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Scars-And-Ink

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May 24, 2019
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Hello so I have a question. I was reading about various methods and at this point I just need something cheap but for it to work. I don't care about the pain anymore but I'm too chicken shit to jump and I don't have access to a firearm otherwise I wouldn't still be here.

But I was wondering if anyone knew anything about Hemlock Seeds and if ingesting them would actually help me ctb. If so, how many seeds?

I have both Water and Poison Hemlock seeds. I am willing to take both if necessary. Again, I don't care about the pain at this point (and I know Water Hemlock sounds utterly horrific but what's a bit more pain before I can have peace), I just want to ctb. I was attempting to read The Old Vegetable Neurotics by John Harley but can't focus long enough on it.

If Hemlock Seeds won't do it, are there some other cheap but effective seeds you could recommend?
 
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woxihuanni

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On the plant front, there is lily of the valley/foxglove/pong pong tree seeds. But those things also need AE and sedatives to work properly.

There is a OTC OD file translated and put up yesterday. Might want to have a look at that.

SN is not expensive, I understand? Are you in a hurry?

PS: to clarify, the flowers are overall toxic, not necessarily seeds.
 
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Neville1

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I echo @woxihuanni's suggestion. The SN, acid reducer and AE can be obtained in 2 weeks (a month max) and all costs should be maybe 50 USD.

Many plant toxins cause incredible pain and symptoms include delirium, convulsions.
 
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I echo @woxihuanni's suggestion. The SN, acid reducer and AE can be obtained in 2 weeks (a month max) and all costs should be maybe 50 USD.

Many plant toxins cause incredible pain and symptoms include delirium, convulsions.

Plants are tough fuckers, they know what they're doing when they don't want to be eaten. :P
 
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Aug 16, 2019
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It should definitely work if you do it correctly, seeing as its been proven to be an effective suicide method for millennia. If you want a vivid description of what you could expect with a hemlock suicide, read The Last Days of Socrates.
 
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I was looking into castor bean seeds a while ago. Their ricin content is deadly poisonous, no antidote available, so I guess it is fail proof but might be painful.
 
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Scars-And-Ink

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May 24, 2019
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On the plant front, there is lily of the valley/foxglove/pong pong tree seeds. But those things also need AE and sedatives to work properly.

There is a OTC OD file translated and put up yesterday. Might want to have a look at that.

SN is not expensive, I understand? Are you in a hurry?

PS: to clarify, the flowers are overall toxic, not necessarily seeds.

I'll have to look into those.

I'm not really in a hurry, I just want something that's guaranteed to work. Things with no antidote and so on and so forth.
I echo @woxihuanni's suggestion. The SN, acid reducer and AE can be obtained in 2 weeks (a month max) and all costs should be maybe 50 USD.

Many plant toxins cause incredible pain and symptoms include delirium, convulsions.

How would I go about getting those?
 
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I'll have to look into those.

I'm not really in a hurry, I just want something that's guaranteed to work. Things with no antidote and so on and so forth.

Pong pong can kill even with antidote. Also in the west, good luck to the fuckers discovering what you've taken. But it's painful.
 
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Scars-And-Ink

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May 24, 2019
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I was looking into castor bean seeds a while ago. Their ricin content is deadly poisonous, no antidote available, so I guess it is fail proof but might be painful.

I'll have to look more into that it seems
Pong pong can kill even with antidote. Also in the west, good luck to the fuckers discovering what you've taken. But it's painful.

Definitely going to look into that. Thank you!
 
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Stan

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Aug 29, 2019
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I was looking into castor bean seeds a while ago. Their ricin content is deadly poisonous, no antidote available, so I guess it is fail proof but might be painful.
Completely agree. Nothing in the plant family unless its somehow distilled for potency in a lab is quick and painless
 
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Sep 22, 2019
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I too have been researching poison hemlock. Seeds are all that's available now.
The action of poison hemlock is different than that of water hemlock. Poison hemlock (Conium maculatum) will take 2-3 hours to really do it's job. Your breathing muscles will be paralysed, you will pass out and heart will stop in 2-3 minutes.
The time between ingestion and ctb will be uncomfortable. Muscle relaxation, nausea, vomiting through clenched jaws, vision changes.
I have not been able to find a believable dosage. I find some resources say a handful of seeds, others tell me that I (300lbs) need about 500 gm.
If you have better dosage info, reply here.
 
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MakyMy

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Jun 21, 2019
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Completely agree. Nothing in the plant family unless its somehow distilled for potency in a lab is quick and painless
Agree too. Death by suffocation, you don't want that.
 
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Aug 6, 2019
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Agree too. Death by suffocation, you don't want that.

That's how I'm going to die (suffocation from ALS heart & lung muscle atrophy) if I don't just drink my N. Suffocating sounds awful.
 
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purplemoon

I Have the Light Inside, Surrounded by Darkness
Sep 22, 2019
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Hello so I have a question. I was reading about various methods and at this point I just need something cheap but for it to work. I don't care about the pain anymore but I'm too chicken shit to jump and I don't have access to a firearm otherwise I wouldn't still be here.

But I was wondering if anyone knew anything about Hemlock Seeds and if ingesting them would actually help me ctb. If so, how many seeds?

I have both Water and Poison Hemlock seeds. I am willing to take both if necessary. Again, I don't care about the pain at this point (and I know Water Hemlock sounds utterly horrific but what's a bit more pain before I can have peace), I just want to ctb. I was attempting to read The Old Vegetable Neurotics by John Harley but can't focus long enough on it.

If Hemlock Seeds won't do it, are there some other cheap but effective seeds you could recommend?

Hi, but HOW can i please find or buy those Hemlock seeds plant, etc???

Pretty please tell me and thank you!
 
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Pykul

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Sep 22, 2019
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Hi, but HOW can i please find or buy those Hemlock seeds plant, etc???

Pretty please tell me and thank you!
YouTube has many vids showing where to find and how to identify. Waiting til spring will be easiest to find them as they are all dried and brown and leafless now.
Look for tall plants (6-9 feet tall) thick stalks (1" plus) growing in fence lines, along farm fields, roadways. White umbrella-like flowers. Fern like leaves. Most distinguishing is the purple spots or streaks on the stalk. Both water and poison hemlock have this characteristic. Without those spots, your getting wild carrots, wild parsnips, or wild parsley.
The seeds are small and look like anise seeds. 1-2mm long, slightly curved. Each plant will produce 1000+ seeds.
 
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LonelyCarioca

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Sep 11, 2019
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I was looking into castor bean seeds a while ago. Their ricin content is deadly poisonous, no antidote available, so I guess it is fail proof but might be painful.
I tried this. I chewed and ate 10 beans (nasty things by the way, I still get nauseous thinking about the taste). I don't know if you need anti ems for it, but I woke up in the middle of the night puking my guts out. This was when I was younger and dumber and didn't research my methods properly :shy: I know ricin is extremely deadly so I'm sure my body reacted to prevent it from being absorbed.
 
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purplemoon

I Have the Light Inside, Surrounded by Darkness
Sep 22, 2019
394
I ingested 10 castor beans a few years back (another try to leave this horrific planet prison)... I put them in a few clear plastic bags, took a hammer to them for 10 minutes (ingesting them whole goes right through with minimal ricin apparently)... and they did taste really gross just like you said. I woke up a couple days later with pee etc all in bed (yes i got new sheets) and my skin was yellow for almost 2 weeks. I had to ask a neighbor what day it was. Ricin is supposedly so lethal yet consuming 10 crushed castor beans just seemed to induce a 2 day coma and jaundice. Maybe it depends on someone's kidneys/liver? Thanks for your share, and may i say it's very relieving to chat with other people that don't freak out about how many of us just want to be free from the world.

:-)
 
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