
Ghostly
Student
- Nov 21, 2020
- 148
Hi I'm back after like a year or something I'm awaiting a diagnosis of borderline personality disorder/Avoidant personality disorder and My therapist is doing an assessment for bipolar 2 I feel like a failure I was hypomanic for like 5 days and now I've crushed and I feel so empty and destroyed inside I don't even know what I'm going to do in the future if I keep feeling this way god why am I alive like not even being edgy like genuinely why am I alive?? My life has been nothing but pain also my meds aren't working again so I've been having increasing psychosis and I feel like there's a microchip in my brain and that the fbi is watching me 24/7 I feel so depressed so I'm back basically back again..maybe this time I'll die I don't know I say that everytime then I fail or Pussy out so who even knows at this point?