TL;DR: I had a ton (1 box and 30 pills extra) of Trintellix Anti-Depressants here, will OD-ing on that work? I also have benadryl here (2 pills).
What are the best methods? Preferably non painful and pill based methods, other suggestions are welcome too :3
Hello everyone! I have been lurking here since 2022 (I believe), and just first posted here.
Last year, I (M, 21) was diagnosed with MDD. I had stopped taking my pills, collected them unopened, and pretended i'm fine. The reason why I pretended that im fine is that Therapy and Antidepressants in my country are hella expensive, and our family is (1) in the lower class, and (2) my dad's insurance doesn't cover mental health things (Plus, i am not covered by my dad's insurance since im 21). If I told my psychiatrist the truth, she'd maybe get me to take pills for life (just like the lady i talked to in the waiting room in the psych ward).
Dad's retired, and his pension is only enough (no extra funds for therapy). I hate seeing my mum getting and struggling into sidelines just to get me in therapy, kms is the only option i had in mind. Since i'm in the "Persons with Disabilities" program in our government, If i die (even intentionally), my family won't think about the funeral and casket bills. (They'll only think about the plot, but it has like 20% discount to it too).
These are also the reasons why I want to kms:
- I lost my scholarship (and i never told my parents about it)
- Got alot of backlogs at college
- I feel like a massive failure
- Financially viable standpoint
I used to be active and excellent in school. I worked at our school publication as a writer, been a deans lister, 1 GPA (3 or 4 something in the USA), great paying scholarship. Pressure and Sadness starts to kick in and poof. Everything I worked hard for is now gone in a second. I consider myself a failure now. All of my friends will graduate from college this 2024 and at that time, i'll be returning to college still in my 2nd year (in 2nd sem). I should've ignored my feelings at that time and diverted my attention to something else, instead of bedrotting and crying all the time.
What are the best methods? Preferably non painful and pill based methods, other suggestions are welcome too :3
Hello everyone! I have been lurking here since 2022 (I believe), and just first posted here.
Last year, I (M, 21) was diagnosed with MDD. I had stopped taking my pills, collected them unopened, and pretended i'm fine. The reason why I pretended that im fine is that Therapy and Antidepressants in my country are hella expensive, and our family is (1) in the lower class, and (2) my dad's insurance doesn't cover mental health things (Plus, i am not covered by my dad's insurance since im 21). If I told my psychiatrist the truth, she'd maybe get me to take pills for life (just like the lady i talked to in the waiting room in the psych ward).
Dad's retired, and his pension is only enough (no extra funds for therapy). I hate seeing my mum getting and struggling into sidelines just to get me in therapy, kms is the only option i had in mind. Since i'm in the "Persons with Disabilities" program in our government, If i die (even intentionally), my family won't think about the funeral and casket bills. (They'll only think about the plot, but it has like 20% discount to it too).
These are also the reasons why I want to kms:
- I lost my scholarship (and i never told my parents about it)
- Got alot of backlogs at college
- I feel like a massive failure
- Financially viable standpoint
I used to be active and excellent in school. I worked at our school publication as a writer, been a deans lister, 1 GPA (3 or 4 something in the USA), great paying scholarship. Pressure and Sadness starts to kick in and poof. Everything I worked hard for is now gone in a second. I consider myself a failure now. All of my friends will graduate from college this 2024 and at that time, i'll be returning to college still in my 2nd year (in 2nd sem). I should've ignored my feelings at that time and diverted my attention to something else, instead of bedrotting and crying all the time.
