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[Sad Sunflower]

I have severe anxiety, panic attacks and ptsd. I throw up from fear. I am afraid of living and afraid of dying too. I have very bad existential anxiety. I worry all the time if I end my life if I will go to hell or not. I worry if religion is right and if there's a hell. I worry about not being religious enough and about all my sins and hypocrisy's I have committed in life. I think about ending my life all the time but I am afraid it will hurt. Life hurts too though. I'm sick all the time from anxiety. I want this to end. I just needed to vent and get this off my chest. I worry my panic attacks will last forever. They make me feel like I am crazy and losing my mind. No matter how self aware I am I cannot stop or control this problem that I have. I have been going to therapy and I still am so scared of life and death and the meaning of it all. I am scared right now writing this. I'm afraid of the inevitable too. We all die one day and I'm afraid of it. Sometimes I just pray to God that he will let me die peacefully in my sleep soon because I feel like I can't make it in life. My anxiety is disabling but I haven't filed for disability yet because I am afraid to and afraid of the process. I have a lot of irrational fears. My mind is hell. I have social anxiety. I have trouble keeping a job because of impostor syndrome. I survived an armed robbery at my work and it caused me severe ptsd. I have such bad ptsd that I feel like ending my life all the time but I know I can't because it would hurt the people in my life and also I have a fear of going to hell if I do. I just needed to vent. I feel so alone. I wonder if anyone else feels this way too. I feel like I am the only one with this level of anxiety and depression and ptsd symptoms sometimes even though that's probably not true, it just feels true. It feels isolating beyond words. I just want to be cured. I hope they find a cure for people like me soon because living like this isn't really living at all. It hurts so much. Please help me. Pray for me. Idk what else to say. I need a hug. I need someone to hold me and keep me safe. I feel so scared all the time like a helpless child. I want to cry right now. I wish there was a cure so I could stop feeling this way.

Thanks for letting me vent and open up about my problems and thoughts.

 

[FuneralCry]

That really sounds so horrific what you have to endure, it must be so torturous and exhausting, the only hell that exists is this nightmarish world, I very strongly believe that death is true peace, we simply cease existing and we are completely unaware for all eternity. Death truly is the only relief, at least for me, I think that religion is just a fictional concept designed to brainwash people.

 

[AllFoxedOut]

What you are going through sounds so awful. I will pray for you after I post this reply.

 

[𖣂𖣂𖣂.]

I have severe anxiety, panic attacks and ptsd. I throw up from fear. I am afraid of living and afraid of dying too. I have very bad existential anxiety. I worry all the time if I end my life if I will go to hell or not. I worry if religion is right and if there's a hell. I worry about not being religious enough and about all my sins and hypocrisy's I have committed in life. I think about ending my life all the time but I am afraid it will hurt. Life hurts too though. I'm sick all the time from anxiety. I want this to end. I just needed to vent and get this off my chest. I worry my panic attacks will last forever. They make me feel like I am crazy and losing my mind. No matter how self aware I am I cannot stop or control this problem that I have. I have been going to therapy and I still am so scared of life and death and the meaning of it all. I am scared right now writing this. I'm afraid of the inevitable too. We all die one day and I'm afraid of it. Sometimes I just pray to God that he will let me die peacefully in my sleep soon because I feel like I can't make it in life. My anxiety is disabling but I haven't filed for disability yet because I am afraid to and afraid of the process. I have a lot of irrational fears. My mind is hell. I have social anxiety. I have trouble keeping a job because of impostor syndrome. I survived an armed robbery at my work and it caused me severe ptsd. I have such bad ptsd that I feel like ending my life all the time but I know I can't because it would hurt the people in my life and also I have a fear of going to hell if I do. I just needed to vent. I feel so alone. I wonder if anyone else feels this way too. I feel like I am the only one with this level of anxiety and depression and ptsd symptoms sometimes even though that's probably not true, it just feels true. It feels isolating beyond words. I just want to be cured. I hope they find a cure for people like me soon because living like this isn't really living at all. It hurts so much. Please help me. Pray for me. Idk what else to say. I need a hug. I need someone to hold me and keep me safe. I feel so scared all the time like a helpless child. I want to cry right now. I wish there was a cure so I could stop feeling this way.

Thanks for letting me vent and open up about my problems and thoughts.

Try meditation,working out, be outside, you can't run from your fears you have to face them if you have no one to talk too my dms are open.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry you have to go through this. It's so horrible what you have to endure. I send *virtual hugs* your way and pray for you and Ihope you can find peace! When you have a few more messages your chat function will be activated to ber able to chat with others. I wish you all the best!

 

[am1485]

I can relate to the severe anxiety. I used to not be able to even leave my room and wouldn't be able to deal with social things at all without being heavily medicated.

Quick question do you take any medication? Klonopin seemed to help me with the panic attacks. Maybe it can help you.

Believe it or not the anxiety actually got better over time so there is hope. I don't take any anxiety medication now but I did for a number of years.

I'm just so sorry that you are going through all of this stuff. I know how debilitating it can be. It sounds like you have been through a lot. I will pray for you. *Hug*