vaguebluur

vaguebluur

Overdose king 👑
Apr 3, 2023
128
I'm currently living in a tent in a city centre centre, I've been assaulted multiple times and had my last tent destroyed. I haven't showered in 2 weeks or eaten in 3 days. I'm sleeping 15 hours at a time sometimes more. My CNS is destroyed and I can't function at all. Got to wait 27 days until I can afford everything I need to ctb so sick of this shit I'm certain I'm already dead and living in my own projection of hell. IMG 20230403 190455 HDR
 
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conflagration

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Jul 29, 2022
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So sorry that it happens to you.
Why your CNS is destroyed?
 
81-Z@P@D

81-Z@P@D

We're forced into life to settle a perpetual debt
Apr 3, 2023
43
Solving homelessness would be more achievable and attainable than going to mars, it's sad how everyone who is absurdly rich is a cruel midwit.
 
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vaguebluur

vaguebluur

Overdose king 👑
Apr 3, 2023
128
Solving homelessness would be more achievable and attainable than going to mars, it's sad how everyone who is absurdly rich is a cruel midwit.
My local council legally have to house me due to my health conditions but they just don't care.
 
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81-Z@P@D

81-Z@P@D

We're forced into life to settle a perpetual debt
Apr 3, 2023
43
My local council legally have to house me due to my health conditions but they just don't care.
The other thing if I were rich that I would fund is a study into why bureaucracies devolve into incompetence
 
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LittleJem

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Jul 3, 2019
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Are you in the UK? If so, I highly recommend St Mungo's - they have good links for getting people off the streets. They got me off the streets really quickly. I was sectioned four times the previous year, so maybe that helped and they decided I was 'vulnerable'. If you are in London, I can give some more recommendations.

I don't understand why they don't see everyone on the streets as 'vulnerable' as I met people who had been homeless 25 years. It disgusts me.

I'm so sorry for everything you have endured and the f&&kers who brought you back from death against your wishes.
 
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Mirrory Me

Mirrory Me

"More then your eyes can see..."
Mar 23, 2023
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Yo dude, if you are really broke- go to the mental hospital. It might feel shitty that you lose your privilidges, but you got mental history on background and perhaps they can help you to get new appartment, where you feel safe.
 
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vaguebluur

vaguebluur

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Apr 3, 2023
128
Yo dude, if you are really broke- go to the mental hospital. It might feel shitty that you lose your privilidges, but you got menta history on background and perhaps they can help you to get new appartment, where you feel safe.
They only have 14 beds they won't take me
 
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Mirrory Me

Mirrory Me

"More then your eyes can see..."
Mar 23, 2023
1,129
Wtf, I'm currently at hospital where they got at least 6 sections. If they can't take you, they will probably assist you into different hospital.
 
vaguebluur

vaguebluur

Overdose king 👑
Apr 3, 2023
128
Wtf, I'm currently at hospital where they got at least 6 sections. If they can't take you, they will probably assist you into different hospital.
Are you UK based? Where I'm at there's a place called wooton lawn and that's it unless your criminally insane
At least a tattoo shop give me a free tattoo cos I'm homeless I guess...
 

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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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That sounds like such a horrible situation to be trapped in, it just proves that this world certainly is hell. It really sounds like you have suffered a lot so I hope that you eventually find freedom from your torture.
 
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6MillionWaystoDie

6MillionWaystoDie

Choose one
Mar 18, 2023
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Oh nice, you refer your self as light worker? Like a wounded healer.

Dosen't being suicidal count? https://www.mind.org.uk/information...rvices/crisis-services/treatment-in-hospital/

I would think being homicidal even may count more, IDK.

@vaguebluur maybe you could tell them you're sleeping in a tent and you get mad when you see others happy walking by and you feel like strangling them or something stronger.

I would think that feeling homicidal would at least qualify you for a 48-72hr hold? Then you could get a shower a good meal and possibly some referral services. But I know nothing of any healthcare systems in Europe. That would definitely buy you some time in North America though.
 
Mirrory Me

Mirrory Me

"More then your eyes can see..."
Mar 23, 2023
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I would think being homicidal even may count more, IDK.

@vaguebluur maybe you could tell them you're sleeping in a tent and you get mad when you see others happy walking by and you feel like strangling them or something stronger.

I would think that feeling homicidal would at least qualify you for a 48-72hr hold? Then you could get a shower a good meal and possibly some referral services. But I know nothing of any healthcare systems in Europe. That would definitely buy you some time in North America though.

It's not worth doing if you don't have real intentions to treat people badly. He could get real help in a longer time, so that he could get his life in order
 
6MillionWaystoDie

6MillionWaystoDie

Choose one
Mar 18, 2023
91
It's not worth doing if you don't have real intentions to treat people badly. He could get real help in a longer time, so that he could get his life in order


He stated several times on other threads when he tried to get help they had no beds or resources for him. So the assumption would be he's not in dire enough consequences to receive help. And representing himself in dire consequences would get him something temporary to at least get by.


There is no crime in feeling homicidal. Unless he lives in an area where the Minority Report is a real thing, its his only shot. I'd take a shower and a warm bed any day over a tent. He already has a diagnosis which can already comprise anger. He doesn't have to go deep into other things or lie about other diagnoses.


BTW- I like your handle.
 
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5417807

Dumb Dog
Jan 11, 2023
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Hey bro if you're UK based (North East) dm me for resources.
I was homeless for 3 years and have cptsd and bpd too so I really feel for you.

General advice for anyone England based and homeless:
If you need a GP's but can't get one bc no home address - you can normally use a post office as your address and that helps with getting UC too as you need an address and GPs note.
If you have no ID most homeless resources can help you with that and if you can get in contact with citizens advice they may be able to help with everything from housing to finding and referring you to local food and warm banks.
if you tell a food bank you're homeless and what you have access too they'll give you food you don't need to cook/can eat out of the tin or can have with just hot water (some libraries and warm banks offer this for free).

If you tell a warm bank or free laureate (they exist for homeless and less well off people but they're pretty hidden) they sometimes have things like clothes, blankets, towels and sleeping bags that get donated.

Looking on local Facebook groups and pages for charities you can often find some resources too.

Oh and libraries! Use the bathroom sinks to wash, it looks stupid but wash your hair and give your self a fast whore shower (tits, pits and bits!) and that helps you feel a little less slimy.
Library cards are free, if you can get a post office address you can get one. Some libraries let you sign up without an address if homeless but not all of them do this. you can use the wifi for free if you have a card. And most have outlets that will let you charge your tech (and if you find a nice quiet area some works may let you nap during the day if your lucky)

I know it's so very exhausting to fight like this, especially when mentally ill, it's a hell I wish upon no one. I hope you manage to stay warm bro ❤️
 
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nosoul

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Apr 1, 2023
454
Chronic nitrous abuse mainly

When I was 12-19
Dmt, 6 months for me, bro I can't even eat or sleep killing me, I wish you luck, I am at least sheltered but stuck and brain is going on me, barely able to function, I understand, can't give my dogs away
 
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vaguebluur

vaguebluur

Overdose king 👑
Apr 3, 2023
128
Dmt, 6 months for me, bro I can't even eat or sleep killing me, I wish you luck, I am at least sheltered but stuck and brain is going on me, barely able to function, I understand, can't give my dogs away
Sounds like u might have hppd I hope you feel better man
 
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nosoul

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Apr 1, 2023
454
Thanks man, but hppd is seeing hallucinations right? I feel dead on the inside, can't sleep without drugs, can barely eat food. Can't feel drugs thc nicotine, is this hppd to you? I think I fried my brain badly, embarrassed about it and feels permanent my condition getting worse
 
vaguebluur

vaguebluur

Overdose king 👑
Apr 3, 2023
128
Thanks man, but hppd is seeing hallucinations right? I feel dead on the inside, can't sleep without drugs, can barely eat food. Can't feel drugs thc nicotine, is this hppd to you? I think I fried my brain badly, embarrassed about it and feels permanent my condition getting worse
Oh your just describing my daily routine lol we need to put the drugs down and eat healthy
 
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nosoul

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Apr 1, 2023
454
I'm in big trouble,slept maybe 2 hours, have no appetite despite not eating, I'm really in bad shape
 
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nosoul

Arcanist
Apr 1, 2023
454
same im dying literally
Yeah man, I'm really wasting away, damnit from dmt? :( They make it sound safe, now I have no choice but to ctb, I can't function like this
same im dying literally
Like you have no ability to nap too? I have no snooze button, freaking me out making ctb my only option. Then no hunger also, but ur eating ok?
 
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pyroxenic

pyroxenic

Wanting to Sleep for Eternity
Feb 3, 2023
83
I hope you find a way put of this mess soon jesus christ the way everyone failed you. Hang in there brother 😟
 
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nosoul

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Apr 1, 2023
454
You are in a rough spot man, I hope u find peace
 
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SpiderLink

SpiderLink

they/them
Apr 3, 2023
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I'm currently living in a tent in a city centre centre, I've been assaulted multiple times and had my last tent destroyed. I haven't showered in 2 weeks or eaten in 3 days. I'm sleeping 15 hours at a time sometimes more. My CNS is destroyed and I can't function at all. Got to wait 27 days until I can afford everything I need to ctb so sick of this shit I'm certain I'm already dead and living in my own projection of hell. View attachment 107282
I'm so sorry that your in that situation. U don't deserve it
 
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