Leonard_Bangley39
Hate life but scared of death
- Nov 6, 2025
- 228
this wait is fucking killing me. everyday some shit happens and it makes me want to ctb more and more, it's going to drive me insane. in 3 weeks I'm going to be kicked out of jobcorps and end up back on the streets, so i decided to blow the rest of my savings buying a plane ticket to Tokyo and booking an apartment for a whole month.
I decided to book the flight on December 4th because i wanted to be able to experience Christmas and new years in Japan, but FUUUUUUCK i wish i could just leave now. The only thing holding me off from catching the bus at this point it's my vacation. I wanna go see Japan and have as much fun as possible so i can at least end my story on a high note.
I can't even just fuck around and stop caring because i don't want to risk getting kicked out before my flight. For the last few weeks I've just been monotonously dredging through each day, doing the same meaningless shit like a fucking drone on autopilot.
it's eating away at me more and more every day, i just want everything to end. But i know that the second i leave this shit hole on the 4th and land in Tokyo, I'll feel so free.
I decided to book the flight on December 4th because i wanted to be able to experience Christmas and new years in Japan, but FUUUUUUCK i wish i could just leave now. The only thing holding me off from catching the bus at this point it's my vacation. I wanna go see Japan and have as much fun as possible so i can at least end my story on a high note.
I can't even just fuck around and stop caring because i don't want to risk getting kicked out before my flight. For the last few weeks I've just been monotonously dredging through each day, doing the same meaningless shit like a fucking drone on autopilot.
it's eating away at me more and more every day, i just want everything to end. But i know that the second i leave this shit hole on the 4th and land in Tokyo, I'll feel so free.
