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- May 5, 2022
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The night time is the only part of the day where I feel at peace. While everyone else is busy sleeping, I remain awake (almost secretly) indulging in all my trivial worthless meaningless pass times.
Laying on my futon eating everything in sight and scrolling about the various social media platforms of which I am a member but don't actively participate in. Merly watching and judging from the comfort of anonymity. Anime shows playing in the background as I buy crap I don't really need or try to make a profit on some random thing I find cheaper than normal and can resell for more etc.
I have not had a major spell of depression in about 2 months so that's good. I fell back into the routine of my lame life and I'm okay for now. I just keep trying to save money and achieve my little selfish goals that mean nothing but will grant me some form of happiness or pleasure for awhile.
I need a girlfriend honestly. But what would I have to offer? Everything about me is negative and I would probably only ruin a chick's life. So I remain alone. I guess that is a good enough excuse right? Not the fact that I'm antisocial when it comes to girls or the fact that I am repulsive. lol a little self deprivation goes a long way. I'm not dumb. I know vagina can't solve my issues. But it sure might be nice.
This is the best time to rant. Everyone on this site is knocked out and no one really pays attention. My late night posts usually get buried and unseen like writing a note in a bottle and throwing it into a vast ocean lol
Anyway, just a little view of my current mental state. Blah. I'm okay I swear. I am finding a way to not ctb and I guess that is Progress. (shrugs)
Laying on my futon eating everything in sight and scrolling about the various social media platforms of which I am a member but don't actively participate in. Merly watching and judging from the comfort of anonymity. Anime shows playing in the background as I buy crap I don't really need or try to make a profit on some random thing I find cheaper than normal and can resell for more etc.
I have not had a major spell of depression in about 2 months so that's good. I fell back into the routine of my lame life and I'm okay for now. I just keep trying to save money and achieve my little selfish goals that mean nothing but will grant me some form of happiness or pleasure for awhile.
I need a girlfriend honestly. But what would I have to offer? Everything about me is negative and I would probably only ruin a chick's life. So I remain alone. I guess that is a good enough excuse right? Not the fact that I'm antisocial when it comes to girls or the fact that I am repulsive. lol a little self deprivation goes a long way. I'm not dumb. I know vagina can't solve my issues. But it sure might be nice.
This is the best time to rant. Everyone on this site is knocked out and no one really pays attention. My late night posts usually get buried and unseen like writing a note in a bottle and throwing it into a vast ocean lol
Anyway, just a little view of my current mental state. Blah. I'm okay I swear. I am finding a way to not ctb and I guess that is Progress. (shrugs)