Highest highs and lowest lows

[Life_and_Death]

Does anyone else find that with each high it gets higher but with each low it gets lower? Emotionally please no comments about drugs ect.

 

[Deleted member 94]

Yes it's hard to keep balance but I am making attempts at it.

 

[grungeCat]

I feel something similar with my mood swings. My lowest and highest spikes get more and more extreme over the time. It approximates to
this graph. Someone has sent it on psychological forum and I really liked this one.

 

[CoalmineCanary]

I have bipolar disorder and the longer I stay the highs and lows are becoming more severe and less predicable.

The last time my high got so high I ended up getting arrested and sent to the hospital. I'm not violent but this is a concern I have and one of the reasons why I want to exit before or if it gets violent and totally out of control.

I am on a med cocktail to help keep balance but it's a tightrope that I feel I am on. Falling off either side plunges me into mania or depression and it's getting worse every time. It takes an obsessive amount of effort to stay aware of triggers known and unknown. My last mania was triggered because the anti-depressant levels in my body were too high and my ex-boyfriend threatened my cat. Combined, it became the worse episode I had.

I've never been in handcuffs until I got arrested on my last manic episode and I feel with each new manic episode the depression that follows becomes so extreme and critical I'm afraid that I might impulsively CTB without even realizing what I might even be doing.

This is just my personal experience.