john8964
Member
- Jul 9, 2023
- 11
Hi everyone, I'm 22 years old and feel very relieved after reading this forum that I've finally found a kindred spirit.
I didn't have many friends in my elementary and middle school, even if someone asked me to hang out with them but I refused, I can't talk about the reason why I refused.
When it came to high school, the school pushed me to study very hard, I got up at 7:00 in the morning and got out at 9:00 in the evening. The pressure of learning is very great, and I do not dare to talk to girls, looking at other people have a girlfriend heart very envious. Therefore, the brain is always thinking about how to ctb will not be found, the process not to mention it, in short, ctb failed.
In the middle of this also happened a little thing, not very want to say. After I went to university, I found that it is not as good as I thought, you can not find a girlfriend and have to consider the problem of getting a diploma. Been angry and depressed about girls for the whole 3 years of college.
I went to a counselor after I graduated and don't ask me where the money came from. I was still angry about girls after about a dozen counseling sessions so I went to a building close to 40 stories high twice to see if I wanted to ctb. and ended up still not daring. Finally read books about anger and just didn't feel much for girls.
Yesterday I found this forum :) as I said in the beginning I found a kindred spirit and I'm not so lonely anymore, I was never interested in anything before, I wanted to go to ctb but didn't dare to, after I found this forum I got a little bit of confidence back in my life. Or maybe a little bit more courage to kill myself.
I didn't have many friends in my elementary and middle school, even if someone asked me to hang out with them but I refused, I can't talk about the reason why I refused.
When it came to high school, the school pushed me to study very hard, I got up at 7:00 in the morning and got out at 9:00 in the evening. The pressure of learning is very great, and I do not dare to talk to girls, looking at other people have a girlfriend heart very envious. Therefore, the brain is always thinking about how to ctb will not be found, the process not to mention it, in short, ctb failed.
In the middle of this also happened a little thing, not very want to say. After I went to university, I found that it is not as good as I thought, you can not find a girlfriend and have to consider the problem of getting a diploma. Been angry and depressed about girls for the whole 3 years of college.
I went to a counselor after I graduated and don't ask me where the money came from. I was still angry about girls after about a dozen counseling sessions so I went to a building close to 40 stories high twice to see if I wanted to ctb. and ended up still not daring. Finally read books about anger and just didn't feel much for girls.
Yesterday I found this forum :) as I said in the beginning I found a kindred spirit and I'm not so lonely anymore, I was never interested in anything before, I wanted to go to ctb but didn't dare to, after I found this forum I got a little bit of confidence back in my life. Or maybe a little bit more courage to kill myself.
