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fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

forever in love at seaside 💜
Jul 19, 2026
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You can't DM unless your account is old enough @IvanPohmelnov ! Hello though!
Omg actually I don't know if pinging will get their attention like on other websites
 
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fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

forever in love at seaside 💜
Jul 19, 2026
120
Oh. I hope maybe messges in this thread counts )
Yes as long as you keep messaging you should be able to soon
That won't work either, sorry
We can send a few 🍎 back-and-forth, you should have the priveleges very soon
Apples!
Currently talking to the boyfriend of a friend, and he's trying to convince me to take money for the wasted trip to the city of today
 
fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

forever in love at seaside 💜
Jul 19, 2026
120
Why is the money wasted?)
And what does it have to do with apples ? :smiling:
I had gone to the city to ctb today and my plans fell through because someone I know somehow found out and messed up the building I was going to jump off of 💔

Apples cus the person before said if you just keep posting apple emojis for a few times it'll eventually let you send dms
 
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IvanPohmelnov

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Jul 8, 2026
12
I had gone to the city to ctb today and my plans fell through because someone I know somehow found out and messed up the building I was going to jump off of. 💔
Sounds painful. Is it high enough?
Apples cus the person before said if you just keep posting apple emojis for a few times it'll eventually let you send dms
I prefer Ice cream 🍧🍧
 
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fluorescentpearl

forever in love at seaside 💜
Jul 19, 2026
120
Sounds painful. Is it high enough?

I prefer Ice cream 🍧🍧
It was 15 stories tall so I could've died, I can't afford other methods so sadly I was willing to suffer it if it means I'll get to ctb.. Now I just hope to go out with someone else with me
.

Also hell yeah ice cream 🍧🍧🍨🍨🍦🍦
 
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PnCinSyzygy

Member
Jul 17, 2026
15
I had gone to the city to ctb today and my plans fell through because someone I know somehow found out and messed up the building I was going to jump off of 💔

Apples cus the person before said if you just keep posting apple emojis for a few times it'll eventually let you send dms
Well FWIW I'm happy to know you're still with us. But sorry for you that you didn't achieve your quest.

Loose lips sink ships. Next time a little more discretion.

Hugs
C
of
PnC
 
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IvanPohmelnov

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Jul 8, 2026
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It was 15 stories tall so I could've died, I can't afford other methods so sadly I was willing to suffer it if it means I'll get to ctb.. Now I just hope to go out with someone else with me
.

Also hell yeah ice cream 🍨🍧🍧🍨🍦🍦
I understand.
🍧🍨🍧🍨🍧🍨🍧🍨🍧🍨🍧🍨
🍨🍦🍦🍨🍦🍦🍨🍦🍦🍨🍦🍦
🍨🍧🍧🍨🍦🍦🍨🍧🍧🍨🍦🍦 :)
 
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fluorescentpearl

forever in love at seaside 💜
Jul 19, 2026
120
Well FWIW I'm happy to know you're still with us. But sorry for you that you didn't achieve your quest.

Loose lips sink ships. Next time a little more discretion.

Hugs
C
of
PnC
I hope to succeed next time 💜
I understand.
What's your reasons for wanting to ctb? If I can ask, or would you prefer to wait for private messages to tell
 
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IvanPohmelnov

Member
Jul 8, 2026
12
What's your reasons for wanting to ctb? If I can ask, or would you prefer to wait for private messages to tell
This.
I think that this should be private. BTW your info about 15-th floors building is too sensitive too ;)))
But I won't hide info in PMs
 
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fluorescentpearl

forever in love at seaside 💜
Jul 19, 2026
120
This.
I think that this should be private. BTW your info about 15-th floors building is too sensitive too ;)))
But I won't hide info in PMs
Tbh there's a ton of 15 story buildings in Estonia so I don't mind sharing that xd
What's your hobbies? Or you could list your favorite color or food while we wait for you to be able to dm
 
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IvanPohmelnov

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Jul 8, 2026
12
Umm.... probably a full set of my hobbies could be also too much for public, sorry )
But I can say that I like to teach and I like to tell people about the Soviet(and not only soviet) cinema. I led a film club when I was at university.
 
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fluorescentpearl

forever in love at seaside 💜
Jul 19, 2026
120
Umm.... probably a full set of my hobbies could be also too much for public, sorry )
But I can say that I like to teach and I like to tell people about the Soviet(and not only soviet) cinema. I led a film club when I was at university.
That's so cool! I love learning about the ussr, my family has a lot of history with it since my great grandpa was part of the metsavennad as many others were
 
fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

forever in love at seaside 💜
Jul 19, 2026
120
What is it? And could you say something about one of your hobbies?
The forest brother partisans! And sure, I like cinema and playing games, reading literature, I used to like fashion before I lost my will to live, and collecting toys + plushies
Nowadays I just live doing nothing waiting for the day to ctb so I cant find enjoyment for anything anymore..
 
fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

forever in love at seaside 💜
Jul 19, 2026
120
It
The same. Sorry to hear it from someone else.

Oh. I see. I know about them a lot, as I am not too far from you.
's cool to have met someone from around here on this site, gives me hope that I could go with company!
The same. Sorry to hear it from someone else.

Oh. I see. I know about them a lot, as I am not too far from you.
Anyhow! If you want a quick way to reach the messages minimum you can do some forum games on the Offtopic section on the front page of the site, once you've done enough you can start a conversation with me!
In the meantime I'm going to scroll YouTube mindlessly (it's all I do nowadays)
 
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IvanPohmelnov

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Jul 8, 2026
12
It is funny that one of the ancestors of one of my parents was a member of the Forest Brothers, and an ancestor of another my parent serves in the Red Army during WWII in one of the Baltic states.
 
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