could I would... There are people who don't deserve to live. I even regret that many of you die and others who cause so much harm remain alive...

 

[Vlad Tepes]

Yes. I've had them ever since I was young and I can basically always recall classmates commenting on how disturbed they were by the morbid and violent things I said (which seemed completely normal to me). When I was younger I used to fantasize about hurting my bullies, and I do still fantasize about killing both of my parents, but Im certainly never going to actually do that.