exiled

exiled

i gave so many signs
Jun 17, 2023
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I know we have a relationship built in trust and he isn't one to jump the gun and call the authorities right away.

I've made him the beneficiary on my bank accounts and I want him to take my dog.

He has taken my dog before to watch him when I went into surgery and also left my abusive situation.

My therapist said he won't take my dog if I catch the bus.

I wish he would.

I don't think he thinks I'm actually ready to CTB, on a forum, ordering SN, etc. I think he thinks I'm considering it.

I hate looking him in the eye because he lost his sister to suicide and I know this will crush him.

I wish I could prepare him more but…. hopefully he can use my savings for something fun for himself.
 
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Huntfish34

Huntfish34

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Mar 13, 2020
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Dang damn, that sounds like an awkward situation to say the Least. I agree; with the trust factor, bank account, dog situation.... I really wouldn't want to look him in the eye either. ( especially since he lost his sister that way )

Sorry I don't have much of value to say, but I hope that everything works out in the end for you both. ( and your dog! =)

Godspeed- ♥
 
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exiled

i gave so many signs
Jun 17, 2023
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Dang damn, that sounds like an awkward situation to say the Least. I agree; with the trust factor, bank account, dog situation.... I really wouldn't want to look him in the eye either. ( especially since he lost his sister that way )

Sorry I don't have much of value to say, but I hope that everything works out in the end for you both. ( and your dog! =)

Godspeed- ♥
Am i a bad person for this? Ugh i feel so guilty
 
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SentimentalTrip

SentimentalTrip

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Mar 30, 2023
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Wow, it's amazing that you feel close enough to your therapist that you would be willing make him the beneficiary on your bank account.

I've spoken to six therapists and I never felt close or open with them at all. My therapeutic relationships always felt so clinical.
 
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cami

cami

the lonely
May 27, 2023
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wow, you guys are really close. if it brings you comfort, he sounds like a good guy. even if he didnt take your dog im sure he would find it a good home.
 
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Huntfish34

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I don't think it makes you a bad person at all, just struggling... Maybe lost, hurt, broken.... but nothing bad. Just my. 02.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
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At least doing that didn't cause you to get locked in a psych ward, as those places sound so horrible to me.
 

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