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[Trilly]

My name is John Sasu. I'm above 18 years old. My activity is in the Suicide Discussion forum of Sanctioned Suicide, where all the goodbye threads are, and I am not pro-death, I'm just pro-choice. I work as a bus driver for the Sancho Suerside company, and I log on every day by 8 PM at the latest. I don't self-harm, but I occasionally attempt. I'm offline by 11 PM, and make sure I post at least 10 threads a day, no matter what. After pouring a glass of sodium nitrite and doing about twenty minutes of fighting survival instinct before going to bed, I usually have no problems staying awake until morning. Just like a mental ward patient, I wake up with crippling fatigue, suicidal ideation and stress in the morning. I was told "I hope you find peace" and "Do you have SN source?" on my last vent. I'm trying to explain that I'm a person who wishes to die a very quiet death. I take care not to trouble myself with any recovery, like therapy or medication, that would cause me to think I might still have a will to live. That is how I deal with society, and I know that is what brings me unhappiness. Although, if I were to kill myself I wouldn't be stopped by anyone.

 

[thefarter]

Hey is ur name actually John sasu that's kinda crazy.

also i think people would stop you if they knew you were trying to kill yourself.

 

[SASU-KE]

Hey is ur name actually John sasu that's kinda crazy.

also i think people would stop you if they knew you were trying to kill yourself.

I think he's just making a comedic post for all the lurkers who are bound this way due to the recent YouTube video.Not sure though.

 

[thefarter]

oh whoops
i didn't realise

 

[Unsure and Useless]

Hello, John SaSu, it is I, Johnathan Tourist. I find your post quite fascinating, and I would like to impart some wisdom to you in this time of your life when you are incapable of thinking for yourself

Tell me, have you ever considered that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem? I'm sure there are people out there in your life who love you very much that don't want you to take your life like this. Things will get better, I'm sure of it, because the Bible said so

Speaking of the Bible, did you know it is a sin to take your own life? God made us all in His own image, so by taking your own life, you are spitting on the gift He granted you, a child made from His love for humanity. Please reconsider this path you are taking, for you do not truly understand what you are getting into

I know my compassionate words full of empathy are enough to sway you from the path of sin, and if you disagree, you're lying and purposefully being difficult

Wishing you well,
Johnathan Tourist
PhD in Preventing People from CTB

 

[Awesomefoid67]

67/10 post

 

[bobsacamano]

Hello, John SaSu, it is I, Johnathan Tourist. I find your post quite fascinating, and I would like to impart some wisdom to you in this time of your life when you are incapable of thinking for yourself

Tell me, have you ever considered that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem? I'm sure there are people out there in your life who love you very much that don't want you to take your life like this. Things will get better, I'm sure of it, because the Bible said so

Speaking of the Bible, did you know it is a sin to take your own life? God made us all in His own image, so by taking your own life, you are spitting on the gift He granted you, a child made from His love for humanity. Please reconsider this path you are taking, for you do not truly understand what you are getting into

I know my compassionate words full of empathy are enough to sway you from the path of sin, and if you disagree, you're lying and purposefully being difficult

Wishing you well,
Johnathan Tourist
PhD in Preventing People from CTB

The hurting of my family members is the only thing keeping me from taking the plunge (and even on that front I think it would be just a short term issue for them and they'd get over it pronto and at least as to my wife she'd be better off). Religious considerations don't carry weight for me on this issue but I suppose that's a much larger debate.

 

[pax420]

Hello, John SaSu, it is I, Johnathan Tourist. I find your post quite fascinating, and I would like to impart some wisdom to you in this time of your life when you are incapable of thinking for yourself

Tell me, have you ever considered that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem? I'm sure there are people out there in your life who love you very much that don't want you to take your life like this. Things will get better, I'm sure of it, because the Bible said so

Speaking of the Bible, did you know it is a sin to take your own life? God made us all in His own image, so by taking your own life, you are spitting on the gift He granted you, a child made from His love for humanity. Please reconsider this path you are taking, for you do not truly understand what you are getting into

I know my compassionate words full of empathy are enough to sway you from the path of sin, and if you disagree, you're lying and purposefully being difficult

Wishing you well,
Johnathan Tourist
PhD in Preventing People from CTB

Hello Johnathan Tourist, it is I John Boy Calling People Out On BS! Damn I have a long name! I find your post......funny as hell! I would like to impart some wisdom on you in the time of your life when you are incapable of thinking for yourself because you are too busy thinking you are better than everyone else.

Have you ever considered that most people here have tried everything else and most of us don't want to be here but we have come to conclusion that our problems are not temporary and, unfortunately, things will not get better. Take me for example, my girlfriend of 26 years passed away 2 years ago from colon cancer. I prayed and prayed to your God and it did not help her get better and didn't help at all with her pain. She died a horrible death. I know God works in mysterious ways and has a purpose or plan for everything. That's always the excuse when prayer does not work. Or my faith wasn't strong enough. I've heard that too. After she died I became sick and unable to work anymore. I lost the house we bought, built, and made into a home. I became homeless and ended up in the hospital and after 3 strokes and 3 heart attacks, am now on oxygen 24/7, have a defibrillator implanted in me, and am in constant bone and joint pain because of rheumatoid and osteoarthritis. I've had 17 surgeries and still need my hips and shoulders replaced. My heart is functioning at 10-15% I've been given a 3-5 year expiration date and there is nothing else they can do. My parents are dead and I haven't and won't speak to my sister in 30 years. So no loved ones and no friends except the people I have met on here. So no things will most definitely not get better. I'm not going to sit around in pain and barely able to breathe for 3 -5 more years. Would you actually wish that on one of your loved ones rather than them peacefully stopping it on their own. Who would be the selfish one? I'm 56 years old and I'm not depressed and my brain is functioning at 100%. As is most of the peoples on here. We're just tired of suffering and know that it is not going to get better and we believe that the choice should be ours. We are not a death cult. Nobody is coercing us to do anything. Nobody is helping us either by telling me how to do it or where to get the supplies to do it. The Bible also says it's a sin to eat pigs and shellfish.

And speaking of the Bible it also says we are given the freewill to serve him or not. I did for 54 years of my life and recently lost my faith and belief and that's ok too.

If you compassionate, emphatic words are enough to sway anybody from their "path of sin" then they weren't serious about it in the first place and my needed to be steered away from that path. But the ones of us who are staying with our plan are not being dishonest or difficult, we're just doing what we were given the freedom to do. And another thing about you and your Bible. Remember you ate not supposed to judge us and YOU will be punished for it. I believe that's in there too. Kmart went out of business giving out them fake PhDs. I used to put up fences, so I too had a PhD, Post Hole Digger.

Wishing you well
John Boy Calling People Out On BS
PhD in my right and business to ctb

 

[ShadowOfASelf]

Hello, John SaSu, it is I, Johnathan Tourist. I find your post quite fascinating, and I would like to impart some wisdom to you in this time of your life when you are incapable of thinking for yourself

Tell me, have you ever considered that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem? I'm sure there are people out there in your life who love you very much that don't want you to take your life like this. Things will get better, I'm sure of it, because the Bible said so

Speaking of the Bible, did you know it is a sin to take your own life? God made us all in His own image, so by taking your own life, you are spitting on the gift He granted you, a child made from His love for humanity. Please reconsider this path you are taking, for you do not truly understand what you are getting into

I know my compassionate words full of empathy are enough to sway you from the path of sin, and if you disagree, you're lying and purposefully being difficult

Wishing you well,
Johnathan Tourist
PhD in Preventing People from CTB

I know this is a joke but technically God also took His own life since Jesus was God and He arranged his death on purpose, he just used the more uncommon method of "arrange to be betrayed and kissed by one of your best friends and then killed by Romans", I believe that's one of those methods listed under "non-methods that should not be attempted", but hey it can work.

 

[chloeburbank]

Hey is ur name actually John sasu that's kinda crazy.

also i think people would stop you if they knew you were trying to kill yourself.

cig_cats spotted

 

[jengablocks]

i love u john sasu . u are my idol

 

[EternalShore]

hilarious thread~ nice job~ :)

 

[throwawayghm]

I think he's just making a comedic post for all the lurkers who are bound this way due to the recent YouTube video.Not sure though.

theres another video?

 

[SASU-KE]

theres another video?

Yeah it seems another one came out as well.

 

[throwawayghm]

Yeah it seems another one came out as well.

kinda curious what they say u got a link?

 

[SASU-KE]

I don't have it.I haven't even watched this first video, but yesterday someone posted a thread where they linked the second one. I don't want to give that Turkey any attention. That being said, I am of course interested in the controversy itself

 

[Pluto]

 

[CatLvr]

This has got to be the single best thread I have seen since I joined SaSu. Thank you!! Brilliantly done! (To everyone!)

 

[pax420]

This has got to be the single best thread I have seen since I joined SaSu. Thank you!! Brilliantly done! (To everyone!)

My part not brilliantly done on purpose. I knew the first one was either a joke or making fun of this site or the people on it, either way, not funny. It takes a lot from us who are posting on here and living in the frame of mind we find ourselves living in. The only reason I acknowledged this thread is because of the post by unsure and useless, Johnathan Tourist. It's hard enough living like this and even harder making this decision without having to throw God and the Bible in the mix. I am grateful for this site and the people on here who is have helped me on my mission. Thanks, John Boy Calling People Out On BS

 

[CatLvr]

My part not brilliantly done on purpose. I knew the first one was either a joke or making fun of this site or the people on it, either way, not funny. It takes a lot from us who are posting on here and living in the frame of mind we find ourselves living in. The only reason I acknowledged this thread is because of the post by unsure and useless, Johnathan Tourist. It's hard enough living like this and even harder making this decision without having to throw God and the Bible in the mix. I am grateful for this site and the people on here who is have helped me on my mission. Thanks, John Boy Calling People Out On BS

I dunno ... I thought you did quite well expressing yourself. A dark sense of humor is not everyone's cup of tea but it IS how a lot of us cope with the demons we ALL have.

I can see the value (and beauty, to be quite honest) in both the OP's comments and your response, equally. We are ALL just trying to find our way through this hot mess called life ...

I have spoken several times before about how SaSu saved my life. Even though I came here looking for ways to end my life, you ALL have given me a safe place to express what cannot, in the world as it is today, be said in polite company. It is my sincere hope that everyone who finds their way here does the same -- finds the hope we all had lost; finds something to smile about; finds something to look forward to; finds themselves, quite by surprise (like I did) in a recovery they can take one day at a time and finally see the sun break through the clouds.

If dark humor is the thing that helps ANYONE then I am okay with that. I also understand that it is not everyone's cup of tea. And for that, I am sorry. I meant no harm (as I am sure the OP also meant none). And so while I am sincere in my wish that you find what you need to help you feel better about life, I also support the OP's "right" to the same things -- including using dark humor to cope. I feel like I am not expressing myself too well right now, but I hope you understand my sincerity.

May you find the peace we all seek.

 

[pax420]

I dunno ... I thought you did quite well expressing yourself. A dark sense of humor is not everyone's cup of tea but it IS how a lot of us cope with the demons we ALL have.

I can see the value (and beauty, to be quite honest) in both the OP's comments and your response, equally. We are ALL just trying to find our way through this hot mess called life ...

I have spoken several times before about how SaSu saved my life. Even though I came here looking for ways to end my life, you ALL have given me a safe place to express what cannot, in the world as it is today, be said in polite company. It is my sincere hope that everyone who finds their way here does the same -- finds the hope we all had lost; finds something to smile about; finds something to look forward to; finds themselves, quite by surprise (like I did) in a recovery they can take one day at a time and finally see the sun break through the clouds.

If dark humor is the thing that helps ANYONE then I am okay with that. I also understand that it is not everyone's cup of tea. And for that, I am sorry. I meant no harm (as I am sure the OP also meant none). And so while I am sincere in my wish that you find what you need to help you feel better about life, I also support the OP's "right" to the same things -- including using dark humor to cope. I feel like I am not expressing myself too well right now, but I hope you understand my sincerity.

May you find the peace we all see t

Yes I get the sincerity and I hope you too find the peace everybody seeks! And I don't mean anybody any harm either. I guess half of me sees the dark humor in everything and the other half leans more towards the lighter side of you know what I mean. I have had three strokes and am horrible at finding and putting the words together I know what I want to say but it's hard to get it out. I know for myself my decision was hard to choose and God and the Bible really messed me up after I had decided. I just hate when people try to use religion to influence others to do or not do something. I'm struggling to write this I hope you and everybody else understands my meaning. I already put a thread up that was taken the wrong way. Thankfully I figured out how to delete it before it really got out there. Lol and I'm also prone to rambling so I'll quit there. Lol

 

[CatLvr]

Yes I get the sincerity and I hope you too find the peace everybody seeks! And I don't mean anybody any harm either. I guess half of me sees the dark humor in everything and the other half leans more towards the lighter side of you know what I mean. I have had three strokes and am horrible at finding and putting the words together I know what I want to say but it's hard to get it out. I know for myself my decision was hard to choose and God and the Bible really messed me up after I had decided. I just hate when people try to use religion to influence others to do or not do something. I'm struggling to write this I hope you and everybody else understands my meaning. I already put a thread up that was taken the wrong way. Thankfully I figured out how to delete it before it really got out there. Lol and I'm also prone to rambling so I'll quit there. Lol

I gotchooooo!! Have you SEEN my posts?!?!! I am the QUEEN of rambling!

I also get the having trouble finding words sometimes, too. I have some fairly significant shrinkage of the front portion of my brain -- the same thing Bruce Willis suffers from. Frontal-temporal dementia, I think it's called, though according to the doctors mine brain shrinkage isn't significant enough to cause me problems. Yet. But my day is coming -- I have noticed my short-term memory is shit these days.

If I had to guess, I would imagine that once my cognitive problems get bad enough my brain and it's constant "we need to die" banging in my head will take over and I will just do it, even though I have every reason under the sun to want to stay these days. (My son and my pets. My life is so much better now than it was this time last year that sometimes I feel guilty even checking in here. And that guilt is compounded by the fact that I am so much older than most of the other folks here. It breaks my heart that so many 18-30 and even 40 year old "kids" are just hopeless now. I cannot even imagine being 20 years old and feeling like there is nothing to look forward to. It's heartbreaking and I would take every bit of that pain from everyone of you kids if I could. I do not understand people my age who have no empathy for what these young people have in front of them.

 

[TrulyNeverCertain]

Hello John Sasu and Johnathan Tourist, Cait Tobus here! Seems I misplaced my schedule again, so I didn't manage to hop on.
(Please feel free to run with this if you can)

Anyway, this post was perfection, thank you all for the laugh :3

 

[pax420]

I gotchooooo!! Have you SEEN my posts?!?!! I am the QUEEN of rambling!

I also get the having trouble finding words sometimes, too. I have some fairly significant shrinkage of the front portion of my brain -- the same thing Bruce Willis suffers from. Frontal-temporal dementia, I think it's called, though according to the doctors mine brain shrinkage isn't significant enough to cause me problems. Yet. But my day is coming -- I have noticed my short-term memory is shit these days.

If I had to guess, I would imagine that once my cognitive problems get bad enough my brain and it's constant "we need to die" banging in my head will take over and I will just do it, even though I have every reason under the sun to want to stay these days. (My son and my pets. My life is so much better now than it was this time last year that sometimes I feel guilty even checking in here. And that guilt is compounded by the fact that I am so much older than most of the other folks here. It breaks my heart that so many 18-30 and even 40 year old "kids" are just hopeless now. I cannot even imagine being 20 years old and feeling like there is nothing to look forward to. It's heartbreaking and I would take every bit of that pain from everyone of you kids if I could. I do not understand people my age who have no empathy for what these young people have in front of them.

I wish I was one of the 'you kids'. Lol even a 40 year old kid again. I kills me seeing these kids on here too. Actually I hate to see anybody on here. But I'm glad it's here. My girlfriend/best friend/partner in crime/only person who every really got me of 25 years.Passed away about 2 years ago. She was the whole reason I woke up every day and lived. Now that she's gone for I've kind of turned into a 'shut in' and because the strokes messed up my speech, I don't really want to talk to people face to face. My brain(what I haven't turned into mush) works fine. I just sound like an idiot when I talk so I don't unless I have to. I used to be very friendly and VERY outspoken. My texts on here is really all I got. I rent a room off of an old friend of mine and I mostly just stay in my room. I used to stay going wide open all of the time and because of my health insurance I'm very limited to what I can do anymore. Thanks for listening to my rambling

 

[doomedbynarrative]

Hello John Sasu and Johnathan Tourist, Cait Tobus here! Seems I misplaced my schedule again, so I didn't manage to hop on.
(Please feel free to run with this if you can)

Anyway, this post was perfection, thank you all for the laugh :3

Howdy John Sasu and Cait Tobus!

Wow you both are so behind in your schedules. You completely missed out on the daily hour long "Quest for the Holy Grail: DSL site" as well as your daily bump of the Pineapple on Pizza forum game. How else are we gonna keep this forum safe from the likes of Johnathan Tourist, or worse, the BBC?

Sincerely,
Jimmy FSHallon

(Sorry I had to)

 

[anomic]

WE all love you John SaSu please keep doing what you do best

 

[DeathByBananabread]

Hello, Johnathans. I'm John Youtuber, & I will be screenshotting this thread & many others for my next Youtube video & taking it out of context, because suicide is a jarring topic that gets a lot of people to pay attention, & I have absolutely zero scruples about exploiting you people so I can make another video on-schedule & even fewer scruples about the fact that my video will definitely lead my audience here. It's almost like I believe people desperate enough to come here have the right to choose to die if they really want, kinda like what you guys think!

Just so you know, I am going to completely ignore the diversity of people here & the sorrow, fear, & conflicted feelings so many of you have, instead portraying everyone present here as sick-&-twisted malicious male edgelords who just want as many people as possible to commit suicide, purely for the lulz. I'm going to completely ignore the nuanced conversations that often happen here- all the conflicting opinions and concerns people have, & instead I'm going to say you're all in a cult. That's what this is, right? A cult? I came here with an agenda & it's kind of impacting my reading comprehension.

 

[jojobanana]

Wait i'm getting fomo what's this youtube vid?

 

[SASU-KE]

This has got to be the single best thread I have seen since I joined SaSu. Thank you!! Brilliantly done! (To everyone!)

You're starting to sound more like Walter these days

Spoiler

That's not a bad thing.Also good to see you feeling better these days?

 

[anomic]

Wait i'm getting fomo what's this youtube vid?

The YouTuber Turkey Tom made a video about SaSu