Home Stretch

[Timothy7dff]

I've literally given up on the future. Just need to get logicstical things together. Got to sell my stuff to get money for an airbnb and a gun. I've already got the SN and the CO grills.'

To Do list:
1. Test the SN
2. Test the CO levels are higher enough
3. Rent a place away from everything.
4. Get a NH license and get a gun
5. Sell things to get the cash

....Looks like I'm close. Mid to late August and I'm going. I feel right with God. I got a seond chance at life and took full advantage. I'm proud of what I did. God is happy with me. I feel at peace about it......I'm sad that there were people waiting to destroy all my hard work and my life. It is what it is. I can only control what I can control.

I feel like I'm giving my two weeks notice before I leave a job.

 

[dolemitedrums]

SN, CO and shooting yourself? Damn you're leaving nothing to chance.

 

[Timothy7dff]

Yup.... I've had a few failed attempts. Going to get shit done right this time. None of the methods contradict each other. Thankfully, I've got the time and money to do things right this time.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best in your plans.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

You plan on doing the SN and CO simultaneously, and then shooting yourself immediately thereafter????

 

[Timothy7dff]

I plan on the SN and CO being simultaneous. The gun is a safety measure just in case something goes wrong. If I'm unscious for 24 hours or something and then wake up, I'll have the gun right by my side. If I plan and execute right, it shouldn't come to that, but if it does, I want to be prepared. I'm so done with this life.

 

[Timothy7dff]

I've got enough done to proceed. I may or not get the gun (might be ineligible anyways). I've sold everything that wasn't bolted down that I could sell. I've got 3 different sourced SN packages. I decided I'm going to test the CO levels once I'm at my location. It really doesn't make a lot of sense to test another location.

My prayers have all gone unanswered. I read the Bible every day, prayed, and fasted in May. That resulted in one of the worst periods of my life ever. I can no longer pay my bills.

Deep state initially took $85,000 from me (more than my life savings). I recovered from that beating. They now cleaned out my remaining money. Brutal, brutal people.

I just lost my place of living. That should be the catalyst I was looking for to overcome SI. I'm actually not remotely concerned about SI any more because I literally have no way to survive. I've had two prior attempts where I consumed things that I believed would kill me. So, I'm very, very confident now that I have the right method. Hint: don't ever consume pharmceuticals or over-the-counter meds for to CTB.

Awful health, no family, no friends, no money, no place to live, and the deep state won't stop beating on me. In poker lingo, I have no outs. I'm drawing dead in life.

I doubt I'll do a goodbye thread (who knows though...maybe); but I will shoot the community a note on the day of.

Thanks to all the helpful people on SS! I'm very thankful to be able to have the tools I need to succeed! No one should have to live in constant agony.

 

[Kurai]

Wish you the best with your plans and peace

 

[Edistrying]

I agree with you, "no one should have to live in constant agony"
I don't have to much to say I just want you to know I hope you can find peace soon. I send you a hug

 

[Timothy7dff]

Everything is good to go. I've got a date. I'll be here a little longer.

I've benefited so much from the Goodbye Threads. I'll really try to post one. I can't guarantee it though. Since my plan is CO + SN, it will take a lot of my attention to make sure everything goes well. Also, if I get the CO levels right, I'm hoping to be unconscious pretty quickly after taking the SN. Might not be much time for a thread anyways.