Venting Hi guys i’m back with suicidal thoughs

[rustacean]

hi guys, A while ago I posted something in the recovery session about me getting better and liking a girl who I thought really liked me. so right now I'm on her side, and I just heard a friend of hers saying that 5 boys are interested in her, and her reaction was extreme happiness, automatically my suicidal thoughts came back and all the progress that was made didn't do any good , I honestly don't know what to do she's the only thing I care about these days and apparently I just lost her and now my life won't matter anymore, I just want to get home and hang myself, I can't take this anymore.

 

[higherthanthesun]

I like to think that there is over 7 billion people out there, and I'm sure i'll find someone eventually.

I hurt daily not having a life partner and when I get lonely my suicidal ideations come creeping in, especially when family isn't an option.

The partner I had previously used my vulnerability to his advantage, it hurts to think about.

I understand to an extent. I'm sorry you're going through this.