Help

[Passersby]

I need help but there is nothing to be done. This thread is stupid I know but this is a suicide forum. I am suffering a lot right now. To the people I know can somebody pm me please? Or anyone who gives a shit. Looks like nobody is on line. I have just realized that I can't do this anymore. There is no way out. If anyone feels like talking get a hold of me please.
This sucks. I've been doing this shit for way toooooooo longgggggggg. Can hardly type this message even. It's just so dumb and pointless to gooo on suffering for years and years because of si, fear, or whatever. I don't even know what to do anymore. what Are you up too? My friend ctb a while back. I keep thinking maybe I'll hear back but I haven't since they are dead I guess. Help being in a situation and knowing that nothi)g can be done. I've been planning ctb for a long time. I don't even know what to say. I just want it to stop. Like I said I guess this is stupid maybe idk. The mind is doing some crazy stuff right now. I don't know what is going on. I cant hard,t breath and lots ofcrazy shit.

 

[Sobreviviente]

I'm sorry that you have so much suffering. I would be glad to chat with you, but I still can't, I have too few messages. Anyway if it may help - please know that we are all experiencing suffering here, someone more than you, someone less. Personally I lost both of my legs in suicide attempt and now experiencing such a level of phantom pain that my mental suffering which led to it now seems to look more like happiness.

 

[Passersby]

I'm sorry that you have so much suffering. I would be glad to chat with you, but I still can't, I have too few messages. Anyway if it may help - please know that we are all experiencing suffering here, someone more than you, someone less. Personally I lost both of my legs in suicide attempt and now experiencing such a level of phantom pain that my mental suffering which led to it now seems to look more like happiness.

I am so sorry to hear about your suffering. Yes there will always be people suffering from all kinds of crazy stuff and like you said some more and some less. I just don't know what to do. Maybe you can type a few more messages in this thread and then you would have enough to be able to pm. Looks like you already have 19 so I'm pretty sure that is enough but maybe not. I thought it was like 5 or so. Idk. Are you doing any better now mentally considering ?

 

[I need peace]

I've been through some shit lately, I'm not good with kind words and stuff but I'm open to PM's to at least be distractful, I could use that too..

 

[Hans Voralberg]

I pm you. Im here for you.

 

[Passersby]

I've been through some shit lately, I'm not good with kind words and stuff but I'm open to PM's to at least be distractful, I could use that too..

Thanks sorry to hear that.

I pm you. Im here for you.

Thanks

 

[Sobreviviente]

Well, unfortunately I still can't PM. It depends on your case what to do, what has brought you so much suffering? In my case the reason to try to commit suicide was my father's suicide, that's briefly. So I had just to wait at least for one year, try to get some antidepressants and take a rest at a hospital for a month or so. I think it would have helped me, but now it's too late, unfortunately. Maybe it's not too late for you though? I've used to say that suicide is a permanent solution for temporary problems. Of course, if problems are really temporary. Mentally considering I would say that now I'm even worst because of my new problem which actually can't be resolved anymore. It can be softened to some grade by prosthetics, but only to some grade, possibly I would be able even to walk without crutches after some long period of time, but I'll never get rid of the filling that my feet stuck in uncomfortable boots, forever, never be able to do jogging without special prosthetics, probably never get rid of phantom pain, never meet a wife or at least never will give her as much pleasure as I could have done before.

 

[Sobreviviente]

Well, to say the truth idk, it depends on what is waiting for us on the other side. Whether there is nothing, better or worst. Yeah, you are right about life. Have you tried to stay in hospital for a while and just relax, don't care about anything, try to watch some films and talk to your roommates there? Doesn't the feeling that someone other who lays down nearby has even sillier life help? Or it is not the question of comparison, it's more about that finally we all will be dead, so isn't it better to do it faster? Hard to say, but if you are asking about that here then your SI is quite strong and probably you have try something to improve your situation. At least try. Maybe there is some thing that can make you happier but you have strong doubts that it's possible to succeed? At least you can try. I'm sorry, I'm not a therapist, just trying to help you somehow.

 

[Passersby]

I cant stay ina hospital right now because I have to do the necessary things in order to make money to keep this train goin and not become homelsss. I have been in before yes. There are only certain times that I can even watch tv or even be on this forum. The brain won't allow it. It has helped a little but also becomes so depressing that it also gets worse. I feel thst I should nit exist anymore. I don't know how to achieve it though. There will always be bad days and days that aren't as bad too. Yes si is strong. Thanks for the kind words. keep Hiding it I guess as long as I am alive. Can anybody please pm me? Thanks

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are in such an unbearable situation. Living can be very painful and I understand that it is hard to carry on when everything feels so hopeless. Living seems so pointless for me as well. I hope that you find relief from your suffering in whatever happens.

 

[Passersby]

Thanks @FuneralCry . Good to see you. The thing is at this point like you said it's just so pointless and why should I keep going? Only for things to get worse and get older and go into a rest home or be homeless. I feel bad. I am sad. I just freaked out because the website went down for me for thr last half hour. Looks like it's good now though. What are we going to do in this life?