Home after failed attempt

[jacobryan]

Well, I'm back home. Was discharged about two hours ago. My friend removed my rope from the house. She knows I can just go buy more, but she made me promise I would call her first if it got to that point again. I did, because she is my best friend, and she did lie to the doctors for me. I just feel off. Like I failed at something that was supposed to be easy and over with now. Just venting now, sorry. Next time, I will make sure no one interrupts me. I just don't know when next time will be. My friend is coming back tonight. I have a wrestling show in a few hours I'm working. So I'll be around people. Anyway, I'll hush now.

 

[Alexei_Kirillov]

Take as much rest as you need between attempts. I know what it's like to come home after a failed attempt, it can be pretty heavy/painful.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me suicide really isn't easy at all, in fact it's the exact opposite. But anyway I'm sorry that you have to suffer like this, I hope that you eventually find what you search for.

 

[jacobryan]

To me suicide really isn't easy at all, in fact it's the exact opposite. But anyway I'm sorry that you have to suffer like this, I hope that you eventually find what you search for.

I only meant easy in the sense that I put on the rope, tie it off, lean in, and go to sleep forever. The decision wasn't easy at all. But thank you.