Heroin as a way out?

[Sue]

What if I get a hold of heroin? How much would I need? And do I need to inject?

 

[Pi_R_Squared]

If you have half decent heroin snorting a 1/2 gram will surely see you CTB. The risk is it's not always very good.

Buy it off the darknet and snort 1/2 a gram, pop a xanax before hand and you're def off.

 

[Kattt]

As someone who had a 30 year addiction, unless you have a very good source and a means to test your product, there's no way of knowing the purity or even what it actually is. Even if you have a good source, they will occasionally get some bullshit.
If you're lucky,you will choke on your own vomit.
It's definitely not what it's cracked up to be

 

[LittleJem]

It makes you feel really sick the first time. I think it needs to be injected for CTB

 

[Kattt]

The problem is,you'd pass out puking your guts up before you could inject enough

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

It's definitely not what it's cracked up to be

Thanks for this. I was wondering if this would be a peaceful way out...

 

[Kattt]

Thanks for this. I was wondering if this would be a peaceful way out...

You can definitely do better

 

[TriggerHappy]

Please think carefully.
I don't like giving advice, I share my personal experience instead. Learn
I've been addicted off & on to H /more most my life. Am functional but fkd up.
Once you take it :: // everything changes.
U get violently ill if you take too much and are a newbie.
And you have to have a master mert with proper Thai white.
Syringe in the groin is how dealers kill junkies, but its mixed with petrol or radiator antifreeze that blocks your veins and is fuckn painful (I hear)
And there's this insidious shite stuff called Naltrexone, that will bring you back no matter how balls to the wall you go. Most ambulance medics keep it on hand. I've od.d accidentally on purpose and it didn't work (khat /cocaine complications) even in the bath. My Jim Morrison moment that wasnt! Its part of my ctb ritual :: (im sober now but i love the stuff... can't imagine leaving without it in my system) with Si being the stuff that I hope will do the trick.
And I'm doing it in the bush (my farms rural so no-one will get here in time to resuscitate)
Then there's withdrawal if you get hooked, and you will.
If you don't know addiction cycles, you're lucky. Then you will really want to die.

 

[Kattt]

Please think carefully.
I don't like giving advice, I share my personal experience instead. Learn
I've been addicted off & on to H /more most my life. Am functional but fkd up.
Once you take it :: // everything changes.
U get violently ill if you take too much and are a newbie.
And you have to have a master mert with proper Thai white.
Syringe in the groin is how dealers kill junkies, but its mixed with petrol or radiator antifreeze that blocks your veins and is fuckn painful (I hear)
And there's this insidious shite stuff called Naltrexone, that will bring you back no matter how balls to the wall you go. Most ambulance medics keep it on hand. I've od.d accidentally on purpose and it didn't work (khat /cocaine complications) even in the bath. My Jim Morrison moment that wasnt! Its part of my ctb ritual :: (im sober now but i love the stuff... can't imagine leaving without it in my system) with Si being the stuff that I hope will do the trick.
And I'm doing it in the bush (my farms rural so no-one will get here in time to resuscitate)
Then there's withdrawal if you get hooked, and you will.
If you don't know addiction cycles, you're lucky. Then you will really want to die.

Thanks for taking the time to say that

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

Syringe in the groin is how dealers kill junkies,

I'll never get this image out of my mind...

 

[Kattt]

I'll never get this image out of my mind...

My friend, who was working as a "lady of the night" used to say it was an extra hole
As a sidenote, an opiate habit leaves everything numb. So no sex for you!

 

[TriggerHappy]

Its such a messed up subject for me.
Once you do it, can't stop it, you cease to exist as anything else.
Thats all anyone ever sees in you. Forever. Its what you become.
I've done such shameful things to have more get more
And I'm not a street junkie, I worked in advertising till lockdown hit,

// lectured internationally for Californian design software company
I have motorbikes, an incredibly successful farm (vet)
but keep myself broke cos money is my trigger.
imagine having money, but not being able to spend it on what will kill you
But thats truly all I want, always ever.
Its like I'm always 5yrs old.
Its like I'm always so fucked up.

//lockdown = relapsed, used like the devil the entire time.
then moved my life to the family farm to get away from it.
Its even here, the street rentboys in town 20min away sell it
(my desperate need to get away from dangerous friends turned more dangerous because I'm alone)
I've done it all :: relocations / jails / institutions.
A million withdrawal sessions that erode your spirituality / sense of self.
Stay away from the stuff, its no guarantee you will ctb. Its too powerful.
Today I'm sober, but I'm nicknamed the 30day wonder cos payday usually puts me back in the pit.
I'm so tired of this sick carousel.
Insanity.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...rs-painkillers-draft.29822/page-4#post-649543

Checkout the above link :: go to the end (morphine death experiences / & Heroin (z drug listing hope it makes sense.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

Its such a messed up subject for me.
Once you do it, can't stop it, you cease to exist as anything else.
Thats all anyone ever sees in you. Forever. Its what you become.
I've done such shameful things to have more get more
And I'm not a street junkie, I worked in advertising till lockdown hit,

// lectured internationally for Californian design software company
I have motorbikes, an incredibly successful farm (vet)
but keep myself broke cos money is my trigger.
imagine having money, but not being able to spend it on what will kill you
But thats truly all I want, always ever.
Its like I'm always 5yrs old.
Its like I'm always so fucked up.

//lockdown = relapsed, used like the devil the entire time.
then moved my life to the family farm to get away from it.
Its even here, the street rentboys in town 20min away sell it
(my desperate need to get away from dangerous friends turned more dangerous because I'm alone)
I've done it all :: relocations / jails / institutions.
A million withdrawal sessions that erode your spirituality / sense of self.
Stay away from the stuff, its no guarantee you will ctb. Its too powerful.
Today I'm sober, but I'm nicknamed the 30day wonder cos payday usually puts me back in the pit.
I'm so tired of this sick carousel.
Insanity.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...rs-painkillers-draft.29822/page-4#post-649543

Checkout the above link :: go to the end (morphine death experiences / & Heroin (z drug listing hope it makes sense.

I've officially written heroin overdose off my list of possibilities.

 

[TriggerHappy]

Yeah, me too. Written it in pencil with an asterisk.
I'm into sports / bodybuilding so am way too fkg healthy to o.d
I dunno why but I just can't get it right on H.
and while I'm here spilling my story :: I feel I need to caution you
On another of my favorites :: Fentanyl
(incredible numbness they give it to stage 4Cancer sufferers)...
An addict doctor used to prescribe it for me so I didn't have to
smuggle H over international borders (I insanely have) when I was teaching
Agencies.
Fentanyl (Durogesic patches) used to cycle me out of withdrawal
But addict me would be on fentanyl and then use H over and above that.
(Crossaddiction is my speciality // sickness) I would then have to get off both.
I would lose consciousness on H, but never fentanyl / oxy.
And I pushed it, like I said maybe I've a slight tolerance, but I'm not that special.
There are other lethal drugs, but very difficult to find :: I watched my cousin start with Pethadene (they use it to knock people out before amputating limbs) and stupidly // cleverly tracked (sic) behind him.
Truly the most chaotic drug I've ever taken :: 1 of the most deadly and one of the most enjoyable :: blood on the walls :: syringeing muscle not vein :: waking up days later with no memory. Those were the days. Never again. It scared my cousin (also sold his body on circuit / into drug lifestyle) so bad he's 10yrs sober (he tried to ctb on morphine, I saved him).
I have no idea how or why I survived those scenes. I fking get resurrected, maybe its because I'm OK with slowing my life force down (I swim in frozen lakes for kicks / triathlon training... I dunno)
Stats show these drugs work tho, 98% of addicts die violent deaths :: that means o.d/ suicide. 3hours ave dying time is way too slow for me, you lose conciousness in the first 40 minutes, but way longer to actually shut down (organs) and die. I think heroin even slows the dying process. That's why with naltrexone /naloxone there are so few opiate deaths these days.
if you can figure out a way, I will fkg try it and post it on this site.

 

[Kattt]

Yeah, me too. Written it in pencil with an asterisk.
I'm into sports / bodybuilding so am way too fkg healthy to o.d
I dunno why but I just can't get it right on H.
and while I'm here spilling my story :: I feel I need to caution you
On another of my favorites :: Fentanyl
(incredible numbness they give it to stage 4Cancer sufferers)...
An addict doctor used to prescribe it for me so I didn't have to
smuggle H over international borders (I insanely have) when I was teaching
Agencies.
Fentanyl (Durogesic patches) used to cycle me out of withdrawal
But addict me would be on fentanyl and then use H over and above that.
(Crossaddiction is my speciality // sickness) I would then have to get off both.
I would lose consciousness on H, but never fentanyl / oxy.
And I pushed it, like I said maybe I've a slight tolerance, but I'm not that special.
There are other lethal drugs, but very difficult to find :: I watched my cousin start with Pethadene (they use it to knock people out before amputating limbs) and stupidly // cleverly tracked (sic) behind him.
Truly the most chaotic drug I've ever taken :: 1 of the most deadly and one of the most enjoyable :: blood on the walls :: syringeing muscle not vein :: waking up days later with no memory. Those were the days. Never again. It scared my cousin (also sold his body on circuit / into drug lifestyle) so bad he's 10yrs sober (he tried to ctb on morphine, I saved him).
I have no idea how or why I survived those scenes. I fking get resurrected, maybe its because I'm OK with slowing my life force down (I swim in frozen lakes for kicks / triathlon training... I dunno)
Stats show these drugs work tho, 98% of addicts die violent deaths :: that means o.d/ suicide.
if you can figure out a way, I will fkg try it and post it on this site.

Hell! The prospect of extradition is too much for me

 

[deadverysoon]

a fatal dose is abot 1g.

BUT it depends how pure it is - so for me: i would take much more to be sure.

so if i had accsess to - i would inject min 4g.

it is described as a very peaceful way. - and would have been my first choice. but also its not legal in my country...

 

[Kattt]

could well be 1/2 g of complete shit though

 

[toforigivelife]

Combined with alcohol h can be a pretty reliable way out of this life.

 

[Kattt]

Unless your source is an Afghani farmer,it's adulterated.
Occasionally by some miracle a dealer does get a particularly pure batch and people start dropping like flies.
Not great if you're goal is to stay under the radar

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

My xbf did heroin for years. Perhaps he croaked...but it's not that easy to just do it.

I woudn't trust the 'dark net' for buying. My pal tried to buy Ambiem and got fucked.

 

[TriggerHappy]

1gram, really? Never fucking ever.
On my average days I was shooting 2, on month end party weekends about 4.
Thai white not afghan brown (nowhere near as refined)
And it was awesome stuff, I should know : was in deep with the Nigerian syndicates.
I was the dealer at the lounge corner of the dancefloor.
I was an idiot, so know this ain't junky pride, just my truth.

 

[TriggerHappy]

a fatal dose is abot 1g.

BUT it depends how pure it is - so for me: i would take much more to be sure.

so if i had accsess to - i would inject min 4g.

it is described as a very peaceful way. - and would have been my first choice. but also its not legal in my country...

Do 4gs?
Yeah possiblymaybe :: like @Kattt says: purity is always tricky with streetdrugs.
I've never not been able to score /it is everywhere. I'm one of those sick fucks that love the danger and malice of scoring :: back to the point 4gs? When my mates and I were doing those amounts, halfway through the night you'd get sick as a dog, throw up, and carry on.

Heroin o.d is heavy fucking awful : the worst headache ever and if u start vomiting, you won't stop till your bile is out and you're dehydrated, its a shite feeling.
Alcohol? I love whisky but it doesn't work with high heroin dosages in my experience. You gonna have to do loads of anti nausea tabs, they don't really work with smack tho.
When I shoot speedballs I use a vein in my thigh near my groin, and it hits my heart like a freighttrain.
Just so u know

 

[deadverysoon]

Do 4gs?
Yeah possiblymaybe :: like @Kattt says: purity is always tricky with streetdrugs.
I've never not been able to score /it is everywhere. I'm one of those sick fucks that love the danger and malice of scoring :: back to the point 4gs? When my mates and I were doing those amounts, halfway through the night you'd get sick as a dog, throw up, and carry on.

Heroin o.d is heavy fucking awful : the worst headache ever and if u start vomiting, you won't stop till your bile is out and you're dehydrated, its a shite feeling.
Alcohol? I love whisky but it doesn't work with high heroin dosages in my experience. You gonna have to do loads of anti nausea tabs, they don't really work with smack tho.
When I shoot speedballs I use a vein in my thigh near my groin, and it hits my heart like a freighttrain.
Just so u know

i never did heroine before - so you think someone could survive 4g? or do i misunderstand your post?

is it possible to check the purity before injecting? think there maybe is some eqipments like test stripes to buy online. think that should me legal - not like the heroine...

 

[TriggerHappy]

Truthfully most of the thai on the streets is so mass produced i get great quality.
I scare my dealer, we get on really well, but he knows I come armed and I'm a bit mental :: so I get good stuff.
Becareful if its your first time expect to be ripped off, know this.
If it were my ctb scenario I'd do 7. Thai white. With Sodium Nitrite for good fucking measure (truly, love this site, thanks guys), and a knife to my jugular if it somehow goes wrong.
Why are u fixated on heroin if I may ask? SN is powerful stuff, even on its own and maybe easier to obtain. research it.
Exclusively using heroin to ctb (in my thinking) naloxone will bring you back, even a day later. Don't want that again.

If you have half decent heroin snorting a 1/2 gram will surely see you CTB. The risk is it's not always very good.

Buy it off the darknet and snort 1/2 a gram, pop a xanax before hand and you're def off.

...to the dancefloor? Definitely not the happy hunting ground! Couldn't resist the humour, apologies. You'll need to shoot the shit, you want it to stop your heart don't you? Or do you want 2 read from the book of nods? (Drift in and out of possibly nauseous sleep)
Suicide demands you take responsibility.

 

[Sra_TZ]

Heroin, or similar drugs for that matter, are effective as far as temporary escapes go.

Picking it as your method probably isn't such a good idea. As mentioned in the previous replies, it's complicated and a lot of factors are involved. Purity, having a good source, complications with injecting, reaction on your body and most importantly, solely using heroin is less likely to result in death. There are many other methods, one obvious option being SN.

I wish you peace, whichever method you choose to go with
~S

 

[again_noidea]

The problem is,you'd pass out puking your guts up before you could inject enough

Puking wouldn't make a difference if you get it through your butt into your body.

 

[Peace!]

You can definitely do better

What's better?

 

[again_noidea]

Heroin, or similar drugs for that matter, are effective as far as temporary escapes go.

Picking it as your method probably isn't such a good idea. As mentioned in the previous replies, it's complicated and a lot of factors are involved. Purity, having a good source, complications with injecting, reaction on your body and most importantly, solely using heroin is less likely to result in death. There are many other methods, one obvious option being SN.

I wish you peace, whichever method you choose to go with
~S

i know people have that opinion, but it seems so strange to me, I thought an overdose of an opiate would result in "not breathing" especially if you mix it with benzodiazepines. I have 1500mg of morphine and I thought if I take that through my rectum it would surly work. The german Wikipedia states that even 200 mg orally can be lethal if there is no tolerance.

 

[TriggerHappy]

i know people have that opinion, but it seems so strange to me, I thought an overdose of an opiate would result in "not breathing" especially if you mix it with benzodiazepines. I have 1500mg of morphine and I thought if I take that through my rectum it would surly work. The german Wikipedia states that even 200 mg orally can be lethal if there is no tolerance.

Hiya.
As I've stated :: all power to you if that's the method you desire.
Just maybe consider heeding others concerns.
My thinking is that maybe it'd be wise to have a second / third method handy incase u experience workability issues. I like the benzo idea, just dont do alchohol, when you lose conciousness / bodily functions you can shit yourself and lose yr stash. Maybe use immodium, I'd suggest a butt-plug.
Have witnessed suicide attempt as above, that didn't work in the end.
Once I start my focus and full intention will be on ending things.
Drugs up your bum are definitely effective, though they lack that drugged-up out of control feeling I like so much... I really want to be out of control before I go, I realize it's paradoxically irresponsible but I love that feeling, it ironically makes me feel alive. I've only really done the rectal thing with mdma / ecstasy. (Typical me thought the come on was too long so i also consumed orally also :: I always overdo // doubledose (ironically it was a speckled dove, mdma cut with H... its effects were great, but not life-endingly religious if u get my meaning. And it burnt so its not my method of choice) Ive never otherwise wanted H rectally. It'd seem like such a waste not going intravenously or smoking it. It will stop your breathing / heart. Maybe others can weigh in on this, but its a 'dark' experience. No white lights etc etc... its scary.
That story about addicts cleaning up and relapse o.ding on usual pre-tolerance minimal amounts is true.
Been there done that. Hope that enlightens...?
M!GS // Triggerhappy

 

[TheEndTimes]

A friend accidentally (?) OD'd on OxyContin and alcohol. I've thought of that but how to get OxyContin?