Heroin was the best partner, best friend, and best medication I've ever had. If it wasn't so expensive and legalised, I truly believe I would no longer be as unwell as I am. When I was working on heroin, I'd only use enough to feel normal, not high. When I was alone, that's when I'd use to get really fucked up.
Heroin feels like a mixture of a warm blanket, slipping into a perfect bath, an after-sex euphoria, and complete contentment. But even that description is inadequate. All your pain - physical, mental, existential - all fades away. For a while, everything is okay.
The bit that kills heroin being the cure-all isn't the heroin itself, it's all the bullshit around it. The chasing dealers, the withdrawals, the expense. Even the stigma. Recovery also sucks. I have been clean since Jan/Feb of 2018 and I still think about it every single day. Heroin is the ex I can't get over